i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Sick Pt 2

I'm sorta alone at home.Sister is sick too, so mum has taken her to the clinic.All through yesterday, watched movies with the family.We rented `em from VideoEzy.In between, msged Sya.She's sick too! Her MC is till Wednesday.Meaning I'll be returning to school 2 days before.HAHA! Really, it's funny.

My stomach hurts.Gastric Flu.I think I'll go ballistic.I wonder what they're doing at school right now.And now that Sister is sick, well Mum is occupied with her.Yeah Yeah, green-eyed monster.Cuz of that I was damn moody yesterday.

Thursday, 30 July 2009,12:31 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Sick

God, I'm sick.Staying at home is suppose to be fun.But trust me, it isn't.Okay, atleast for me.My whole body burns and the fever isn't going down.No matter, how many panadol tablets I take.So now, I'm on antibiotics.And all the medicine; They're so sweet! It's disgusting.Four days MC, I'm hating this.I want to go to school.I miss school.Haiz.

Since I'm all helpless, mum sponged me last night.Thing is, my body is burning hot and when the cold towel touches, it feels like all hell breaks loose.I almost cried.Just almost.Anyways, I did go school on Monday.And CMT was the best period.Surya IS damn funny.Haha.But Sya, I don't think he meant what he said about your err... You know.Heard he told all the guys.Hehs.

I want Ice Cream...

Labels: Sick

Tuesday, 28 July 2009,20:08 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Normal-ity

Hmmm... I've been thinking.What you guys think about me deleting the whole of this blog? Part of me don't want to, cuz of all the memories.Good&&Bad.But the other part of me, wants a new start.And I already have the new blog add in my mind.Please tell me your thoughts.
I just learnt how to make the heart shaped thingy.I'll make a row full of `em.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
So cool uh? Thank you, youtube! Haha, random much? Anyways, I'm in a whacky mood.I feel like I'm drunk.But I swear I didn't touch any alcoholic drinks.Though Vodka with Ribena doesn't sound so bad right now.Hehs.Looks like I'm asking for it.I want to be sober.Though, I hate the hangover that comes with it.I'm listening to a whole series of Katy Perry songs.She's so weird, I can relate.LOL.
I miss the 5 In Unison.
Oh, Ryan Gosling is hot.And I'd like to watch 'The Notebook'.
Okay a little afternoon update.I'm slightly pissed.Of cuz, not the way I was a few days back.But still.I really want to talk to a couple of people.However, they're all busy with their own people.Hmph.Fine; I'll be understanding, alright?!
Oh, I'm having a very bad sore throat.It hurts real badly.Oh well.Though, I think it is kinda worth it.Since, I ate all that chocolates yesterday.Either way, no more days off school for me.Really, I feel guilty about not going to school quite often recently.So, it's a resolution (in the middle of the year; pft)...

I'm having a high fever right now - 38.5

But I'd really like to go to school tomorrow.Haiz.I'll check my temp in the morning.If it's too high, then too bad.My whole body burns; Ahhh...

`PRYIEE is returning back to normal

Labels: Changes

Sunday, 26 July 2009,21:02 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Reality Check

Hello readers.I know I'm in the worst moods these days.I promise it will improve.It does, from time to time anyway.Depends who I talk to.Hehs.But I'd like to think that everything is gonna be alright.It is.Hmmm... Feeling oddly peaceful at the moment.The feeling is like the calmness one would get after a huge tornado.

Forget my ramblings.I'm going to the NDP rehearsal thingy this evening.Actually, I got to go get ready soon.Divya was such a darling, she gave sister and I the tickets.Woots.And I can't wait to get away far far.I'm not sure why.But it sounds like fun.So, why not, right?

My new song addictions form quite a weird playlist:

Whatever you like- T.I.

Kiss me thru the phone- Soulja Boy ft Sammie

Miss Independent- NeYo

Right round- Flo Rida ft Katy Perry

New Divide- Linkin Park

Weird cuz I never usually listen to music like this before.Always a first time.Haha.I'm laughing more; A good thing, I suppose.Though I feel like I'm in a daze.That some things are part of my dreams.But they're happening in reality.But the ones in my dreams, like today's, I wish would really happen.It was nice.I didn't wanna wake up.Haha.Listening to Charmaine's blog video.The Taio Cruz song.Really soothing.Charmaine's a babe.She made me laugh last night.And smile.LOL.

