i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Random

Hmmm...

What am I doing online? It's supposedly the exams week.But, couldn't resist temptation.This entire week, which only started a few days ago, I'm so random.Yesterday was the start of all exams.English.I bought Ferraro Rocher and gave it to people I could think of.Random.

Today was MT.On one side it was Divya, the other was Venkat.Both were super distracting.They love shaking their feet, leg, whatever that can shake.I wanted to strangle either one.Haiz.

SYAFIQAH BTE KAMALUDDIN

That woman will pay the price.

Actually, I don't exactly how to react.Part of me wants to over react, which I already did.Part of me wants to just ignore the given fact.I like the latter.

I really want to watch Star Trek.Maybe after the exams or maybe even in the midst of it.Haha! See, so damn random.Tomorrow, no school! Woots!~

A break.By the way, Syafiqah, Divya, Rashi and I are old whacky lady magnets.Hehs.If you actually count the amount of times we've been approached by them, you'll be amazed.

I'm chatting with Rosma at the moment.My baby.My saviour.She's so sweet.lol.Khai also.So many people.HAHAHAHA! I'm so weird.

Twilight Psychopath... Duh!

Thursday, 30 April 2009,14:58 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Lost

Headlines:

I lost my wallet.

What a wonderful thing to do.I went to the girl's house in the morn then met Rosma at the interchange.We walked to IMM and I had lunch.We walked back and met Khai, Diyanah and Deana at the library.Deana's friend came and whisked her away.Diyanah taught me the chemical balancing thingy.Khai, Maths pro.When we were thirsty, started to look for my wallet.I couldn't find it.Haiz.

My father came to pick me up.We went to the NPC to make a report.I returned home.I love my parents.They didn't scold me.My mum was going on about not liking my picture in the new Ez-Link card and losing it.lol.Funny people.Hahaha! Why am I so happy? Don't know.

Today, Cullen was so close yet so bloody far.

Irony sucks.

Life is a beautiful thing.Instead of pondering over the bad things, go ahead with the best things.

Damn.Syafiqah's going to watch Ayan later.Argh.I'm glad for the return of everyone's original selves.I love you people.I love you, Priya&&Syafiqah.Haha! I'm mental.By the way, Happy Birthday Himanshu!

Labels: Crazy, Loosu, Lost

Saturday, 25 April 2009,21:05 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Fustrations

Hello

Exams are next week.What am I doing online? Trying my best to shed fustrations I don't need.My head hurts.I've got this ear-splitting silence that keeps giving my head a minutely kick.Today wasn't any better than the rest of the week.Though I should say, lots of drama.Too much to type about.

If another person comes up to me, yammering about being in love and such, I'm going to stuff a six foot metal pole down their throat.Yeah, love is beautiful thing.With the right person, at the right time.It's not called love, what you feel for every person you lay your eyes on.There's another name for it.

I passed out on the sofa just now.So, freaking tired.I woke up, found myself swimming in my own sweat.lol.I had a long bath.Anyways, my plans for tomorrow is changing real fast.I'm going to the library with Rosma, Khai and the gang.Khai's good at Maths.I'll force her to teach me.Hehs.

I would like to bash a few heads.Likely, it won't happen.Shucks.Then again, what can you expect of a...

*TwilightPsychopath*

Labels: Exams, Love, Twilight

Friday, 24 April 2009,21:11 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Change

I changed my blogskin, as you guys can see.I wanted to a less eye straining one.Blame it all on Khai.She's a big influence.I'm chatting with Rosma at the moment.She wants me to post about her Edward.I love that girl.Anyway, back to business.

I wanted to do some serious blogging today.

Life seems to take lots of twists and turns, all of course real unexpected.I'm beginning to suspect that maybe it was meant to be.The decisions made, was probably done beforehand.Still, that doesn't change my mind on the topic fate.It's a pathetic excuses for regrettable decisions, equalling to disastrous outcomes.I feel so full of philosophy today.Maybe, cuz the exams are getting to me.They're so near.

We got one life, one chance, so why not live it to the fullest?

