i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Smileeee;

[ When life gives you lemons, make lemonade

But when life gives you smiley cereal, just eat them;

They're gooooood ]

Today has been a roller coaster.My moods, that is.

But the day was good overall.

I managed to be alert and attentive in class, even though I only had about 3 hours of sleep.I'm such a survivor.Haha.

PESA auditions was kinda cool.And I thought Jesereen was AWESOME!
Yes, you were.And as much as I'd hate to agree with Surya, I'm envious of you.Ahhhh.lol.

On a more philosophical note, life is slightly disheartening at times.

But then, small things make you happy and give you the strength to keep living.

And I like that very much, honestly.

It's like a small surprise everytime it happens.

Thank you mrye for your hug.

Thank you Divya for your reassurances.

Thank you Rohini for your words.

You guys don't know how much they meant to me;

Labels: Divya, Happy, Jesereen, mrye, Rohini, Smiles

Monday, 24 May 2010,19:19 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Stuck With Each Other

Hello

School is on the roll.Monday was awesome.Crapped around with friends then headed back to Primary School.Personally, I was completely overwhelmed by emotions I became numb.Yeah, I didn't know how to react.Everyone was talking and I kept my mouth shut as much as possible.But it was awesome to see:

Krish, Haris, Mira, Alagu, Sugan, Helen and all those people.

I wish it had been a longer visit.

This morning, felt like the most happiest person on Earth.I have no idea why, but didn't argue with it.Met Rohini at the bustop and went into school.We mugged for the Science Test, as a class.So united.lol.During IT, I was laughing so hard cuz I was high on caffeine.Hehs.The Science Test was quite okay.Cuz I studied! Haha.After school, had lunch with Divya and Rohini.Karthika is so sweet.She bought me Rocher!! Sweet aite? Haha.

I'm looking forward to school, these days.It's kinda fun.More than the last time.

I did a calculation yesterday.I realised I hang out with 7-8 types of groups of people.Interesting eh? Haha.It's good to know I can get along with more than just a few types of people.Now, am mugging for HE project along with Rohini :)

Labels: Divya, Exams, Haris, Krish, Mira, Rohini, Science

Wednesday, 2 September 2009,20:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I don't Care

A great big hello!

My hyperness hasn't gone down yet.lol.Mrs T is back.So no more free periods at the library from now on.Yesterday, zonked out to emo-ness for a while.But got all better after a while.Dance was tiring and I slept in the middle of msging people.Hehs.

Today, Divya and I wasted the entire day cuz of the interview.We were all dressed up by 9plus.But the interviewer didn't arrive till 10plus.So we sat and talked long about stuff.Haha.It was fun.We only attended assembly.After that, had to stay back for area clean-up.During lunch, Venkat stole my wallet and took my $4!! I know it's not much.But still.He gave it back, anyways.

It was fun.Walked and talked with Srivatsa, Divya and Ifah... I even sang a song for Srivatsa, cuz he was walking in the most percular fashion.Hehs.Later Divya and Rohini went to cool their chocolate cravings.I left early cuz I was meeting up with family at the library.That's where I am now, by the way.

My days are filled with studies and dance.It's like there's no more time to worry or get angry.I like it.It makes me feel better and I'm not losing my temper much.I'm so overwhelmed with this bubble feeling, I keep thanking God.I thank God for the reasons I smile/laugh.It's a nice feeling.I'm thankful.Definitely, grateful.

And I'm understanding a few things right now.Some think it's better left unsaid.I disagree.But for now, it doesn't matter.Cuz...

Honestly, I don't care.

Girlfriend,

We fight we break up,

But then we kiss we make up;

Labels: Divya, Fun, Happy, Rohini, Srivatsa, Venkat

Wednesday, 19 August 2009,16:25 | comment | 0 comment(s)

HyperHyper

Woohoo!!

My new way of saying hello.Just being super hyper at the moment.Lucky, atleast I'm not jumping here and there.

Anyways, changed my blogskin.Like it? It's the same as Sya.Hope she doesn't mind.Oooh, and I've got music now.lol.Music does set me ablaze.

I deleted the previous post I did.Cuz I thought it was crap and after a heart to heart with mum, I don't think I mean it, anymore.Actually aite, I'm very tired from yesterday.So many things happened.I mean crapping with the guys can really make you tired.Haha.The girls and I talked at one study corner.Dance was tedious.After our ordered dinner, got into the bus and headed towards Singapore Poly.

I've got only one thing to say about that place.It's massive.Just massive.lol.The show was great.Karthika and I crapped through msging each other.And we were sitting beside each other.Hehs.We're so weird.Chatting with Roh, Bro and Mai at the moment.Interesting topics going on.I feel really really weird.