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Just got back from NDP Rehearsal.So cool.I loved the fireworks.Haha, though I really had a hard time taking a picture of it.I will post it up tomorrow or something.Sister and I are so tired.Made uncle pick us up.Muahaha.

`PRYIEE is taking a break from all this chaos;

Labels: Weird

Saturday, 25 July 2009,12:48 | comment | 0 comment(s)

An Eclipse

{ I can deal with th usual clouds that block.But an Eclipse is unbearable; My Dear Sun }

I'm feeling unbelievably tired.Unbelievable cuz I overslept today and didn't go to school.Instead I slept till 11am and went for dance practice.One thing worth going to school on a Friday for.Anyways...

I'm still reading bits and pieces of Eclipse.And it has got me thinking.Too much, in fact.I wish I didn't feeling this way.I really do; Wish.But it's inevitable and so damn hard to push away.And how the heck am I suppose to stop feeling this way? Idiotic request from an equally idiotic person.Haiz.

" If all perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be;

And if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger... "

- ' Wuthering Heights ' by lead Cathy;

Via Eclipse of th Twilight Series

" I fight for what is mine

And you are most definitely

Mine "

-Priyaa Nedunzeliyan

I miss you, more than I should.Life's unfair-ly complicated.

Labels: Complicated, Eclipse

Friday, 24 July 2009,21:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Messed Up

I was just browsing blogs.Looks like everyone's going through a rough time.That includes me too.Yeah, I know I said life couldn't get any better.But I forgot how it hurts to fall from soaring the sky.I can't explain things very well, even worse on this public blog.However, I think I'll go crazy.Like seriously, literally crazy if I'm going to keep things inside any longer.

So many damn problems:

(1) Studying my best yet failing to succeed

(2) Missing too many people right now.....

(3) Growing complicated feelings for person

The list goes on, but I'd like to stop here.I'd like to beat up someone.Argh.I felt sick through out the morn, and still do.Despite the tears at school, I still want to cry.I'm sick and tired, of every annoying things that happen.

I know life has much more to over and I got every reason to smile.But can I just be upset for a while?... I'd like that a lot.Vulgarities are at my fingertips but I'm being nice.Trying to, atleast.

An unhealthy feeling.Losing weight.Tired.Complicated.Some effin people.Studies.Tests.Exams.Friendships.Sick.Crazy.Me.You.Them.

Hmmm... I've got this thought/yearning.

But I promise something.When I pass my Maths test, I'll go ahead feeling that way.Cuz then I know I deserve it.Oh wth.I'l start smiling now, okay? FINE!

"You're so beautiful.Outside and Inside.No take-backs.You are beautiful..."

Messed up gets a whole new meaning;

`PRYIEE thinks maybe, just maybe, everything's got to go this way;

Labels: Confused, Sick, Tired

Thursday, 23 July 2009,16:10 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Birthday Bash, Literally...

I shall make this official.

19072009-Sunday

20072009-Monday

They are the best days ever! And ever means for now.LOL.Anyways, seeing the picture below, you'll get that I had a blast with the family.True.So much of fun, yet so little time.Anyways, got to school early today cuz Divya said she had something to give me.She presented me with an orange necklace, which she said probably only I'll dare to wear.Thanked her.

Syafiqah arrived and said she needed to give tissue papers to the Council for some Enviroment thingy.Her prezzie was a pretty little Name keychain.Cho Chweet.I followed her with Divya.Mid-way, Syafiqah covered my eyes, but apparently they weren't ready so I was made to wait at the girls' toilet.After what seemed like hours (Dramatic, I know!), we finally came out.I found:

Biri, Rohini, Lavania, Anita, Habibah, Logesh, Biri's friends, Venkat and along with Syafiqah and Divya

They were waiting for me, with a birthday cake! OhMyGod, why do I get such awesome surprises?? They sang me Happy Birthday, and I cut the cake once again.I fed everyone.Syafiqah and Rohini decorated my face.Since, I couldn't find anyone else, I smeared cake on Venkat's face; Had no choice -.-

It was so cool and I was truly grateful to them, I swear.Went up and tried to take pictures with the gang.Tried is the keyword here.So now my handphone has a bunch of hilarious videos and nonsensical pictures.Biri and Lavania came down.Biri gave me a box of FR's and a handmade damn nice card.I shared the chocolates with everyone.Got a bunch of hugs too ;)

Mentioned my birthday to Mrs L and she gave me a Dove chocolate.I shared it with others too.Then during Science practical lesson, we were doing an experiment on fire.So, there was a lighted candle.In the end, for fun, Ms N wanted someone to blow it out.Damn.Yes, I blew it out.And everyone sang me Happy Birthday once more, in the Science Lab.

