i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Things Change

Hello.Once again.

I've just returned from yet another dance practice.Haha! It was fun and full of riot.lol.Today is the 30th.Syafiqah is supposedly coming back today.Haizz... Harshvini called and we're going to meet her at IMM later.Woots!~ Shopping for the NY's party.It's in Vasu aunty's house.

Mum made me noodles.Mmm...Haha! Maybe, I will update more later.

Vinay is leaving today.

Labels: Harshvini, New Year, Party, Vasu, Vinay

Tuesday, 30 December 2008,14:02 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Life Has Its Ways

Hey people.

Today was awkwardly enlightening.I don't know how.But it was.Let's just get to the day.

I had dance practice.But I overslept.Fortunately, by God's grace, Divya called me and my handphone was turned on.I grabbed my bag and ran out the door.

Oooh! Good news.Divya called.Meaning she was back in Singapore.Thank God.lol.Then, I caught the bus and reached on time, alright.Met Divya and Thiva at the study corner.Divya looked darker.Cool tan.She brought chocolates with her.Haha! Mmm...

Dance was vigorous, as usual.After that, Thiva was hungry.Nobody could accompany her.So, I went with her.I was hungry, anyway.Kesh came with us, in the end.We ate Chicken Rice.Quite delicious, I must say.On our way back, I was mumbling about having to ride the bus alone.Just then, Thiva shouted that there was someone we know, across the road.I searched but couldn't see it immediately.

It was Venkat.I was kinda angry with him for something that happened one month ago.I was planning on being angry with him, till the whole of next year.I ignored him, as he walked past.We were standing at the traffic light and I was telling Thiva and Kesh why I was angry with him.Okay, I was a little too expressive.

[Stomping My Feet In Public]

When we were on the other side of the road, Venkat ran and apologised.I was quite shocked.Cuz I really wasn't expecting it, the least bit.Later, we talked on the way, trying to find where the misunderstanding was and all.And I got company on the way home.lol.Venkat talked mostly about Student Council and his decisions.It was an interesting conversation.

~Life Has Its Ways~

I have to say, if Venkat had not worked up the nerve to apologise to me, I wouldn't have spoken to him.Just think of that! I respect Venkat for having the guts to approach me, when I was quite mad at him.That's for sure!

And this is why, it's quite a nice day.

I've made one less enemy today!

Bye

Labels: Apologising, Dance, Divya, Life, Venkat

Monday, 29 December 2008,14:32 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Syafiqah&&Divya Sick

Hello! I'm in a very good mood tonight.Okay, so it's past midnight.You people might be wondering what in the world I'm doing awake.But it happens, you see.I just can't sleep.Two reasons.I'll start with the first and major one.

Saturday- 27 December 2008

It was my mum's birthday.I called her and wished her last night, since she was working.She came back home and slept.I found out that my uncle had called her from Malaysia.My uncle, Vaikesh, Sathesh, Malathi and Vasan Anna all wished her.My mum was very touched.I could hear it in her voice and see the happiness in her face.So sweet of them!

At about 4pm, Shanti aunty, Harshvini and Rishi came over with the cake.It was a surprise for my mum.Plus, they bought sparkling cidar.lol.I woke mum up at about 6pm.She was genuinely surprised.=]

Then, Vasu aunty and Harini came by.That little princess was twirling around in her brand new blue dress.Cute.We cut the cake.And popped a bottle open.After that, talk talk talk.Haha!! Later, Rishi, Harshvini and I went down to buy mee goreng.lol.It was so fun.

The second reason for my sleepless night is...

~SYAFIQAH&&DIVYA~

Argh! School going to start and both of them are still away.One in Malaysia and the other is Perth.Haizz.It's lonely without them.One kills me with her words but I miss when she's not there.The other makes me laugh like no other.I miss them like ARGH!! Only talking to Priya and Rashidha, am I kept sane.

Vinay is going off on Tuesday.Confusions.Anyway, new story.