I just want to be loud! Like seriously, LOUD!! Haha.After many days, and even a few weeks of just drafting, I'm finally ready to write my new story.I love my characters.I'm not sure if it's going to hit but there's a connection going on.I'm pretty confident about it.Hehs.Let's see.

I kissed a girl and I liked it ;

Labels: Hyper, Music, Rohini

Saturday, 15 August 2009,13:49 | comment | 0 comment(s)

An Ability

Yesterday night, heard this damn nice song from one crappy movie.Still, the song is nice.

It's beautiful and I'm just crazy over it.Random thoughts.

There's no school on Monday! I'm just going to sleep in.Nothing much.Catch up on a few pending work.I must admit.Life seems almost boring without school.School brings drama.On second thoughts, school is drama.

Many weird dreams, I have been having lately.It's not all that bad.Both I had today made me real happy.Life's good.In odd ways.Chatting with Roh and ahem, Jack.Jack of all trades.Haha.I just told him something that was not supposed to be said.lol.Can't wait to see Rohini's face now.Hehs.I'm so bad.

I want to go out with my cuzzies.I miss Suria Anna, Vithya Akka, Rishi, Harshvini and Vaikesh.Pritha too.The small children too.But I want to go out with all the teens.So long since we did something crazy.And that's what I feel like, anyway.I want to do something crazy.However, I've foresaw the future.I see myself doing something to the very extreme.I'm nuts.

" Love is not a feeling; It's an ability ♥ "

Nice line, eh? I like it a lot.It makes sense.And very few things have been making sense these days.lol.

See you at night ;

Labels: Cousins, Crazy, Jack, Rohini

Sunday, 9 August 2009,16:19 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Disconcertingly Nostalgic...

Hello everyone.Actually, I'm not feeling so good.My mood is unexplainable.Which feels extremely disconcerting.Argh.

Day started with IT.Crapped once again with Srivatsa and Rohini.The reason for them spamming my tagboard.Haha.It was fun, anyways.I fell asleep a bit a bit during Maths.I'm going to try never to do that again.lol.Recess; Girls and I found a magical spot at the Art block.Hehs.Music was free period.Though I managed to get myself pissed with Srivatsa.But we cool now already.He'll say hot.Ahhh... Whatever.lol.

The Science Common Test wasn't as hard as the previous one.I think I did alright.Though, halfway through it was finger-warring Elson.Ridiculous, but highly stress relieving.Talked lots with Maisarah in the bus.Feeling nostalgic, cuz of that.Haiz.I was so tired, fell asleep right after lunch.

I forgot how often my life takes dramatic turns.I failed to foresee.Oh well.I can see it bright and clear now.God, the movie I want to watch has opened at theatres today.I wanted to rush just now.But mum said, we shall go to watch it tomorrow.Yays! Oddly feeling happy and crappy at the moment.Damn these teenage hormones.I'm furiously, if not diligently, doing my homework.There's Maths, Science and MT.

Th light from th end of th tunnel;

Labels: Crazy, Rohini, Srivatsa

Wednesday, 5 August 2009,21:18 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Parading Sentiments

Hello world.It's very difficult to explain my current mood.Half-hyper and half-emo.What a great combination.Anyway, first off, today's a hot babe's 14th birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHARMAINE!

And then, secondly, I only slept at 4am this morning.And got up 1hr later.Haha, so am mentally unstable.When I stepped into class, found everyone busily studying for Science CT.I did the same too.Kwok Ying, Srivatsa, Rohini and I tested each other.

Nothing interesting happened, except for Mrs L who constantly made odd comments and weird noises.Haha.I was supposed to take the MRT with Syafiqah but the plan changed last minute.Later, I might going to Lot 1 with the family.Important mission.lol.Oooh, a bit more of Harper's Island logic:(Sorry I can't resist)

I know I was itching to know the ending of the show.But now that it is over, I miss it already.Seriously.I mean, yes, I miss my favourite characters and the whole mystery element in my Sunday nights.Haha.Still, life must go on.But I don't think I'll stop talking/thinking about Harper's Island.Actually, putting the whole murdering aspect of the show aside, I learnt lots of things from it.About Friendship, Love, Trust, Wedding venues.Haha, the last one seriously I mean it.Rohini, why don't you have it in KUSU Island/Sentosa Island? LOL.Just joking...

Hmmm... Parading our sentiments? Lots of people around me have started to do that.And it isn't like the made up ones.It's real, raw emotions and they're quite sentimental.Even though I'm feeling incredibly sleepy and grouchier(sp?) by the second, I feel I haven't written as much.Odd.Very odd.

A few more lines, in this weird small font...

