i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

When I run...

"When I run,

I run for hope

I run for faith

I run for the friendship I believe in.

When I run,

I run to find my potential

I run to find my dreams

I run for the love I want to believe in.

When I run,

I don't run to impress

I don't run to win

I don't run for the sake of others.

And finally,

When I run,

I run to find the unknown

I run the find meaning

I run to find the reason I live for."

-Priyaa Nedunzeliyan ©

Labels: Poems

Friday, 27 February 2009,21:41 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Running for what?

Today, we had the annual cross country meet.

It was set at the Japanese Garden.I only knew that it was near the Chinese Garden.Nothing more than that.I met Syafiqah, her brother and her brother's friend at the interchange and took a bus there.The funny thing was those two brothers, they didn't seem like they knew where they were going.lol.Atleast that's what I thought.

We got there. And us, Sec2s had to run first.God.Half of the girls, ran an extra round.Crap.But I damn proud of myself.CUZ I WASN'T LAST!! Wooots!~ Syafiqah came right after 40.Alamak.Haizz.Anyways, then went for lunch with Priya.We went to this coffee shop.Hardly many people.We talked stuff.lol.Gosh I miss blogging.

I'm writing a new story.lol.It's close to my heart.I don't have much to blog about.Except...

what part of, "he's gone over to the dark side" does he not get?

dude, there's no turning back

[Think before you do something, not the other way around]

Labels: Running, Story, Syafiqah

20:56 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Trust, Baby, Just Trust Me

Hey

It's a Sunday.I'm supposed to be relaxing.Yet as usual, I find myself doing the exact opposite.God, Syafiqah ain't here to help me out.Biri Akka has her own batch of problems.Let's start with yesterday.

I dragged my butt out of bed and made my way to school for dance.It's not that I didn't want to go.I was just too darn tired.My muscles ached from the previous practice.We polished lots on the sitting and getting up part.Now, my tigh muscles are aching and I can barely get up or walk fast.After that, rushed home and went to City Hall with the family.

My maid was going for some interview.So while she went for the interview, my family and I had lunch at this Myanmar restaurant.I've been there before.The food was delicious.I loved the dessert especially.Then on the way back home, I was damn tired.I felt so very sleepy.I was msging Biri Akka, and getting advices from her.Trust might be a small word, with only 5 letters, but the meaning is damn BIG.Once broken, takes a long time or never can be repaired.

I slept all evening.I woke up.I didn't have the mood to use the computer.So took my book, and sat there reading.I was msging Biri Akka again.lol.She's probably the only person I msg these days.Crap people who interfere in others' problems and make it even more complicated.Argh.

Anyways, so into a new artiste.lol.My sister is crazy.She's into a hip-hop look.

*Slaps forehead*

I realised something last night and this morning.I'm changing.Not the very obvious one.Much more discreet part of me.I've been trying to control my temper.Like if someone makes me angry, I just shut up.Cuz I don't want to say anything I'll regret after that.So, mostly only when I seem like I'm mood out, will anyone realise I'm angry.There's so many people around me I dislike.Yet I'm trying me best to accept and appreciate.God never said life was going to fair or easy.So, I'm going to give it my best.No more slacking.

[ Truly Crushless&& Loving It ]

Labels: Biri, Dance, Priya, Syafiqah

Sunday, 22 February 2009,13:53 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I'm Offended

Hello

The day didn't start out all that well.I woke up with a not-so-good dream.That took a long time to recover from.End up, was late for school.More like later than my usual timing.But my mum accompanied me.Though, we took the bus.It was nice.Just like the olden days, us both, chatting and watching people go by.lol.

I rushed to complete my MT homework.I only could finish part of it.Argh.But Mrs T didn't scold me much.I'll promise to do all her homework the next time, for that very reason.The debate was okay, I guess.Honestly, our group was so much better.Cuz Syafiqah equals to clarity, Surya has info and Sanjeevi, well, just being Sanjeevi is enough from him.Recess, didn't go for run or to eat.I stayed with Syafiqah while she did some work.

