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" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Mere Piya

{ I'm nuts aite? I love the picture too much }

HeyHey, young world.

I know I said there won't be much update.But how could I resist, when they finally un-blocked blogger in my school computer lab? Haha.So here I am.The week has been going on fine.I kinda love it, actually.Yesterday, went out with family to Queensway Shopping Centre.lol.It was cool; Seeing as it was my first time.Mum was so excited to show me the place.

Oh, and something happened yesterday; I'll never be the same again.I've been grinning non stop since that happened.Ahhh.Jacob Black! Please, don't get tired of me.He is my escape from reality.By the way, I'm not crazy, okay?!

I'm still addicted to Knock You Down by Keri Hilson.I'm smiling, just thinking about it.

It's true.I feel like I'm in my own world, these days.Which is a good thing, you see.Since there's so many ahem [insertwordhere] going on in school.Ignoring and just moving on is better aite? Exactly what I'm doing.

And do you know you make feel so beautiful?

I don't know how you do it; But there's something and you have it.I can't explain what it is, when I see your face.Yes, it's a crashin' pain at night.But your smile is so effortless, the pain, it all fades away.You're the reason I smile these days;

Jacob Black;

You've stolen this heart;

Labels: Jacob Black, Mere Piya

Wednesday, 30 September 2009,08:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Our Own Small World;

`Us in our own little happy world: Me; Harsh; Vaikesh

{Pic is above}

Yesterday was damn fun.Even though, we weren't very welcomed, I had fun.Cuz Vaikesh, Harsh, Rishi, Sister and I were in our very own, little world.I talked and laughed, so much it was a wonder I wasn't drunk.Today going to celebrate Prashant's birthday.lol.I'm so happy.I love my life.I love everyone :D

[ Since exams are here, expecting an update is, well, ridiculous.Hehs.But will be back soon ]

Labels: Cousins, Happy, Love

Sunday, 27 September 2009,14:26 | comment | 0 comment(s)

What Hurts The Most

Good afternoon, everybody!

Mmm, yeah.I'm in a pretty good mood today.That's cuz I had my favourite chocolate chip cookies, just now.Haha.Recently, I went to Starbucks.And I tried the Cappuccino Cheesecake and Chocolate Chip Frappuccino.It was darn nice.Both of it.Hehs, I feel like having them now too.

Right now, msging Biri.I've got to go to a party later in the evening.That's why I'm blogging now.In the confusion I was in yesterday, I even managed to write a song.I'm only done with the chorus.But it's nice.I like it.I keep singing it.

I will be there for you.Even if you think all's ended.I've said this to everyone I know.And same goes to you too.I will catch you before you fall, cuz warning isn't within my rights.You're hurting, and I can't make it right.I can't wipe away th tears, cuz I don't know how.But I will make you smile and laugh as much as I can.I'll make you happy so you can forget th pain for a while.Just a moment, so you'd enjoy life.

I'll do that for you, at th very least.

My beautiful Sun;

And th temporary Eclipse;

Labels: Eclips

Saturday, 26 September 2009,13:30 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Waiting For Your Call

Helloooo...!!

Today was absolute fun.Sorta.I arrived at school quite early, cuz we had to bring things for our Home Econs practical.Thing is, in the rush, I forgot my apron.I was so sleepy and blur( quiet old man! ), I asked Mahen.He was like, I don't take Home Econs.Haha.Anyways, sweet sweet Rashi lent me hers.Thanks, babe.Our dish came out better than expected.As usual, the salad was the best.Hehs.

MT wasn't all that fun.We were missing people in class, due to our seniors' awards day ceremony thingy.Then, got a msg from Mira.She wanted to meet up, so we could study.So, asked mum and was allowed to go.I went back home to change first and went to Mac, to meet Mira.When she came, we actually talked more than we studied.Haha.It was fun.There was a lot of guys involved.

And lately, Mira feels like it is P4 all over again, aite?