True, I don't like quite a number of people.Some of them, once the closest to me.Then again, things change, right? Nothing remains the same.Ever.Same goes for me.I'm not the same Priyaa, I was one year back.A little more feisty, more aggressive, slightly more emotional, perahaps.Though the biggest change for me was not being able to cope with change itself.

I must respect that people change.It's a hard.Totally ridiculous and I feel like breaking everything in my room just thinking about it.But yeah, I'll cope.My family, my friends, teachers, school, life... Everything.Isn't that what life's mostly about for teenagers? Mostly, coping with all these ongoing changes.I hope eveything works out in the end.Just like Venkat's favourite line from OSO.

"If the ending isn't happy, then the movie isn't over yet"

My greatest apologies, cuz I'm not going to be able to blog much for 2 more weeks or so.Exam mania will be taking over.And my full attention is needed there.I'll be blogging more tonight, if not, this is it.For now.

I'm back.I watched a movie this afternoon.lol.Only I know the real meaning of name numerology.It's a beautiful thing, yeah.

Labels: Changes, Exams, Philosophy, Venkat

Sunday, 19 April 2009,14:26 | comment | 0 comment(s)

adventure

Helloooo!

I'm very high.

Today started with meeting Syafiqah and Rashi at interchange.We were going to some MT dialogue session.Venkat and Rohini met us there at school.Then we call teacher and found out it was cancelled.No one bothered to inform us.But we were hungry so went to IMM, and had Mac breakfast.Mmm...

I took the train with Syafiqah and Venkat.Syafiqah wouldn't shut up about Mr Cullen.Argh! So damn embarassing.I got lost at Lot 1.lol.Afterwards, took the bus home.I had a long nice bathe.Later, got ready to go CCK again.Went to the girl's house.The dogs bit me feet.

I returned home to find Vithya akka there.Apparently we were going for some cultural programme.I met Vaikesh there.We were fooled around.I met her friend too.lol.Then, now I'm home.HyperHyper!~

Labels: Friends, Hyper, Show

Saturday, 18 April 2009,22:23 | comment | 0 comment(s)

mr cullen who?

[ don't smile, don't speak; pls don't ]

Hello

I was rushing out of the house in the morning, cuz recently Syafiqah goes to school earlier.I wanted to take the same bus.But my sister delayed, so I ended up going the same time as any day.Funny thing was I still managed to meet Syafiqah in the bus.Haha!

"What must happen, will happen"

PE was first period.Today is our 2.4km run.You won't believe it.Come to think of it, even I wouldn't if you told me.But! I passed it! Woots!~ Come on people, take out the champagne and let's party! Hahahaha! I'm so damn happy.English was awesome too.We did this rapid something something.Recess, I ran.But cuz I was so happy, I raised my hands and ran as fast as possible.

Science was freakily, understandable.History, I kinda screwed up the first question of the test.Haiz.Let's pray.We were suppose to have MT.But Mrs T didn't come so we went for lunch.It was funny.We, girls, were talking about everything.And Rohini, as usual, made very physical jokes.Syafiqah, Rashidha and Rohini had CCA so they left earlier.Divya and I stayed for about 30min doing homework.Then, we left too.

I've been having frequent dreams consisting of Syafiqah, her bro and some other people.So weird.I'm not sure about my exact feelings, though.

[ edward cullen has had a makeover ]

Labels: Divya, Running, Syafiqah, Twilight

Friday, 17 April 2009,20:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)

the best day

Today was a very happy day.

Really, I love it so much.

The day started with me talking to Rosma about stuff.The usual stuff.She's really funny and I love her to bits.First period was English.We did more structured comprehension than usual.Science was okays too.Recess was weirdly awkward.Divya was upset cuz of some crap comment.Some people have nothing better to do than crap on other people.

Maths was alright.Halfway through the lesson though, I completelt zoned out.I seriously didn't understand what she was talking about.But then, Ms Ng came and patiently told me what I did wrong.Haha.She's so nice.NYAA was very funny.I couldn't play as my PE shirt was stolen.Pathetic eh?