During CMT, had a crazy chat session with Surya, Srivatsa and Syafiqah.Orthodox has a new meaning now.Hehs.Anyways, I love my life!! Weee!! Seriously. though.I'm gifted and I appreciate everything everyone has done for me.Thank you all.Really really thank you.

`PRYIEE loves her life and you're th reason

Labels: Birthday, Family, Friends, Happiness, Happy, Life, Love

Monday, 20 July 2009,21:53 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Happy Birthday

I loved today and will never forget it; It was so beautiful it made me wanna cry! Thanks for all th wishes!~

Sunday, 19 July 2009,22:21 | comment | 0 comment(s)

`I Love You, Guys!~

My head hurts real bad.I promise I'll never make the mistake of sleeping with my hair wet.Argh.The whole day has been going past in a daze.And I wanna thank Charmaine Babe, once again; For last night.

You know I haven't been exactly looking forward to my birthday.Seriously.I don't hate it, just like it's another year kinda thing going through my head.But today changed things.

I was sitting, near the window re-reading Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince.-.- The breeze was so beautiful, I just wanted to start crying.Really; It was so beautiful it made me wanna cry.Then I thought about how beautiful my life is.And I wanted to wake up to another day, see another week, month, year roll on.And I was eager to turn 14.It's a weird reason.But it is my reason.

I'm in a relatively good mood today.I made up my mind, last night! It's a great feeling to have a stable mindset about your life, ya know? I can't stop thinking about all the good things in my life.So I'm dedicating this post to all who make me smile.I've told my parents/family personally already.

Here goes:

Biri :

You've made me laugh through my tears, and have loved me for who I am.You've stood by my decisions, however ridiculous and been there for me.You're the best sister and I thank God I found you! ily.

Himanshu :

Though I only know you for a few months, I've shared with you a great lot.Thanks for hearing me out and giving me great advices.I can only hope I get a big brother like you in my next life!

Charmaine :

I've spoken to you several times only.But those are treasured memories.I will follow my heart and Thank you so much!

Rashidha :

You don't say much, but when you do you make the most sense.More than the rest of us, Indian girls.ily.During th morns of Mondays, you've kept me company and I will never forget that.

Syafiqah :

Hyper and all, you're sorely missed when you're not yourself.But ily and will forever, no matter what.We'll find our differences, but I know we'll accept each other's changes.We'll change and grow up together.

Divya :

However many fights and however annoying, you've grown on me.I know I don't seem to agree with everything you say/do.But when everything goes wrong and you trip, I'll catch you before you fall.I'll be there for you!

Rohini :

You, spastic lover, are much appreciated.We've gone through ups and downs, but good to know, we'll be giving a hand when in need.Sometimes, your nonsensical sense is what makes sense!

Ifah :

Ms English Pro, I swear you're a darn good person if you just stop trying so hard to be bad.LOL.But for the record, you're pretty good person to talk to.

Mariyah :

As long as I'm your Mummy, daisies and cupcakes won't be far off.I tell you things and you do the mature thing by not commenting much.I really like that about you.Panic! At The Disco Forever!?!

Hazwani :

You're one sarcasm filled teenager.I like your don't-care-what-you-think attitude.And I will remember even if you don't, when I was new to 1/2, you pulling out the chair beside yours for me.Thanks!

Surya :

I really had fun during camp and finally got to know you.Seriously funny guy to be with.Thanks for the countless laughters!

Srivatsa :

You're a genius, no doubt about that.But you're great to talk to.And sometimes when I feel excluded, you've a way of making me feel welcomed.Thanks a million!

Venkat :

I know I don't talk much to you, but when I do, I never regret it.Thanks for the numerous advices.I've learnt a lot off you; You make a real good role model.And your funniness is greatly appreciated! And I hope we will continue this great friendship; Which I do treasure ever much.

Rosma :

When I was going through the worst times of my life, you were there for me.You listened to me endless whining and I'm grateful for that.You'll always be my baby!

Khairina :

When I sent you that self quiz msg, you replied with answers to my abilities as a person.I learnt a lot about myself from you and I love you for that.

