i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Mahiya...

Hellooo...!!

It's the end of the week! I can sleep in, finally.Actually, it's been a long week and I'm super tired.I can't even start to fanthom whatever's going to happen next week.Today was, slack day.I figured out how to claculate current, voltage and resistance level.I'm happy about that.One less thing to worry about.During HomeEc, made the best cookies.lol.Said by all whom have tasted it.See we can bake, Rohini.Hehs.

MT was not much fun.Cuz some of us had to go for photoshoot.Speaking of which, mine with the dancers was at 14:30.Getting ready was all rushing.Though it was sorta fun.Divya and I crapped lots.lol.But by the time we were done with the photos and keeping our stuff, I was real tired.And hungry too.So, Karthika, Divya and I made our way to 7-11.Karthika treated us.I love those cookies!

I don't know what to say anymore.And I don't expect I will, anyway.

I wish you could see yourself th way I see ya;

You shine just like a star Mahiya;

Cuz you're my only pyaar Mahiya:

Labels: Dance, Divya, Friendship, Love, Tired

Friday, 21 August 2009,21:09 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Messed Up

I was just browsing blogs.Looks like everyone's going through a rough time.That includes me too.Yeah, I know I said life couldn't get any better.But I forgot how it hurts to fall from soaring the sky.I can't explain things very well, even worse on this public blog.However, I think I'll go crazy.Like seriously, literally crazy if I'm going to keep things inside any longer.

So many damn problems:

(1) Studying my best yet failing to succeed

(2) Missing too many people right now.....

(3) Growing complicated feelings for person

The list goes on, but I'd like to stop here.I'd like to beat up someone.Argh.I felt sick through out the morn, and still do.Despite the tears at school, I still want to cry.I'm sick and tired, of every annoying things that happen.

I know life has much more to over and I got every reason to smile.But can I just be upset for a while?... I'd like that a lot.Vulgarities are at my fingertips but I'm being nice.Trying to, atleast.

An unhealthy feeling.Losing weight.Tired.Complicated.Some effin people.Studies.Tests.Exams.Friendships.Sick.Crazy.Me.You.Them.

Hmmm... I've got this thought/yearning.

But I promise something.When I pass my Maths test, I'll go ahead feeling that way.Cuz then I know I deserve it.Oh wth.I'l start smiling now, okay? FINE!

"You're so beautiful.Outside and Inside.No take-backs.You are beautiful..."

Messed up gets a whole new meaning;

`PRYIEE thinks maybe, just maybe, everything's got to go this way;

Labels: Confused, Sick, Tired

Thursday, 23 July 2009,16:10 | comment | 0 comment(s)

help me birdies, pls?

Hmmm, I'm annoyed with sleep.Or the lack thereof.Anyways, since there was a change of timetable, some lessons repeated.And I have Science all through the week.Maths was slow and slightly painful.I've got to go and perfect the 'Data Distribution Method'.I was looking forward to MT, but Mrs T hadn't come to school.So, we just sat at the study corner and did our work.

Rashidha was suppose to lend me the book, but she disappeared.Divya lent me hers.So, I guess everything's alright now.Science, Ms N didn't come to school.I sat being 'Outcasted', as Ifah puts it, doing my work.I just like being alone.Then, Surya came over and we talked a lot.Haha, long time since I spoke to him that much.Later, found out shocking news from our fellow class comedian.But damn proud of him, cuz he's going to tell her.LOL.

CEP, we had to do an ad for career guidance.Our group did "Forensic Pathologist".CSI thingy, if you don't know what I mean...

Okay, I must be honest.My heart is aching.And I'm confused more than ever.But I trust my intuition/instincts aka gut feeling.It tells me to just do nothing and wait.It sucks, cuz I feel it everytime I look into your eyes.I need birdies' help.Please.

Now I've got to do my homework.Loads of it.Tomorrow's Friday.The weekend is coming.God, I'm tired and I can taste my joy when I'm sleeping in.HAHA!

Labels: Divya, Hurt, Ifah, Rashidha, Tired, weekend

Thursday, 2 July 2009,17:04 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Hello
I'm kinda tired, yet can't refrain from blogging.
Today's my cuzzie bro's birthday.
LOL, going over to his place later to celebrate.
Today, some of my classmates performed the Shakespeare plays.
So cool, hehs.
Then, we had NYAA.
It was well, okays.
Except when two guys fought using chairs and th guys throwing th ball down.
Oh well.
I was really excited to go for the "Othello" performance.
It was really cool.
While on the bus, Shafiq and I saw NUS High and shared a nostalgic moment.
For just one moment.
The actors were freaking realistic.
And my eyes were constanty on Micheal Cassio played by Shane {Smth}
Lalalalala!~
Hahaha!
Anyways, I'm thinking more and more.
I really need this time alone.
Guess it is a good thing that we're gonna have one month of holiday.

Labels: Balls, Birthday, Drama, Tired

Thursday, 28 May 2009,19:23 | comment | 0 comment(s)