English was funfun.We heard some people's presentations.Little funny here and there.Maths, I totally zonked out.Meaning, I hadn't eaten all day.Only drank plenty of water, to keep the burning sensation from my stomach to hurt me.So, by CIT, I was completely mood out.Haizz... Mrs L took away our lunch period too.So I went to dance in an empty stomach.When I started dancing the first time, I was dizzy.But told myself, that I won't die not eating one day, and continued.

On the way home, spotted the ice cream truck.I couldn't resist myself.Ahhh.I bought a mint chips wafer ice cream.Mmm... I simply gulped it down, before you could say, "Some people are so horny.". lol.That was random.I came back home.I was still hungry.No simple ice cream can satisfy my hunger.My sister bought me Hokkien Mee.lol.Ate it happily.

Now I'm chatting with Syafiqah.Damn.Tomorrow, there's dance practice.I don't want to wake up in the morning!!

[Big deal, I asked you if you are a flirt.It ain't a stupid question]

Labels: Dance, Surya, Syafiqah

Friday, 20 February 2009,21:04 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Nee Kobapattal...

Hello

Gosh, I'm in a pretty good mood.lol.Let's rewind and visit the whole day.

Day started with me going to school earlier than usual.Mum sent me before heading to work.First period was History.But Ms Yeo didn't come to school.So, we did a worksheet.Divya's teacher also wasn't around.She came into my class for a while.Later, Surya and I blast the music from my hp and sang to "Nee Kobapattal...".

MT was quite okay.Our entire class was damn solemn.Mrs T kept asking us what was wrong.Really don't know.Then recess was alrights.Made my way to Science.We had lab lesson.We handled elements.Ms N was quite pissed off with people who didn't bring their books.Lucky I brought.Hehs.

Geography was little stormy.I got told off for not completing a question, with the rest of my classmates.We did some games on Geography and then did our filing.Whilst my teacher was scolding someone, I quickly wrote out an english poem for the "Let's Talk" session.Art was boring.Argh.I had lunch wit Syafiqah and Kausalya.Rashidha and Divya weren't around.Sad.

I had English supp.My group was the only group that was ready for presenting.I read out my poem.Everyone thought it was nice, having been written by me.lol.Thank you, people.Hehs.After that, left for home with Ifah.I listened to my favourite songs at the moment.I'm loving my life, just the way it is.Long update for a weekday.Byes.

[Smothered, simply smothered]

Labels: English, Ifah, MT, Presentation, Surya, Syafiqah

Thursday, 19 February 2009,15:55 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Mahi-Ish

I have very little time, so I'm keeping in short.Today was quite a happy day.I loved it.I feel like Mahi today.So freaking lucky.lol.English was cut short due to photo-taking.Sad.Still, I'm glad.Cuz I hadn't prepared for the quiz.Then, Drama was rocking.Hazzie and I did an explicit improvision.Haha.

Maths was moderately boring.But managed to get past it alive.I answered a few questions.CT was free period.Didn't do much.Just walked around with Rohini.During lunch, had a small misunderstanding with Rohini.Which was cleared in less than 5min.Mrs T didn't come to school.So it was another free period.Syafiqah, Sanjeevi, Surya and I discussed our debate points.And got into sub-topics.lol.

Like blowing.Hahahah!!

Maths supp was okay.Considering that I was accompanied by Surya and Matin.They're great people to talk to.We talked about love, marriage, ambitions, studies, and pretty much lots of stuff.By the way, Priya akka got my a box of Ferraro Rocher.OMG!! I love her lots.And missing her real badly.On the way back home, Syafiqah was damn quiet.Whatever is on your mind, Syafiqah, don't ponder over it too much.Smile more.Just like what Boy Ka says.Hehs.

I had dinner at coffee shop with mum and sister.My sister is damn tired.She had auditions for sports' day.She looks so pale.But she still can play at the playground.Which is what she's doing now.lol.It was a fruitful day.Nothing to hate.And everything to love.Muacks.I love everyone who make me so happy.You guys are the best.

[Feeling like Mahi]

Labels: Ambitions, Drama, English, Love, Maths Test, Surya, Syafiqah

Monday, 16 February 2009,19:43 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Kande Naal Mudhal...