Sometimes, giving in to our loved ones

Isn't losing at all

And giving in is different from giving up

My mind is made up

Love is, indeed, crap

Maybe I'll change my mind

But for now it shall remain thus

`PRYIEE falls into th fire and sleeps in a heap of ashes;

Eccentric or what?

Labels: Birthdays, Outing, Rohini, Syafiqah

Wednesday, 15 July 2009,14:51 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Love Or Logic?

The week started off wrong for me.Especially Monday; CMT period.Haiz.Anyway, let's work out a bit of Harper's Island logic:

I understand the love okay, Rohini? You ain't no fool.It was sad.But it can't be denied that there was something going on with Henry and Trish even if he didn't really love her.He did care for her.And as for me, Abby && Jimmy forever! Seriously.Like you said, Rohini.You like the mushy mushy, sweet obvious love types.I like the ones that are rarely shown, and it's enough that we know it's there.lol.

Today, school was fine.For the first time, heard my English teacher laugh.PE was fun, if you think getting hit by a ball is fun... Oh well.Mrs T didn't come to school.So, it was sorta like free period.I love playing with the bendy ruler.Maths, we did our presentation.I can't believe we completed our project within 5min, while others were presenting.Woots!~

The elective module lesson, three teachers came in.Mr Rafeek, Mrs Abdullah and Mdm Liow.I never thought it would be so fun.Honestly, they're funny.Mr Rafeek especially.Haha.I'm looking forward to every lesson now.Tourism all the way.And I'm not THAT disappointed that I didn't get Journalism.

After lunch, we had Science Remedial.I finally understand and did not bad in the exercise worksheets.Now, I'm not just aiming to pass in tomorrow's Science CT.Took the bus with Rohini and the chinese girls.On the way, walking home, saw mum.Saw, backtracked and went to fetch sister with her.I got KFC dinner for that.I'm awake now after 4hrs sleep.I gotta go study...

Th days grow darker and longer, yet my heart grows lighter and baby, fonder.

I've been missing you'll like crazy.

`PRYIEE

Labels: Miss, Rohini, Science

Tuesday, 14 July 2009,22:09 | comment | 0 comment(s)

chocolates

Hello

I'm in the library at the moment.It's been a rough week.And it isn't even over yet.God.Anyways, congrats to Syafiqah, Divya, Rohini and Venkat on officially becoming a part of the 10th Student Council Board.You've got to see Divya and Syafiqah in their leggings, they looked about a sizzling 20 on a 10 meter scale.lol.

Plus, WOW!!

I got my first praise from Mrs L.In front of the whole class.I figured something out too.It's easier to give reactions when you're getting scolded in front of the class than getting praised.I didn't know what to do.So, I just stared.Smooth, Priyaa, real smooth...

My irregular sleeping habits are getting to me.Cuz when I'm awake I'm either real cranky or too hyper.Though, today I was more of the latter.Still, I'm seriously upset whenever I go home.I don't know why.My mind starts on a whirl of gibberish and I just want it to shut up.I really want to talk to the 5 in unison.Even now, my brain is in fast forward of the past I want to forget.

How ironic can my mind get?

Also, I'm craving for chocolates.It's normal.Yet, my choice of craving is so out of the blue.

I want:

Mars Bars-I've never had in ages, though it's my favourite.

After Eight-Reminds my of a classy restaurant for some reason.

White chocolate-Assures me I'm still at least a tiny part innocent.

Belgian white chocolate frappe-All the more reason to love chocolates.

Mint M&Ms-One and only reason I love green.

Cadbury's Flake-Flakey flakey flakey!

Cadbury's Eclairs-Reminds me of France.

Cadbury's TimeOut-WAFER!!

See, it's super weird, if not long.

That's all.

(Will post picture later)

Labels: chocolates, Divya, Rohini, Syafiqah, Venkat

Wednesday, 8 April 2009,17:07 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A Diva Is A Female Version Of A Hustler

Hello.

I'm super tired from dance practice.But not tired enough to stay away from the computer.lol.Still, I have a couple of painful blisters on my feet.I'm chatting with Syafiqah at the moment.She recommanded me this hindi song.I'm watching it on Youtube.Very nice.

Today was weird.One way more than the others.Firstly, Mrs T didn't come to school.So MT was like free period.Quite odd, and we were just lazing around with a worksheet in hand.Argh.Science was as interesting as ever.I shall never hate Science.My lovey.Hehs.Recess run was quite fast.Cuz we ran pretty fast.I got to English in time.

Hmmm... English lesson.We got back our common test results.Cheryl, Mariyah and I were top in class.With a solid A1.Beautiful, ain't it? lol.Though Mariyah's was the best.The story was like a private section of her life.It was simple yet darn deep.I loved it.Haha.