Diyanah :

Haha, we're born on the same day.So, we shall continue mesmerising the world with our presence.But I'll say, Diyanah star is shining ever so brightly.

Krish :

Dude, I miss you and love you; Seriously wish you were here next to me!

Haris :

Many things I've told you.imy and ily too!! 5 In Unison foever!

Namirah :

Girl, I miss your sassy ways and duh! I love you too.

I love you guys all a lot.There are so many instances when I ask myself 'What if I had not...'

But that doesn't matter.

Cuz right now, life's beautiful, you guys are here

You guys are the colours in my life

And I don't worry cuz everything's gonna be alright ;)

Labels: Birthday, Dedications, Happy

Saturday, 18 July 2009,21:24 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Confessions;

Sometimes, you don't need to like the things you do.Like love; it's inevitable.And totally unplanned and we sometimes don't want to admit it due to some ego/used-to-be hurt problems.Okay, not we, but I.Oh well.

I watched 'Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince' yesterday night.The whole theatre was filled up.About the film, even though some scenes were fictionalised and it didn't show some important parts, I thought overall it was quite okay.It exceeded my expectations.And Haris, don't say my expectations are low kay.LOL.And I thought the acting was done damn well by everyone.Snape, Draco, Hermoine.I can't stop laughing for this line.

"My Won Won!"-Lavendar Brown

HAHA!

I'm addicted to one song.Not cuz of the meaning or the tune.Just that I feel I can relate.Hmmm... This is really odd.I don't know what to say.And I felt like crying last night.I felt so helpless.Cuz you know, these words, are ones I don't think I'll ever be able to say.I hope I will one day, though.I didn't want to attend school.The only reason I went was due to that Blueberry Cupcake.Hehs.

I've never taken this long to compose one entry.But guess there's always a first time for everything.I don't know exactly how to explain this.However this is how I feel:

"Th one word on my lips

On my mind

Filled every part of my body

And soul

It's your name

I might not know you

Everything or anything

But those eyes

And everything you feel behind them

I see

Feel

And understand it

Th sun has set

I hope I'll get through this night"

It's not an emo post or an emo phase.I just feel this way.And I don't want to fake my feelings.Yet I don't want to share it with anyone else, cuz it's so hard to understand.Why? Why? Why? The confusions sets in, and I know like everytime before, I'm going to face it alone.

It's a damn cold night.

Silence is much appreciated;

This cold night;

Can I please keep my heart for myself?

`PRYIEE loves her 16072009 post, poem;

Labels: Confused, Happy, Love, Mood, Movie

Friday, 17 July 2009,21:27 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Torn In Two♥

They weren't kidding when they said school was a jungle, especially secondary school.Countless things happened today.I'm not sure where to start, even more on where to end.Haha.But I'll let you'll know, I got out with no hurt.Cuz I fought with no one.

Anyways, Maths was first period.I'm beginning to understand the curve graphs.I just need a little more practice.During MT, Mrs T seemed a bit annoyed with something.I'm not sure exactly what, cuz we didn't laugh as much as we usually do.By the way, I'm beginning to like the blueberry cupcake, that's being sold at the canteen.LOL.

English was... Hmmm, vile.Vile temper, more like.I'm not sure of the problem.But I'm still going to help those two patch up.Really.No one should be enemies.It ain't good for anyone.Science was okay.Ms N is getting funnier by the day.In my point of way, anyway.EE, I joined an all boys group.It was fun.We talked about Harry Potter and other stuff.So cool uh.

During CME, we were divided into groups and had to work on whatever we wanted.A song, poem, anything for National Day.Kwok Ying, Amir, Rohini and I just wandered together.So, Mrs L requested Rohini did a song.Thus, we started with the drumming, singing, lyrics and all.OhMyGod, it was so cool.I love the song we made.So hip and I just love it okay? Nuff said.

Surya and I made our way to the HOD room for our MT Test.Apparently, we were absent on the same day.It was freaky being in that small room.And my hands were shaking, I wasn't up for it.So was Surya.He's really sick.I shall remember to bring him some lozenges tomorrow.The girls waited for me till 4pm++.Sweet of them.I took the bus with Rohini.And she composed while I read.I missed my stop cuz of that.Haha, nevermind.

Thought for the day:

You; Th heart hasn't come back yet

I; Wishing I can be not only th medicine

But your everything

Cuz where you are

There's nothing

I will see

But you and you only

We have no used to be's

Just my ever after fantasies

She stole your heart

You stole mine

Hope Lovebirds come online soon.I've a confession to make.