Haha, okay okay.Subtle Subtle.

Now, just sitting about, thinking.Yes, that's what I do better than anything else.I'm slightly confused.It makes my heart beat really really fast.My head has the whole emo thing going on.I even made a poem/song for right now.How nice.Irony is a gift.I keep getting it.Why people are so complicated, I have no idea.

And this time, I need the real Jacob Black to please stand up;

Labels: Waiting For Your Call

Friday, 25 September 2009,20:56 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Cranky Love

I'd start off this post questioning my sanity but I won't.Cuz there's none left.

Actually, I was real bummed out until a few minutes ago.Bro gave me a good humored advice and friend called.So I'm kinda hyper right now.But anyway, here's the recount for today.

I was the earliest at school today.During Maths, everyone was mugging hard.It was funny, cuz never have I seen my entire class concentrate so hard.We resembled a bunch of studying freaks.Hehs.MT was funny, as always.Sya and Rashi brought the kueh kuehs, so we all ate them.NiceNice.I didn't have recess, cuz ran errands.

English was awesome.We did vocab.Which to me, was like a boon, really.Science was cool too.I like having discussions with Ms N.She's fun.I didn't have lunch too.Which is what made me so cranky.No food! -.-

I went to fetch sister.I was msging Biri on the way.However, dropped by KFC and grabbed a bite.Amazingly, Rohini passed by so we shopped for tomorrow's practical too.And now, I'm home.What a day, eh? Hehs.Not that bad.

I did what I've always wanted to.I took a step back, and laughed at my own life.It was sorta relieving cuz after that I felt lighter and all.Cool eh? I'm thanking God for whatever I have.Seriously.

Thank you, God; I love you.

And Jacob Black too;

Labels: Thank you God

Thursday, 24 September 2009,17:20 | comment | 0 comment(s)

This Ain't Th First Time

I'm damn happy now.

Maybe even the happiest person in the face of this Earth, right now.lol.Lots of reasons.Let me state them all.Firstly, I got to know my Science Test score.I got a distinction a.k.a. an A2.Which is a big deal for me, since I failed the very first one.Then had another conversation with Akka and Mahen, yesterday.Damn funny.We sang to each other.Haha.

Hmmm, any other reason? Not really.I'm just being a very happy person right now.I've got that wonderful bubble feeling inside of me.It's nice.A good change.Feeling poetic.So here I go.

This ain't th first time

But I know it's going to be a little diferent

Cuz there's no doubt about th fact

That there isn't anyone else like you

It's unexplainable

Sometimes painful at night

But you leave me breathless in joy

When your lips pull into a smile

I ain't gonna live for you

I ain't gonna live cuz of you

I'm gonna live with you

By the way, listen to the song: Take You Down- Chris Brown.It's nice, suits what I'm feeling right now.Might seem ridiculous.But I'm finding it hard to get over the fact that you're a ficitonal character, Jacob Black.

Labels: Biri, Happy, Jacob Black, Mahen, Poems

Monday, 21 September 2009,14:00 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Suddenly I See

A very good Jacob Black afternoon to all of ya'll.

Just chatting with Bro.I'm kinda bored.Reading Eclipse again.Don't ask.

But yesterday was damn fun.I was msging Akka.Then she ask me to call her so we can have a three way conversation with our temporary-went-missing friend, Mr Mahen.His phone very annoying.It kept disconnecting the call.However, we talked lots.Lots of crap.And how horribly he sings.Haha.Akka was sick.And he kept asking her to speak louder.And I think 4-5 times, I kept saying: "She's sick la!".Haha.After a while, he got the message.The longest call I've had.3 hours.lol.

What a record.Honestly, it was real fun.Besides, it has been a long time.And I purposely said all those memories that are very close to my heart.They're all inside, like photographs in a photo album.Hehs.We are going to do it again! Haha.Awesome weekend, this is turning into.