Maths was irk.The news I got totally crap-ed my happiness of English.By the way, I was standing outside with Rohini and Ifah.Then Mrs K came by.I like bullying her.So I shouted, I can see your cleavage.You won't believe what happened.Ms C walked past.My English teacher.Ahhhh! It was so embarassing.I turned to the colour of beetroot.Hahahaha!!

Mrs L is the best.She gave us pizza treat seyy.Haha.I only ate two slices.Then rushed to dance.So vigorous.Like always.But enjoyed it nevertheless.Took the bus home with Syafiqah.I love Syafiqah&&Priya lots.Everyone do know that.Witness my love eh.Hehs.I'm going mad.But in a good sense.

Maybe I should change my blogskin.What do you people think? Do tag&&tell me.

[ A Diva Is A Female Version Of A Hustler ]

Labels: Dance, English, Ifah, Love, Priya, Rohini, Syafiqah

Friday, 6 February 2009,20:47 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I Don't Care

The past few days have been quite hard on me, and people around me.Yesterday was a half day, supposedly.But Syafiqah and I stayed back till about 12.30pm with the senior councillors and cut out leaves.Hehs.It was alright I guess.Pretty tired.Let's start with today.

Syafiqah came late.I was damn early.I completed my History homework.lol.Then during morning assembly, Rashidha's and Syafiqah's group presented.It was good, except for this black thing that was quite distracting.First period was History.My group won the mini quiz.We got mini chocolates.Haha.

Next was MT.Mrs T gave us back our short stories.I didn't do as well as she expected.But Surya's story was so hilarious and super creative.It was totally very unexpected.Trisha.lol.Recess was okay.Science was up next.We went over the inert gases and stuff.Ifah answered a questioned.Not bad.Before Mrs L came in, JJ was wandering with Rohini's phone.

I wanted to get it back for her.So, when he came my way, I just caught hold of his shorts.Guess what?! The thing ripped apart and JJ's undies were visible.Hahahahahaha!! I did apologies.Hehs.Very naughty of me, I know.Hehe...

Geography was fine.We did the experimental things.It was weird.Art was boring.I handed in my homework, anyways.Rohini was all moody moody.Finally found out why.

*Shakes Head*

I'm given the afternoon shift for Saturday.I got to rush to school after going to Lashini's.nvm.We had Sec2 camp briefing.I'm excited to go already.Hehs.Syafiqah, Rashidha, Divya, Kausalya and I went to get some lunch.And Kausalya wouldn't shut up about calling a person bapok.She keeps inviting trouble to herself.

Syafiqah talked intensely on our way back.I get how she feels though, I can't really feel it.I feel bad for her.Cuz she seems to be trying very hard.I just hope that person doesn't make it even more difficult for her.I'm sorta bored.Not much people to chat with online.Syafiqah&&Priya!!

By the way, I really want to make one thing clear.I've gone through this over and over again.But it seems like it never gets in the person's brain.I really don't care what YOU think about me.And going around, telling others bad things about me, is just so you.You'll get a dose of your own medicine one day.

Bye.

Labels: Ifah, Priya, Rohini, Surya, Syafiqah

Thursday, 5 February 2009,16:41 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Results

Hello!

I'm back.And I'm not feeling very good.We all got back our results.Ewww!

I did pretty suckish for about 3 subjects.Haizz...Sometimes, I know I'm just DARN lazy.What to do???

Anyways, I got a pretty decent mark for English, MT, Art and Science.All A's.Woots! I'm happy enough with that.Though, both my mum and I know I can do SOOO much better.I just have to get my lazy bum of this chair and go study something.That would make it alright.

I was msging Haris just now about the whole going out part.I'm not sure we all can make it.Cuz we all have different plans on different days.

First period was English, where we only got part of our paper.Geography, Mrs L was just lecturing.Haizz...

During recess, Syafiqah, Rohini, Rashisha and I were fooling around.We were laughing damn hard.I couldn't take it.Rohini and I did some "EXPERIMENTING".Then we laugh till, I think I got seizure.There were many guys passing by, and they were all staring like we were giving show.Which technically, was quite true.

Hehehe!

During Art, got our pieces back.I got an A.So all together I got an A1.I was in high spirits.PC was like free period.Mariyah, Hazzie, Rohini and I were talking rubbish at the study corner.Then, Rohini went and erm so-called flirted with Surya.The funny part was when he started running away.Hahaha!

During MT, got back our Paper 2 first.I got 2nd highest for it.77/80.Gosh! Highest was Vaitheshwar.79/80.Damn him.Syafiqah got highest for Paper 1.And overall, she's the highest.Congrats, girl!

Yups, that's it.Bye

Labels: EOY, Fooling around, Results, Rohini, SA2, Syafiqah

Friday, 17 October 2008,22:23 | comment | 0 comment(s)