Rohini didn't play too.We sat and did commentry on the players.It real fun to watch.

MT CLASS WAS THE BEST!

Syafiqah and Rohini were helping Divya with her script.She was the opposition team for debate so I went to ask the guys.Surya, Venkat, Hemmnath, Harish they all damn funny.We talked about Namitha, Nayanthra, boobies.Hahaha.We laugh like nobody's business.When Mrs T came, Surya sang 'Push it' and I couldn't help but splutter; laughing.It was my most happiest day, in a while.

I had lunch with Divya, Syafiqah and Rashidha.Priya was sitting with her friends.lol.I spent all afternoon doing my homework.So good girl.Exams are nearing.Real freaky.

No picture for today.

Sorry.

Thursday, 16 April 2009,21:11 | comment | 0 comment(s)

alone

[ and then there are times you just want to be all alone ]

HeyHey

Today was awkward.I woke up with two big golf balls for eyes.Yup, they were swollen.My dad took my temperature and told my I shouldn't go for tution.But I can be very adamant.So, I went.Besides, I need the air from the 'Outside World'.The trip to CCK was mind numbing, for some reason.

My sister punched my head while she was sleeping.I'm definitely not going to sleep beside her, tonight.

I came back home and fell asleep on the sofa.How charming.When I opened my eyes, there were many people in my house.My aunt, my neighbour etc.I got up, washed up and tried to socialise.Tried; very hard.Didn't see much effect.Anyways, mum started cooking for Dad and granny.I wanted something new.Thus, I made Marcoroni soup.The soup's all dried up now.So, I guess I'll melt cheese over it later.

Not a big fan of cheese.But I don't care now, do I?

See, I feel so sarcastic.

And my sense of humour has dried up for now.

[ one butt cheek at a time ]

Labels: Alone

Saturday, 11 April 2009,20:58 | comment | 0 comment(s)

joy

[ th joy is just laughing out loud ]

Hello

Today was probably, my most favourite of this entire week.It started out weird.I felt gloomy due to lack of sleep.So, I was real cranky.But Rosma and Khairina cheered me up in the morning.During recess, started to talk properly, for the day.Maths; was okays.Ms Ng is super funny.lol.

NYAA was tiring.Some of us were made to run all around the hall for 15min.By the time I was done, I was sweating like...Eurgh.MT was kinda funny.Everyone was laughing at Rohini's wild ranting.Haha.Spent lunch with Rohini and Divya.Then, they had to go off.I waited for Syafiqah and Rashidha at the library.We were acting like drunkards in the canteen.Hehs.

Later, Shafiq kept pestering Syafiqah to play Frisbee with SongLin, Venkat and him.But Nila called all of them to help with the banner thingy.So, we went up.They didn't help.

*Sniggers*

I just sat there, reading my book.SongLin was babbling in what I thought was a weird attempt of Tamil.Haha.He got what he deserved.lol.

We watched the Sec1s playing soccer from the 3rd floor.And Syafiqah went and popped out something that was supposed to be a secret.Not anymore.Crap.nvm.Syafiqah and I talked all the way back home.WOOTS!~

I'm really hyper.So glad.Thanks for all the cheering up, intentional or not.

[ love you till th very end ]

Labels: Joy, Love, Syafiqah, Venkat

Thursday, 9 April 2009,20:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)

chocolates

Hello

I'm in the library at the moment.It's been a rough week.And it isn't even over yet.God.Anyways, congrats to Syafiqah, Divya, Rohini and Venkat on officially becoming a part of the 10th Student Council Board.You've got to see Divya and Syafiqah in their leggings, they looked about a sizzling 20 on a 10 meter scale.lol.

Plus, WOW!!

I got my first praise from Mrs L.In front of the whole class.I figured something out too.It's easier to give reactions when you're getting scolded in front of the class than getting praised.I didn't know what to do.So, I just stared.Smooth, Priyaa, real smooth...