Maybe I'll update more later.

Jacob Black's skin has a woodsy, musky scent.

Labels: Jacob Black, Priya, weekend

Sunday, 20 September 2009,13:59 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Everytime

This has been one incredibly hyper weekend for me.

And I ain't complaining.Haha.I took my time to wake up in the afternoon.Cuz it has been a long week.And yeah, I was tired.After lazing around for so long, finally started making notes for Maths.I was waiting for my cousins to arrive.Took them long.Hehs.

Cousins and I talked talked, had fun.Of cuz, what I did talk about was (drumroll please), Jacob Black.Big shocker.Haha.He has officially become my wallpaper.And the subject of most of my conversations.I found some Jacob Black quotes from a website.So am going to post them.Enjoy.

Who's afraid of the big, bad wolf?

Jacob Black, New Moon; Chapter 13 p.321

You'd be better off dead.I rather you were.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 8 p.183

Does me being half-naked bother you?

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 10 p.218

Next time you want to hit me, use a baseball bat or a crowbar, okay?

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 15 p.335

He’s like a drug for you, Bella. I see that you can’t live without him now. It’s too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 26 p.599

The clouds I can handle.But I can't fight with an eclipse.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 26 p.600

Nice, huh? Hehs.I love them all, actually.But these are special.Either funny or got real meaning to the words.I'm still addicted to Full Moon by Black Ghosts.It's actually slightly annoying when you listen the first few times.But it can be kinda soothing.Especially when you're riding in the car, at night, when it's raining.Extremely soothing and comforting.And it remind me of Jacob Black.

And I can see the pain in your eyes;

I can only watch as you hurt;

I cry for you every night;

So many things I can't say but I want to make right;

I'm sorry;

Labels: Jacob Black, Quotes, Sorry

Saturday, 19 September 2009,21:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A Guaranteed Smile

Today I started with a relatively good mood.

Okay, not only relatively.I was damn hyper.And smiling like a mad woman.Hehs.I came slightly later than I usually do.Walked to school with Karthika; Sri gave me a heart attack by walking behind without saying anything.Then, was gushing over Jacob Black, to Divya.Haha.Who else would I talk about?

The home economics project presentation went smooth.After taking my English Test, headed back to join the girls.I was kinda eager to get to dance.It's sort of the only place to release all my stress.Actually, I was damn talkative during practice.In a good way of cuz.Haha.I got praised a number of times, which made me want to dance even more.Hehs.

During break, Divya and I talked about Jacob Black.And after that, I was smiling through the entire dance routine.We would be dancing, then we see each other's face and our smiles just stretched wider.Haha.I'm so crazy about Jacob Black.Just so you know, I'm grinning like a mad woman right now.lol.

I've been watching the trailer again and again and yet, again.Haha.The name itself, will make a smile, that will last more than just a few seconds; Guaranteed.

Jacob Black

Ahhh...!!

Labels: Dance, Jacob Black

Friday, 18 September 2009,21:10 | comment | 0 comment(s)

New Moon

It's been a while since I blogged.

School is as hectic as ever.I didn't attend school on Wednesday, even cuz I was so tired.Plus, I had a swollen face.Don't ask.All I want to do right now, is sleep for hours and hours.But there's so much of work to be completed.

Actually, my head is in a turmoil.I don't understand people.They're the most fascinating living things in this planet.They think one thing, but say another.The important stuff, they hide inside.What for? Wouldn't it be better to just say it out.Atleast I wouldn't have a hard time trying to figure things out.

Part of me is actually quite tired with the current ongoings.I don't know what to think, anymore.So shan't.

Recently, it feels like every day has a new moon.I'm waiting for the slightest shine of light.It will come.It has to.Sooner or later.Ironically, I just read 'New Moon'.The only reason for re reading was, Jacob Black.

Obviously.He's the only fantasy that still makes sense.