Labels: Birthdays, Divya, Labis, Malaysia, Mum, Syafiqah, Vinay

Sunday, 28 December 2008,00:26 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Christmas

I apologise for the lack of posts.Been quite busy.On Wednesday, my family, Harshvini, Rishi and I went to Orchard.To see the deco.Super fun.We were talking nonsense and acted like idiots.I laughed a lot. Then on Christmas, different story.Harshvini and Rishi accompanied me to my dad's relative's place. We ate.

I msged Vinay through Priya's handphone.I must agree he is one hell of a guy.lol.Then went to Alice's place.Fun fun.Bryan so cute.lol.

That's about it.

Friday, 26 December 2008,20:32 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Crazy Antics

Lord forbid, but here I shall start with my usual blabbering.

Woots!~ Christmas is coming.The best part of the whole occasion is probably the food, movies and homey kinda feeling.Most of the time, I indulge in various kinds of chocolates.But this year, that dream is looking kind of dim.Weight issues.Hehs.Crap.

I dreamt about the first day of school, for next year.It wasn't as terrible as I imagined.But still, it wasn't quite as alluring.My homework remains un-did.Add that to the dictionary.I really want Syafiqah to get her butt back to Sinagapore this instant.I know i'm insane.I tell myself that ever so frequently.

I'm missing Harshvini.No one to talk to.Gahhh! I haven't eaten yet.I wonder why.Today is Sunday.There will be good Christmas movies on.Maybe I will watch them.Or be stuck cleaning my room/doing my homework in my room.It's not even mine.Mum said I will get mine soon enough.Once that happens, I'm going to paint it ORANGE && some other colour, with black brushes.

Haha!! Imagine that.I think I will update at night.Maybe maybe.

I'm back.

I'm watching One Tree Hill videos on Youtube.com.I'm addicted to that show.Though I never watch it.But the characters are WOW.Hehs.

I love this line.

THE BOY SAW A COMET

"The Boy Saw The Comet and he felt as though his life had meaning,

and when it went away he waited his entire life for it to come back to him.

It was more than just a comet because of what it brought to his life:

direction, beauty, meaning.

There are many who couldn't understand, and sometimes he walked among them.

But even in his darkest hours he knew in his heart that someday it would return to him,

and his world would be whole again...

and his belief in God and love and art would be re-awakended in his heart."

Okay...It's more of a passage.

Labels: OTH

Sunday, 21 December 2008,12:26 | comment | 0 comment(s)

God Is A DJ...

I feel emo-ish.I don't care what it means or even if it doesn't mean anything.I just feel like it.Happy?!

Listening to songs by P!nk.I woke up at about 9am and sleepily ordered McDonald breakfast.I'm not if the receptionist could hear me properly.When the food arrived, I calmly ate.I was seriously tired.So went back to sleep.Just woke up again.lol.

I have to get started on my homework.Bad girl.I know, I know.Hehs.I keep putting them off.I have to complete 4 MT book reviews by today.I can do it.No problem.Stayed up last night chatting with Priya and her friend Vinay.Funny guy.Later, still msged her.Cuz I had nothing better to do.Hehe.I still can't imagine the first day of school.And it's 20 December already.

How time flies.When you start enjoying it.Crap.I'm feeling woozy too.Haha.God, there's no one online to talk to.Maybe, I will update more later.

Bye

Labels: Breakfast, Holidays, McDonald, Priya, Vinay

Saturday, 20 December 2008,15:37 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Updatation.If That's A Word.

Hey people...

Why is life so freaking complicated? And why do I ask questions on my blog, not getting the answers most of the time??

We shall have to wait for these answers.Anyway, an update on my life.Today I had dance practice.I woke up late.But still, I managed to get there on time.It was rigorous.Tired and pained.Returned home to find my Mutti and Vati missing.They had gone to NTUC.