Is two too much?

One problem

Two Sides

Three solutions

`PRYIEE is torn in two

Labels: Confessions, Confused, Problems

Thursday, 16 July 2009,17:18 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Parading Sentiments

Hello world.It's very difficult to explain my current mood.Half-hyper and half-emo.What a great combination.Anyway, first off, today's a hot babe's 14th birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHARMAINE!

And then, secondly, I only slept at 4am this morning.And got up 1hr later.Haha, so am mentally unstable.When I stepped into class, found everyone busily studying for Science CT.I did the same too.Kwok Ying, Srivatsa, Rohini and I tested each other.

Nothing interesting happened, except for Mrs L who constantly made odd comments and weird noises.Haha.I was supposed to take the MRT with Syafiqah but the plan changed last minute.Later, I might going to Lot 1 with the family.Important mission.lol.Oooh, a bit more of Harper's Island logic:(Sorry I can't resist)

I know I was itching to know the ending of the show.But now that it is over, I miss it already.Seriously.I mean, yes, I miss my favourite characters and the whole mystery element in my Sunday nights.Haha.Still, life must go on.But I don't think I'll stop talking/thinking about Harper's Island.Actually, putting the whole murdering aspect of the show aside, I learnt lots of things from it.About Friendship, Love, Trust, Wedding venues.Haha, the last one seriously I mean it.Rohini, why don't you have it in KUSU Island/Sentosa Island? LOL.Just joking...

Hmmm... Parading our sentiments? Lots of people around me have started to do that.And it isn't like the made up ones.It's real, raw emotions and they're quite sentimental.Even though I'm feeling incredibly sleepy and grouchier(sp?) by the second, I feel I haven't written as much.Odd.Very odd.

A few more lines, in this weird small font...

Sometimes, giving in to our loved ones

Isn't losing at all

And giving in is different from giving up

My mind is made up

Love is, indeed, crap

Maybe I'll change my mind

But for now it shall remain thus

`PRYIEE falls into th fire and sleeps in a heap of ashes;

Eccentric or what?

Labels: Birthdays, Outing, Rohini, Syafiqah

Wednesday, 15 July 2009,14:51 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Love Or Logic?

The week started off wrong for me.Especially Monday; CMT period.Haiz.Anyway, let's work out a bit of Harper's Island logic:

I understand the love okay, Rohini? You ain't no fool.It was sad.But it can't be denied that there was something going on with Henry and Trish even if he didn't really love her.He did care for her.And as for me, Abby && Jimmy forever! Seriously.Like you said, Rohini.You like the mushy mushy, sweet obvious love types.I like the ones that are rarely shown, and it's enough that we know it's there.lol.

Today, school was fine.For the first time, heard my English teacher laugh.PE was fun, if you think getting hit by a ball is fun... Oh well.Mrs T didn't come to school.So, it was sorta like free period.I love playing with the bendy ruler.Maths, we did our presentation.I can't believe we completed our project within 5min, while others were presenting.Woots!~

The elective module lesson, three teachers came in.Mr Rafeek, Mrs Abdullah and Mdm Liow.I never thought it would be so fun.Honestly, they're funny.Mr Rafeek especially.Haha.I'm looking forward to every lesson now.Tourism all the way.And I'm not THAT disappointed that I didn't get Journalism.

After lunch, we had Science Remedial.I finally understand and did not bad in the exercise worksheets.Now, I'm not just aiming to pass in tomorrow's Science CT.Took the bus with Rohini and the chinese girls.On the way, walking home, saw mum.Saw, backtracked and went to fetch sister with her.I got KFC dinner for that.I'm awake now after 4hrs sleep.I gotta go study...

Th days grow darker and longer, yet my heart grows lighter and baby, fonder.

I've been missing you'll like crazy.

`PRYIEE

Labels: Miss, Rohini, Science

Tuesday, 14 July 2009,22:09 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Feast Your Eyes

[ TomFelton: Let's embrace th dark side; I admit he'll look better if he smiled ]

[ TaylorLautner: Lalala! Eight pack Alert! ]

[ StevenStrait: I'll drown in my own pool of drool ]

[ RuperGrint: He's cute, no denying that ]

[ JohnnyDepp: Th man has style and charisma ]

[ DanielRadcliffe: Th wizard dude ]

[ EnriqueIglesias: That body, is heaven... ]

[ ChrisPine: Listen to Captain Kirk ]

Okay, don't feel like blogging much.Anyway, I was up half this morning helping Rohini make her blog.lol.It was worth it, cuz I felt real good about it.I'm like that.Real weird and all.Today's a friend's birthday.So...