Biri and Divya have been keeping me sane.Yet.Unexplainable.I've been feeling a little like an emotionless zombie, lately.And I'm probably the only one who's capable of feeling totally alone, when surrounded by so many people.

I'd like to talk to Bro; Maybe he'll find a less violent solution.

Check out this better trailer of New Moon:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__4nk303LXY&feature=channel

It shows exactly what Jacob Black means, to me.

Labels: New Moon

Thursday, 17 September 2009,17:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Start Of Term 4

Hello, fellow earthlings.

It's mid afternoon and I've still got pending homework.Art and DNT.I will complete it by tonight, for sure.During this school holiday, I've become quite lazy.Haiz.But school's going to start back, tomorrow.So, things are going to return back to normal.I'm going to devote my time revising for the finals.

Okay, the blogskin has been successfully changed.Thanks to the creator himself.Thanks, Bro.

Once school starts, I'm guessing I'll be flooding my own blog.

Anyways, do tag me on how the new skin looks like.

Labels: New

Sunday, 13 September 2009,16:21 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Jacob Black

I tried so hard to put Bro's blogskin, but failed.I need help.

A brief update.

I went to NTUC and met Rohini.We bought whatever we needed and got back to my place.I think we are useless cooks/chefs.Seriously.The kitchen looked like we blastes something.lol.Our chutney didn't turn out exactly how we wanted.But the salad was great.Hehs.Rohini washed up and for that she got to drink up all my peach tea.lol.

Then, after sending mum off to work, went to Pasar Malam again.

I'm going to watch television now.Nothing else up.

I'm texting friends and thinking.

Of cuz, only one thing on my mind.And that's you;

Jacob Black

Labels: Jacob Black

Saturday, 12 September 2009,22:47 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Empty

I've changed my blogskin, as you'll can see.

Yesterday, I was all weird and all.I couldn't help it.But mum helped me out.And Bro tried to cheer me up.

*Thanks*

The song, that's playing, I'm addicted to it like crazy.I keep playing it over and over again in my phone.Today was okays.Cleaned the house with the rest of the family.That's pretty much it.Cuz we slept till 1400hrs.We party till very late, you see.Hehs.I really need to get organized.I've got to complete all my homework, by this evening.Tough luck, but not impossible.

I really want to get back to school.All the revising and preparing for the finals is somehow a comforting idea.

I have nothing much to say other than how much I love this skin.

And that my story is going great.

Plus, I'd like Jacob Black to sit beside me right now :)

Labels: Changes

00:25 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Just Friends

An unknown feeling running through me.Unsound and very much like an irritant.

Mmm, yeah I'm feeling slightly poetic.I want to write.A lot.So many words.I'm missing a lot of people already.This holiday is good for sleeping in and catching up with work.Other than that, it's pretty much torturous.

I'm re reading 'Just Friends'.Don't ask me why.I've no idea why, since it only brings out memories I'd rather have kept inside.I love rum 'n' raisin ice cream.Just love it.

This morning went to school with sister, to collect my term report.Not bad.I'm proud of myself, actually.But still, there's always room for improvement.I'm working on it.Then, we went to IMM to have lunchfast.It was cool.We spent so much of time looking for gifts.Mini Toons is my personal made hell.Argh.

I don't know what I'm feeling.Which, let me tell you, completely sucks.

I was given a false sense of hope, and when they crashed down so did most of everything.That was Tuesday.

It's still a raw, open wound.

"I thought you were someone I could rely on.Someone I could trust.Someone I could respect.I thought we were friends..."

Her voice broke on the word.Her head drooped.He saw that she was crying,A cavity opened in his chest, as if a great stone had been rolled away.{Excerpt from Just Friends}

I can relate.

Labels: Just Friends

Thursday, 10 September 2009,15:39 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Wedding Songs

Hellooo...!!