Took a long, steaming bath.I felt a little better.I lay, thinking, on the sofa.What a life, eh? I've got a certain confused feeling within me.I need someone to talk to.Wish Syafiqah or Divya was here.Both have gone overseas.Sad.

However, there is one thing I'm very happy about.I'm going back to Labis next June! Woots!~ It's probably the one thing I'm looking forward to, for next year.See all my cousins! Haha! Stay up all night, and talk crap.How does that sound for passing the holidays? FUN FUN!!

Okay.I still feel like continuing this post.Just can't imagine how.Cuz I'm not sure what to talk about.Both mum and I are feeling awkward/weird and all that nonsense.Haizz... I called Harshvini to talk to.Unfortunately, another call interrupted.What is wrong with this phone connections?!

Actually, I have a suggestion to make to everyone for future holiday trips.Go to Malaysia, India, China, wherever your ancestors are from.It's real cool.Plus, even better if you still have relatives there.Trust me, it will be a true eye-opener.Cuz compared to our busy, hectic Singapore lifestyle, those places are a bliss.Time flies seriously slow.You probably have to pick your brains to find the next thing to do.It's awesome.

I enjoyed it, there in Labis.Truly, unforgettable.My cousins: Saran anna, Malathi, Karthik, Karan, Vasan anna and many others whose names I've yet to remember.lol.Oooh.Soon enough, I'm going to learn how to go "biking".Haha! See! I'm feeling so much better.And I'm purely addicted to the old old song:

Tiruppatchi Aruvala-Taj Mahal.

Hehs.Reminds me of Labis.

Bye

Labels: Cousins, Divya, Fun, Labis, Next Year, Syafiqah

Friday, 19 December 2008,16:58 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Love Me Or Hate Me, Just Don't Ignore Me

Hello!!

I'm pretty excited to blog.I've The whole of yesterday and till 12pm today I was at Labis, Malaysia.Yes, after 4 years of waiting, I finally got to go there.My cousins live there, you see.Recently, Rishi and Harshvini went there.They accompanied us again.lol.

We took the 5.35am train yesterday.Reached there at about 9am.My uncle fetched us.Mum and my sis went to the market.Harshvini, Rishi and I went to the house first.Immediately after, Rishi woke Saran anna and went "biking".Harshvini and I woke Vaikesh up.Then, we watched TV.Very boring.

Soon after, Mum and my sis returned.Rishi avoided us.He thought he was too great to hang out with us.Idiot.The guys locked us in the house and went to Big uncle's house.Malathi's mum, came over.She invited us to her place.So, we spent till 4pm there.Karan and Karthik, Malath's brothers, are so cute.All three of them, came to stay over at Shanti aunty's house.

We play and sing songs.lol.At 9 plus, we went to Big uncle's house.We left at 11 plus.Then something happened which I don't want to talk about.About 12 midnight, we all made our way to 7/11.Haha! Fun.We stayed up talking awhile.

Quite nice.Vasan Anna went to K.L. So it wasn't quite as chatty.lol.

That's all.

Labels: Cousins, Fun, Holidays, Labis

Wednesday, 17 December 2008,19:56 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Top 10 Hot Guys

Yeah yeah, I know.I said I won't be blogging as often.But this is less regular, by my standards.I've been boring myself lately.But Saturday was great.My sis and I brought our maid [alone] to City Hall, her agency.After that, sipping on slurpee, we made our way to "Raffles City Shopping Mall".

Honestly, I've never been there.And wandering there on our own just made the adventure even more enthralling.lol.After buying my sis chocolates at "The Coco Tree", we went into this urban small shop.Though it was small, it was quite interesting.I bought myself a T-shirt.Woots!~

Feeling hungry, we headed towards Mos Burger.After lunch, went to NLB.Then back to the agency.What a day.And this was only the afternoon.Currently I'm obsessed with Kunal Sharma.Not his acting in Cheetah Girls 3.But the one in "Adventures Of Food Boy".He looked nerdish and goofy, thick with his Indian accent.But that was what made me go mad over him.