Just watched this damn nice movie on TV with the whole family.It's quite old.Like 2004-old.But I love the storyline and the way it was made all the same.

Kande Naal Mudhal...

Everyone must fall in love like that.Without knowing.It's so beautiful.See.What love has done to the world.lol.I'm chatting with Syafiqah at the moment.Eh, I want to admit something to you, Syafiqah.I'm very jealous.Of Ahem.Seriously.You kinda talk about him sometimes, when I just want to talk about other stuff.I know it's wrong to feel this way.You have tolerated my gibberish.However, I just felt like telling you.I love you a lot.And seeing you happy is more than anything I can ever ask for.So, I shall thank him to for making you so happy.More than I've ever seen you be, as a matter of fact.

[Kande Naal Mudhal]

Labels: Him, Love, Syafiqah

Sunday, 15 February 2009,20:48 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Love

Hey earthlings.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Yeah, I know.It's not my favourite day of the year.Still, bless all those souls who sent me the grand total of 47 msgs wishing me a happy valentine's day.Just passing the love around.lol.I'm eating thin mint ice cream.Mmmm.Woke up early early.

I went for tution.The girl a little annoying today.Hehs.Right below her house, got 7/11.I got myself slurpee.Its been a long time since I had one.Then, went home.I was feeling pretty bored, while my granny was cooking.So once she was done, we watched Bachna Ae Haseeno again.lol.I'll never get tired of those songs.Woots!~

My mum woke up.Both she and my sister went to IMM.I didn't follow cuz I very lazy plus my aunt was visiting.I got a few tips from her for Friday's debate.I'm quite prepared.Later, I got her addicted to Ranbir Kapoor too.Hehs.Let's spread the love of Ranbir Kapoor all over the word.It's that time of the year again.I'm going mad.

Now, chatting with Syafiqah.Yesterday, just found out who Imran Khan is.lol.Seriously, I was pretty clueless about who he is.In person.He reminds me of someone.Syafiqah knows.lol.I wonder how Rohini is coping.She has "A LOT" on her heart now... Ahem.I mean, plate.

*Grins Widely*

I wonder what love has done to the world.Seriously.It seems like everyone around likes someone and just loves spending their time missing them.Get this in your head people, I ain't criticising you, I'm trying to talk about myself.As I was saying, I'm crushless at the moment.Yeah.That felt good.Announcing it like that.lol.But really, I feel quite the Miss Independant now.Its been years since I was last crushless.

So, the feeling is new and raw.I am burning and running around, feeling quite light and wondering what to do.The whole of today, I was playing afool with my granny.Tickling her, talking to her like gangster and admiring hot guys on TV with her.I never took the time to appreciate her then.So now, I get the chance.

My granny is a weird woman.However, totally fun to be with.And I love her.

I love:

Mum, Dad, My sister, My cousins, Aunts&&Uncles, Grannies, Dead Grandpas, Priya, Syafiqah, Divya, Rashidha, Krish, Haris, Mira, Mariyah, Hazzie, Ifah, Rohini, Surya, Sri, Khai, Rosma, Gowri, Sarannya, Vinay, Deepak, Vaishu, Pooja... And every single one of you people I've met.

[ Take time to look around and appreciate ]

Labels: Bachna Ae Haseeno, Love, Ranbir Kapoor, Valentine's Day

Saturday, 14 February 2009,21:10 | comment | 0 comment(s)

2/2 Rocks.Nuff Said.

Hello

I'm back from 3 days of camp.It was totally fun.Haha.Our class was split into two groups.Surya and Srivatsa were in my group.Our facilitator, Aaron was like damn fun.Surya, Sri and I played heart attack.lol.I know it's a childish game.Still it was fun to become a child, once again.We did field cooking, our group finished first.Woots!~

On the first night, Rohini told me an one hour story.lol.I slept like a baby.Hehs.We did a 7hour plus trekking.It was seriously tiring but we perserved on.And we found our enthu back.lol.When we got back, we had to plan for campfire.But we weren't ready.And when we made up a dance, it came up all wrong.So we decided.We went freestyle.