Happy Birthday =]

{ i'm sorry for th words i can't say }

Labels: Birthday, Pictures, Top 10 Guys

Sunday, 12 July 2009,21:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)

harry potter

Hello.I won't be apologising for my previous post.It's normal and my thoughts I'm free to share.

Anyways, they're putting Harry Potter on Channel 5.Yes yes, I'm a Harry Potter Fanatic.But somehow I can wait for the sixth movie to come out.As much as I enjoy the movie, even more Mr Radcliffe, Mr Grinnt, Mr Felton etc; I prefer the book more.I like having my own imagination.However overactive it can be.

Hmmm... I'd like to mention, if not only dream and appreciate, the extremely hot guys in these Harry Potter films.I'm not cheap or low cuz "Beauty ought to be appreciated".And Males/Guys/Boys/Men are a fine thang.Haha.Yes yes, now where was I?

Oh yes, Harry Potter.They're very good actors, not to forget their awesome Brit accents.LOL.I really wanted to upload pictures of them.However, the server ain't working right.So, maybe another time.Plus, tomorrow is Harper's Island's finale!! ;-)

"Who are you and what have you done with Hermoine?!"- Ron Weasley in Harry Potter 5

` PRYIEE thinks of dreamy smiles whenever I think of you

Labels: Harry Potter, Men, Movie

Saturday, 11 July 2009,21:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

fake promises

Good morning y'all.It's like 8 in the morning.Most Commonwealthians, if not all, have to log in by 0830hrs and we're studying via the internet.Of cuz it sounds insanely cool.But I just can't imagine myself staring in front of the computer for 5hours plus.God.Anyway, it also means everyone's going to be online.So yay! LOL.

I didn't go to school yesterday too.I slept most part of it.Only at about 9pm went to NTUC with the family, to stock up the provisions.Now, I'm just waiting whilst eating oatmeal and drinking blood orange juice.Mmmm... Maybe I'll update more later.If not, then this is it.

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Fine, I'm here for some serious blogging.I'm extremely pissed with one person.No, make that a few.But of cuz, for various, damn colourful reasons! Sometimes, I wonder why I make the mistake of trusting people, again and again and again! And agitated isn't even going to cover it.As much as I would like to say I'm angry, I'm actually really disappointed.Real disappointed and darn annoyed.

I really would like to say it's my fault not yours.But no, it is your fault! No one else's.Not even his.Yours and yours only.I'm disappointed cuz I thought you might have learnt your mistakes, but no.You're just full of sorrys.Just full of your sorrys.I thought maybe this time things would be better.I was wrong.

We'll never be the same ever again.Together.

And you hurt him so badly, it hurts to even see him, always suffering.

I hope you'll learn out of your ways, from now on at least.

Please make no more fake promises.

`PRYIEE will watch him suffer, see her cry && think of you;

Labels: Family, School, Sorry, Study

Friday, 10 July 2009,07:49 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Subway ;-)

Hello.Currently, I'm having a mega headache.I didn't go to school.Instead travelled all the way to SGH, to get MC.Haha, still managed to have fun with sister and mum, in the midst of my grogginess.

I'm re-reading 'Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging'.I'm not sure exactly why, but nvm that.Friday, we've got the day off.Cuz we're to do e-learning from home.We have to log in 5 hours.I don't mind 5 hours infront of the computer.Haha! Monday night went to West Coast with the family to eat.Suria Anna and Periamma followed.So fun.Yesterday, bought Subway dinner.Mmm... I'm craving for more.

Gotta go =)

Wednesday, 8 July 2009,17:03 | comment | 0 comment(s)

40 days&&40 nights

[ Picture edited; Curtesy of Biri/ Tube Top Moment/ And those sleepless nights ]

Damn all the doorbells.I'm serious.My doorbell went on and on, through out the night.Even after I took out the batteries.It was creepy and so damn noisy.LOL.I was pissed off all night.Anyways, tomorrow's there's going to be school.I as well enjoy this last day for this week.Still,my chores await me.Byes.