Today, God has been real forgiving.All the tension and misunderstandings I've had this week, were cleared today.Thank you, God.I only woke at 1300hrs.I'm such a sleep lover.But that's only cuz I slept at 1am last night.Anyways, amazingly I studied today.I went through most of the Maths topics that are coming out for the finals.

Now, discussing with Bro about wedding songs.My song is acceptable.His uh, I have nothing to say.I just hope, my sister in law is as ' open minded '.lol.I'm quite hyper now.Cuz I ate pizza, and it was heavenly.Mmm.I'm typing out my story.It's coming out better than I expected.God, I'm happy.

{Hey I'm sorry, okay? I know I know you will say this totally not needed.But I feel real bad.I should have never said that.I don't hate you.You're a good person and that was mean of me.Most un-hate-able.Sorry.}

P.S. Don't ask me about this, to all those who I know will.

{Fuu! See, now I talking like you also.lol.}

Labels: Sorry

Saturday, 5 September 2009,22:07 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Pretty Little Liars

My moodswings are really on the roll.One minute, I'm feel like the most hated.The next, I'm at the top of the world.And right now, the reason for that feeling is Charmaine babe.I seriously have to thank her for that.She gave me that push I needed.Thanks, babe!

I have come up with a theory for life and the people in it.Not for every single thing, but generally though.It's like a cycle and I've gotten the pattern.Cool, uh? There's some sort of closure in knowing facts of life.Or about it, as a matter of fact.Hehs.

We all lie at some point of our lives.Exactly what/who we lie for, is more important.

We are all pretty.And we're all liars in a way.And in this big world, we're little.

Cuz in a way...

We're all...

Pretty.Little.Liars

Labels: Pretty Little Liars

Friday, 4 September 2009,21:32 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Caution:Mentally Unstable

Hello, people of the world!

I deleted the previous post.It was so sad and I'm not feeling so now.lol.Guess that's what they call CHANGES.

Anyways, was damn cheerful in the morning.Especially, after Maths.I'm so proud of myself.Hehs.Crapped lots with Rohini, Kwok Ying and Srivatsa.They're like a capsule filled with energy, which never seems to run out.Haha.

I had my fair share of moodswings during CDP.Oh well.It's in the past now.

Karthika followed me too Popular to buy Mira's gift.That hottie magnet's birthday is tomorrow.Too bad I won't be there to celebrate with her.But my best wishes will be with her, all the way.

Now I'm being hyper.Though no idea where to channel my energy to.lol.I'm going to compose a poem for Mira now.Haha.Birthday tomorrow aite? HAHA!! See, I'm super hyper.

CAUTION: MENTALLY UNSTABLE

Labels: Mentally Unstable

Thursday, 3 September 2009,19:48 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Stuck With Each Other

Hello

School is on the roll.Monday was awesome.Crapped around with friends then headed back to Primary School.Personally, I was completely overwhelmed by emotions I became numb.Yeah, I didn't know how to react.Everyone was talking and I kept my mouth shut as much as possible.But it was awesome to see:

Krish, Haris, Mira, Alagu, Sugan, Helen and all those people.

I wish it had been a longer visit.

This morning, felt like the most happiest person on Earth.I have no idea why, but didn't argue with it.Met Rohini at the bustop and went into school.We mugged for the Science Test, as a class.So united.lol.During IT, I was laughing so hard cuz I was high on caffeine.Hehs.The Science Test was quite okay.Cuz I studied! Haha.After school, had lunch with Divya and Rohini.Karthika is so sweet.She bought me Rocher!! Sweet aite? Haha.

I'm looking forward to school, these days.It's kinda fun.More than the last time.

I did a calculation yesterday.I realised I hang out with 7-8 types of groups of people.Interesting eh? Haha.It's good to know I can get along with more than just a few types of people.Now, am mugging for HE project along with Rohini :)

Labels: Divya, Exams, Haris, Krish, Mira, Rohini, Science

Wednesday, 2 September 2009,20:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)