Eccentric eh?

Anyway, my new story is developing quite fast.Most of it is written on paper, my hand are aching.Hmmm... Dance has been great too.Tiring.Harshvini has returned from her trip to Labis.Boy, did she have stories to tell me.Hehs.

Just had a peanut butter sandwhich and tea.Yummy.

I'm going to make my Top 10 hot guys list.

{ Top 10 Hot Guys }

10. Brendon Fraser-[ George Of The Jungle ]

9. Ryan Phillippe-[ Cruel Intentions ]

8. Corbin Bleu-[ HSM 1,2,3 ]

7. Kunal Sharma-[ The Adventures Of Food Boy ]

6. Taylor Lautner-[ Twilight ]

5. Channing Tatum-[ Step Up ]

4. Vishal-[ Sathyam ]

3. Steven Strait-[ The Covenent ]

2. Surya-[ Vaaranam Aayiram ]

AND THE NO.1 SPOT GOES TO!!...

1. Heath Ledger-[ 10 Things I Hate About You, A Knight's Tale, The Dark Knight ]

That was nice.Kind of like a tribute huh...

Tag people.Bye.

Labels: Raffles Mall, Saturday, Top 10 Guys, Tribute

Sunday, 14 December 2008,17:11 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Short Goodbye

Hello fellow readers!

Something is up with my computer and it is acting funny.Computer! I have got my eyes on you.Harshvini has gone off to Labis.No fair! I'm msging Priya at the moment.Catching up on her life.lol.

Anyway, I'm going to be very busy, doing last minute homework.You guys know me, I'm a serious worker.Hehs.So, blogging will be tough.But I will try to squeeze blogging as much as possible.Msg me and I will talk to you.I'm good at multi-tasking that way.

So, yeah.That's about it.

Labels: Blogging, Busy, Harshvini, Homework, Labis, Priya

Friday, 12 December 2008,20:55 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A Song For A Day

Hi.

Sorry for scaring you people with my awkward confession post.Just couldn't keep it all inside anymore.lol.See! I'm my natural jovial, bubbly self again.I think.I woke up seriously early today.To accompany Harshvini for her audition for a particular singing competition.It took a long time.I was alone and I thought she needed more support.

Thus, I called Priya to come over.She is such a babe! Priya came right over in like 30min.Thank you so much! She kept me company.Harshvini didn't get in.Priya and I were trying to cheer Harshvini up, even though she kept saying she was "fine".

I'm feeling very weird.I think I'm going to complete my English homework by tomorrow.

Being constantly annoyed by my younger sister.Haizz... But then again, life ought be like that.I'm slugging for dance practices.Argh.Not that I hate it.I quite enjoy the feeling of being overly energetic.Though the only thing I miss is Labis.My cousins are going there.But I don't think I am.Sadd.No.Seriously.Sad.

As the new year is approaching, I'm EXTREMELY nervous.I wonder what Sec2 life has installed for me.But then again, I can wait.

It is a torture to think.So I shall stop.

Bye

Labels: English, Harshvini, Homework, Priya, Sec 2, Sorry

Wednesday, 10 December 2008,16:02 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Losing It

I feel quite insane at the moment!

I think I can quite safely say that I have officially and finally LOST IT!!

My mind is swirling and all that crap.There shall be no such thing as SANITY in my life anymore.I'm partially going mad over the fact that school is starting in less than a month.Plus, I have to attend dance practices.And I just cant't!... I'm hyper-ventilating.

Hu Ha! Hu Ha! Hu Ha!

Deep breath.

My idiot of a best friend is not here to help me.Perhaps he's gone on that trip he said he was.Shucks.Life is a battle field.And my life, especially, is a constantly used WARPATH.No justice left in the world.There's no more justice.

Actually I don't know why I'm mourning like this.Feeling pretty dramatic at the moment.lol.It's just that I'm being driven mad cuz of the boredom that's being unloaded on me.The holidays aren't very exciting.Except for Christmas.I can't wait for Christmas.I've been a very good girl, this year.