I danced shamelessly with Rohini.I wasn't watching any of the audience.Though we had fun.Lots of it.Damn shiok!! We slept very late cuz of spot check.In the morning, did our chores and then took class photos.I really miss camp already.

I love my class.Haha.Shall never hate it.It's going to be freaking sad, when we graduate this year.But no matter what, the fact that we were 1/2 '08 and are 2/2 '09 will never change.Ever.We're the best!! I'm getting very emotional, aye.

I'm chatting with Syafiqah at the moment.She's trying very hard to make a certain someone feel better.Good luck, darling.And I hope the person feels better.Damn.I lost weight.I feel a bit sick.lol.However, it's worth it, for the amount of fun we had this past few days.Love my 2/2.

I've got to go for tution tomorrow.I'm going late.I don't think I will be able to wake up too early.If not, I'll just end up falling asleep in class.My granny's home.She's cooking my something and wants me to eat.Fine.

I've changed my blogskin.Tag me and tell me if it's nice.I miss Priya.Ahhh.

2/2, we rock! Nuff said.

Labels: 2/2, Camp, Class, Love, Priya, Srivatsa, Surya

Friday, 13 February 2009,21:52 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Bachna Ae Haseeno

Hi everyone

I'm going to just blog, while I wait for Syafiqah to come online.Today was tightly packed for me.Firstly, woke up at 6+ to get myself to CCK and to the girl's house.Then, took bus and made my way to school.I found Syafiqah and Rashidha there.They were doing both shifts.Divya arrived.We were dismissed for lunch.Mostly we were listening to Small Town Girl.Gahh!!

Okay, packing roses aren't as easy as they look.But they are quite fun to do.lol.And the boys gossip way more than the girls.Hehs.I took the bus with Syafiqah.She was very tired.So she wasn't her usual chatty self.I took 98 and went to JW to collect my new glasses.Haha.I love them.Frameless.Nice eyes, people, nice eyes...

I feel so emotional.Crap.Cuz I'm listening to all those touching, touching songs.They are nice.But they annoy me in a sense that I keep thinking of sad events in my life to match the song.Which totally sucks.Haizz.Many memories want to just be left alone.Damn it.

Syafiqah is online.Chatting with her.Let's put our hands together for Bollywood.And the songs made from them.Ahhh! I'm in love with so many of them.I feel like dancing every single one of them.I don't care.This year Deepavali my house, confirm going to have dancefloor with all this songs.Dance, Dance, Dance!!

I slept; little nap yeah.But I don't feel much better.I still find myself quite grumpy.Though, my grumpiness is not that bad.lol.See, I can still lol.Hehs.I am kinda contented today.It isn't my best days.Yet not one of the worst.Damn.I just listened to one song, that somehow reminded me of the India trip last year.Argh.That's about it.

Bachna Ae Haseeno

Labels: Bollywood, Council, Hindi, Songs, Syafiqah

Saturday, 7 February 2009,20:48 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A Diva Is A Female Version Of A Hustler

Hello.

I'm super tired from dance practice.But not tired enough to stay away from the computer.lol.Still, I have a couple of painful blisters on my feet.I'm chatting with Syafiqah at the moment.She recommanded me this hindi song.I'm watching it on Youtube.Very nice.

Today was weird.One way more than the others.Firstly, Mrs T didn't come to school.So MT was like free period.Quite odd, and we were just lazing around with a worksheet in hand.Argh.Science was as interesting as ever.I shall never hate Science.My lovey.Hehs.Recess run was quite fast.Cuz we ran pretty fast.I got to English in time.

Hmmm... English lesson.We got back our common test results.Cheryl, Mariyah and I were top in class.With a solid A1.Beautiful, ain't it? lol.Though Mariyah's was the best.The story was like a private section of her life.It was simple yet darn deep.I loved it.Haha.

Maths was irk.The news I got totally crap-ed my happiness of English.By the way, I was standing outside with Rohini and Ifah.Then Mrs K came by.I like bullying her.So I shouted, I can see your cleavage.You won't believe what happened.Ms C walked past.My English teacher.Ahhhh! It was so embarassing.I turned to the colour of beetroot.Hahahaha!!