My irregular sleeping habits are getting to me.Cuz when I'm awake I'm either real cranky or too hyper.Though, today I was more of the latter.Still, I'm seriously upset whenever I go home.I don't know why.My mind starts on a whirl of gibberish and I just want it to shut up.I really want to talk to the 5 in unison.Even now, my brain is in fast forward of the past I want to forget.

How ironic can my mind get?

Also, I'm craving for chocolates.It's normal.Yet, my choice of craving is so out of the blue.

I want:

Mars Bars-I've never had in ages, though it's my favourite.

After Eight-Reminds my of a classy restaurant for some reason.

White chocolate-Assures me I'm still at least a tiny part innocent.

Belgian white chocolate frappe-All the more reason to love chocolates.

Mint M&Ms-One and only reason I love green.

Cadbury's Flake-Flakey flakey flakey!

Cadbury's Eclairs-Reminds me of France.

Cadbury's TimeOut-WAFER!!

See, it's super weird, if not long.

That's all.

(Will post picture later)

Labels: chocolates, Divya, Rohini, Syafiqah, Venkat

Wednesday, 8 April 2009,17:07 | comment | 0 comment(s)

speechless

[ i hate this feeling ]

Hi world

I didn't go to school today.Which was a big achievement for me.Cuz I wanted to complete the year without taking even one day off.But whatever.I actually woke up and made all the way to the bathroom to take a bath.Suddenly, I was like "Dang it, I shall go back to sleep".I had to ask my mum 3 times cuz I was afraid she might be just agreeing, sleepily.

Anyways, I finally was wide awake at 10am.I lazed around on the sofa and constantly switched channels.I didn't know morning TV was that boring.There were lots of cooking shows.Which got me thinking of how hungry I was.My dad bought me breakfast.After that I did my Maths homework while msging Rosma.

Mum woke up.She was damn tired from last night's shift.We sat watching TV after she cooked.I wondered what the IDS were doing.Then, I took a long shower and got ready to go out.We fetched my sister from school then went to NLB.I miss my quiet sanctuary.We shopped at NTUC right after.

And I've noticed something.Every person who passes me, stares.At the beginning, I stared back.Now, I just ignore.I must have a big sign on my head that says, "Look At Me!", it seems.God, I feel very loose right now.Syafiqah knows what I mean.So Maya-ish.

Friday, 3 April 2009,21:20 | comment | 0 comment(s)

in your face

[ and baby, i feel like i'm walking on air ]

Hello

I'm the most happiest person right now.

This moment.

This minute.

This hour.

This day.

Now.

Haha.That was a nice shape.lol.Anyways, a few reason.Yesterday was our dance SYF.Mum came to watch.I was glad.My brain didn't seem to register that it wa THE DAY until we were backstage.God, I was so nervous.Nevertheless, we danced our best and did our school proud.

I'm proud to say, no no, we're proud to say that

WE GOT A GOLD FOR SYF INDIAN DANCE!!

WOOTS!~

It was an awesome feeling.Today morning, when I went to school, everyone was wishing me.lol.I feel so proud to be part of the IDS.They announced in the morning during assembly too.Haha.I love my school.God, I'm so happy.Hehs.English was fun.I read this emo-ish passage I wrote.It was so damn gloomy.Ms C congragulated me.She's so cute.lol.ConvMT was okay.We spent 30min looking for the venue.

I ate curry puff during recess.And didn't talk much.Cuz didn't feel like it.Maths was fun.I love the new teacher.She's so cool.MT was alrights.We just talked lots.Surya had gone for drama SYF.

*Keeping fingers crossed*

Today was the last NYAA dance.And OhMyGod, he called me up on stage.To dance with SongLin, this guy from 2/1.Crap.I was shaking.I forgot my steps.But when the music started, I just danced.2/1 and 2/2 were cheering for me.And I got praised and all.Haha.The 2nd time I was called, I messed up.Forgetting one of the last bits.I stomped my foot and said shit.In front of everyone.How expressive!

I LOVE THE WORLD!

I LOVE MY LIFE!

I LOVE YOU!

[ th joy of achieving your dreams ]

Labels: Dance, Gold, SYF

Thursday, 2 April 2009,17:23 | comment | 0 comment(s)