I can't wait for 2009 to start.The daily routine of school and home is quite soothing.You know what you are doing.And there's an aim and something to follow.Get me??? NVMS.

The randomness I'm feeling is pretty awkward.But hey! It's me.It's natural.Syafiqah is in MY.Divya remains un-contactable.Krish is unavailable.Haris is hardly online.Everyone seems occupied.Haizz... School begin!

___________________

Here I start afresh.I seriously have nothing better to do.So, here I go.It's just that, only recently [actually this evening], did I realise that it doesn't matter what people thought of me.It's your opinion.So go right ahead! I can't change everyone's.So why bother changing a few.My msn font is pale pink.I must be really getting comfortable.

My table is messy with lots of books.I must get rid of lots of them.Most of them are just rubbish.The next school year is arriving.Must get ready for it.I chatted with someone.And I've had it with him.All he does is mourn and mourn and mourn! You know life is filled with ups and down.When you fall down, you get your sorry butt of the ground and keep going on.

Instead, you don't ruin other people's day by telling what's worst in your life.I'm sorry.I just can't do it anymore.

I've been the pole so many leaned on.I'm the listening ear.The crying shoulder.The friend who's there.But what about me? I know my friends can't help be away on vacation.Thus, I've made a decision.I'm going to stop pretending like I'm the counsellor and all.I'm a normal teenager who has yet to go through stuff she has given advices for!

I feel so much better now.

Thank you:

Rashidha for talking with me.

Mithunn for chatting with/advising me.

Mariyah for letting me be her mommy.

Divya for letting me be her friend.

Syafiqah for allowing me to share our dreams.

Hazwani for telling my your psychotic sarcastic words.

Rohini for teaching me the way with people.

Ifah for well being Ifah.

Gowri for inspiring me to do well in English.

Krish for showing my inner me.

Namirah for teaching me about boys.

Haris for allowing me to share my stories.

Priya for being my older sister.

Bye

Labels: insane

Saturday, 6 December 2008,21:45 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I'm In Love

...With a movie.I know what you guys were thinking.

I'm liking my new blogskin.Haha! Anyways, there's many things I've done these past few days.And I apologise for the lack of posts.But I'm here!

On Sunday, my cousins and I went to our uncle's 50th birthday.We had to go past Chua Chu Kang station too.I called Syafiqah to come to the interchange, so I could give her the last book of Twilight.She also told me all about the "Vampire" she had recently met.lol.Then she got down.Sad.The party was fun.My cousins and I danced like mad.I also broke my toe nail.Ouch! It bled quite a lot.NVM.

On Monday, mum said we could go and watch "Vaaranam Aayiram" at the cinema.Mum also called, Vithya akka, Vaikesh, Sathesh and my aunt.We met up at Yishun there and watched the movie.I'm in love with it.Plus, it was actually kind of like torture, watching Surya's six packs.Ahhhh!...

On tuesday.I have forgotten what I did.My bad... =]

On Wednesday, Vaikesh and Harshvini came over.We went to my mum's colleague's wedding.It was at a temple.Quite interesting.Ate lunch and left.We got down at JE interchange and I got "attacked" by an indian guy.Finally, made our way to NTUC.Mum also bought my hp the screen guard.Haha! We bought provision and left for home.

Harshvini and Vaikesh are staying over.They will leave this aftertoon.

What a week I've had! And I have yet to complete my homework.Hehs! Bad girl, I know.Syafiqah has left for MY.I might not go, after all.Due to some bad news.Haizz... I'm cool with that though.My handphone bill came in yesterday.It was disastrous.Eurgh!

Bye

Labels: Birthdays, Cousins, Dance, Hp Bill, Party, Syafiqah, Temple, Vaarnam Aayiram, Wedding

Thursday, 4 December 2008,10:18 | comment | 0 comment(s)