Mrs L is the best.She gave us pizza treat seyy.Haha.I only ate two slices.Then rushed to dance.So vigorous.Like always.But enjoyed it nevertheless.Took the bus home with Syafiqah.I love Syafiqah&&Priya lots.Everyone do know that.Witness my love eh.Hehs.I'm going mad.But in a good sense.

Maybe I should change my blogskin.What do you people think? Do tag&&tell me.

[ A Diva Is A Female Version Of A Hustler ]

Labels: Dance, English, Ifah, Love, Priya, Rohini, Syafiqah

Friday, 6 February 2009,20:47 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I Don't Care

The past few days have been quite hard on me, and people around me.Yesterday was a half day, supposedly.But Syafiqah and I stayed back till about 12.30pm with the senior councillors and cut out leaves.Hehs.It was alright I guess.Pretty tired.Let's start with today.

Syafiqah came late.I was damn early.I completed my History homework.lol.Then during morning assembly, Rashidha's and Syafiqah's group presented.It was good, except for this black thing that was quite distracting.First period was History.My group won the mini quiz.We got mini chocolates.Haha.

Next was MT.Mrs T gave us back our short stories.I didn't do as well as she expected.But Surya's story was so hilarious and super creative.It was totally very unexpected.Trisha.lol.Recess was okay.Science was up next.We went over the inert gases and stuff.Ifah answered a questioned.Not bad.Before Mrs L came in, JJ was wandering with Rohini's phone.

I wanted to get it back for her.So, when he came my way, I just caught hold of his shorts.Guess what?! The thing ripped apart and JJ's undies were visible.Hahahahahaha!! I did apologies.Hehs.Very naughty of me, I know.Hehe...

Geography was fine.We did the experimental things.It was weird.Art was boring.I handed in my homework, anyways.Rohini was all moody moody.Finally found out why.

*Shakes Head*

I'm given the afternoon shift for Saturday.I got to rush to school after going to Lashini's.nvm.We had Sec2 camp briefing.I'm excited to go already.Hehs.Syafiqah, Rashidha, Divya, Kausalya and I went to get some lunch.And Kausalya wouldn't shut up about calling a person bapok.She keeps inviting trouble to herself.

Syafiqah talked intensely on our way back.I get how she feels though, I can't really feel it.I feel bad for her.Cuz she seems to be trying very hard.I just hope that person doesn't make it even more difficult for her.I'm sorta bored.Not much people to chat with online.Syafiqah&&Priya!!

By the way, I really want to make one thing clear.I've gone through this over and over again.But it seems like it never gets in the person's brain.I really don't care what YOU think about me.And going around, telling others bad things about me, is just so you.You'll get a dose of your own medicine one day.

Bye.

Labels: Ifah, Priya, Rohini, Surya, Syafiqah

Thursday, 5 February 2009,16:41 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Loving Thy Self

Helloooo!

Sarannya couldn't make it to the library.Damn.I started to freak out.And Priya saved me.Hehs.I realised my potential too.Good luck in getting to the JC you want, Sarannya.Hmmm... I'm sorta bored.Waiting for Syafiqah to come online.Wish wish wish wish wish.lol.Boredy boredy.

Tomorrow there's Maths CT.Argh.I remember the ones I did last year.Ain't going to be the same.I actually studied for this.And going to be doing some last minute revision, tomorrow morning with Priya.By the way, cool news.Vinay's aunt is having a baby.BABY!! I have no idea why I'm so hyped up for that.But it's worth it anyways.

My blog post yesterday was moody aye.Still I loved the poem and lyrics.

Valentine's Day is coming.Awww.In 13 days.Personally, Valentine's Day and I don't go hand in hand.Too much of unwanted memories.My opinion, pointless with the whole couples thing.It should be widely celebrated about Friendship instead.Haha!! A better and worth while effort.Syafiqah and I got to stay back to help with Student Council, prior to Valentine's Day.

Oh God.Again with the Valentine's Day.

I need to go complete my left over homework.

Over&&Out.

Labels: Council, Love, Syafiqah, Valentine's Dau

Sunday, 1 February 2009,21:00 | comment | 0 comment(s)