Monday, 6 July 2009,14:13 | comment | 0 comment(s)

those smiles

I'm back.LOL.I love saying that.Yesterday's party was alright.Surprisingly though, I saw ahem Bharath over there.Only those who know him will understand why it was so surprising.Haha.Anyways, I had a marvellous time with my cousins.Vaikesh and I partied like a rockstar! Meaning we danced our feet off.My nails are painted white.Honestly, I get what Biri's friend said, that it looks ghostly.Really it does.But I was hoping to change friend's opinion.Hehs.

I woke up this morning, it was a back breaking experience.Literally.I was just so tired.Tomorrow is a holiday too, cuz of Youth day.Come on people, let's celebrate the fact that we're so darn young! Oh God, guess I've lost my mind.I spent all afternoon listening to all that sad songs.And msged Biri all the while.We talked about one topic, with variety, of cuz.Haha.

There'll always be those few people who'll never fail to make me smile =)

I watched 'The Other Boleyn Girl'.I love that story.I read the book way before.My imagination was wild so I had difficulty adjusting to the movie.But it was damn cool.I loved it.

Sunday, 5 July 2009,21:02 | comment | 0 comment(s)

cried laughing

I wanted to blog yesterday but somehow fell asleep at 1830hrs and didn't wake up until this morning.Hehs.Yesterday, after school went to my aunt's place cuz she was serving lunch.Suria Anna just got back from NS for the weekend.I was eating lychee, he made me laugh till I couldn't breathe, then I cried real bad.HAHA! Weird, huh? Though, true to some saying.

Tonight going for a 21st birthday party.I'm excited/nervous/scared all on one go.Tube dress moment; Don't laugh.Haiz.I wrote this freaking sad, emo-ish poem on Thursday.It's sad.But I really like it.I'll come back from the party and update more =D

Saturday, 4 July 2009,12:13 | comment | 0 comment(s)

help me birdies, pls?

Hmmm, I'm annoyed with sleep.Or the lack thereof.Anyways, since there was a change of timetable, some lessons repeated.And I have Science all through the week.Maths was slow and slightly painful.I've got to go and perfect the 'Data Distribution Method'.I was looking forward to MT, but Mrs T hadn't come to school.So, we just sat at the study corner and did our work.

Rashidha was suppose to lend me the book, but she disappeared.Divya lent me hers.So, I guess everything's alright now.Science, Ms N didn't come to school.I sat being 'Outcasted', as Ifah puts it, doing my work.I just like being alone.Then, Surya came over and we talked a lot.Haha, long time since I spoke to him that much.Later, found out shocking news from our fellow class comedian.But damn proud of him, cuz he's going to tell her.LOL.

CEP, we had to do an ad for career guidance.Our group did "Forensic Pathologist".CSI thingy, if you don't know what I mean...

Okay, I must be honest.My heart is aching.And I'm confused more than ever.But I trust my intuition/instincts aka gut feeling.It tells me to just do nothing and wait.It sucks, cuz I feel it everytime I look into your eyes.I need birdies' help.Please.

Now I've got to do my homework.Loads of it.Tomorrow's Friday.The weekend is coming.God, I'm tired and I can taste my joy when I'm sleeping in.HAHA!

Labels: Divya, Hurt, Ifah, Rashidha, Tired, weekend

Thursday, 2 July 2009,17:04 | comment | 0 comment(s)

promises

It still feels like the holidays.The pressure hasn't started... Yet.However, the homework load has already begun.Yesterday, had a great time with my family.I finally watched Slumdog Millionaire.Yes, it was admirably directed.Mum and sister fell asleep halfway through.Haha!Those are the moments I wish I could freeze and visit whenever I want.Tough luck, eh? Today, the timetable was a little more forgiving.

We had IT, which wasn't as fun as it had been with Mdm Sri.Haiz.Maths was simple and understandable.Science; we touched on a new topic.Common Test was sorta hard.I ended up writing an essay about the greats of Kopitiam.Haha! I'm eager to know my results, already.Then, took the bus with Syafiqah.Venkat and Shafiq were in for different reasons. ;-)

Know what sleep deprivation is? Well, it's the lack of sleep.Something I have been suffering for quite some time.Really, I feel so tired during the day.It takes me everything to not fall off and get some sleep.

And I'm going to try my best and be that strong person you believe in okays, girlfriend? I promise.A promise to myself too.Yet, I don't worry cuz everything's gonna be alright.Ily.

Labels: Family, Happy, Movie, Syafiqah, Venkat

Wednesday, 1 July 2009,17:35 | comment | 0 comment(s)