i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

Love to hate Or Hate to love?

[ when you hate so much, soon you'll forget how to love ]

Hello!

I'm very happy, for the littlest things right now.I guess that's alright.Since, it makes me forget of all the stupid things that happen on this Earth.I'm down on inspiration for my story.lol.But I will try, kays.I woke up all drowsy and got ready to go for dance.I couldn't even open my eyes properly.Still...

Dancing was real tough.We practised so much.The band members were in the hall too.They clapped for us.Yay! Lol.Very appreciative.I like those people.After dance, I wanted to go for lunch.But my dad had already bought me lunch so I just went back home.I was msging Priya on the way.We touched on many interesting topics.

I was super tried that I fell asleep while lying down, watching TV.Haha! My sister woke me up and I went to the room and slept beside my mum.For about 2hrs.I woke up and took a long bath.It felt real good.Cuz it unknotted all my muscles.My aunt helped me with some points for the debate.

Then, my family and I sat to watch 'Yaar Antha Star'.It was real nice, with all the singers coming down from India.Oh my God, Dinesh Kanakaratnam was in it.Haha.The guy who sang the recent hit, Athichudi.He's a Sri Lankan.But his tamil was so pure.I was singing along to the song till my sister told me to shut up.lol.

At the moment, I'm so full of philosophy.About the picture above.It's true, you know.If you begin hating so much, soon you'll forget how to love.And that's probably the worst thing possible that can happen to anyone.To lose the ability to love.Totally dumb.So, just calm down and think.By hating the people you hate, it doesn't do any good to you, other than making you a bitter person inside.

Just freak out, let it go! Let go everything.Stress, pressure, hate, anger, jealousy, sorrow, tears.Anything and everything that whines up hurting you more than anyone else.A few tips.

Smile; Make someone's day

Laugh; Cheer someone up

Relax; Think and do things clearer

Be happy; Radiate the energy to all

And finally...

Love; You become a better person and make others in the process too.

Maybe, you guys are thinking, easier said than done.Yeah, I understand.But try.It won't hurt.Trust me, when you do these instead of the opposites, your life will feel so worth living.It's true.

Also, this post is dedicated to Priya&&Syafiqah.

[ and when you miss, just think of them; they'll know how much they mean to you ]

Labels: Dance, Hate, Love, Philosophy, Priya, Syafiqah

Saturday, 28 March 2009,21:27 | comment | 0 comment(s)

i got tired of waiting

[ he's on th wrong path cuz of that fog in his life ]

Some people change their minds, like a girl changes clothes. No, I'm not mad with anyone.I'm very tickled.Serious.It's hilarious how people's minds work, especially guys.

School is still as tedious as ever.Dance is longlong.Cuz the SYF is just a week away.Gosh.Scary, you know?

As usual, just when I thought the drama at school is over, life loves surprising me! Except now, it's not directly about me.Yet, I'm involved too.Wonderful eh.

Short post.

Watched Naan Kadavul.

Must watch, people.

Life is so worth living.

[ crap teenage love, it ruins more than just two people's lives, you know? ]

Friday, 27 March 2009,20:25 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Dance Dance

RULES:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Tag as many friends.

5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.

6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

Dhoom Machale- Dhoom

[HAHAHA!!]

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

Sexy! No no no...-Sugababes

[OhMyGod!!]

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Church-T/Pain

[Arent i religious?]

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Hear me-Kelly Clarkson

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?

Koi Mil Gaya-Koi Mil Gaya

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Breakaway-Kelly Clarkson

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Hotstuff-PCD

[Yup I'm so hot...Right]

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

The Getaway-Hilary Duff

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Love is just a feeling-The Darkness

10. WHAT YOU ALWAYS DO DURING TAKE 5?

Aayiram Janal-Vel

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Ullathai Killathey-Thamizhan

[Haha... Means dun pinch my heart]

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

He wasn't-Avril Lavigne

[so true...]

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Hey Baby-No Doubt

[lol]

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Cry-Rihanna

[Maybe... with some people]

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

16 at war-Karina Parisan

[HEHS]

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

For the love-Drew Sidora

[Most probably]

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??

Check Yes Juliet-We the kings

[hahahaha]

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Walk away-Kelly Clarkson

[no no no!!]

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Adiyae Kolluthey-VA

[SyAFIQAH!!]

20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

Open your eyes-Alter Bridge

[Very true]

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Beat of me heart-HilaryDuff

[kinda...]

22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

Dance Dance

[I feel like it...]

Tags:

Syafiqah

Biri

Haris

Sunday, 22 March 2009,21:35 | comment | 0 comment(s)

[ th only sane thing to do ]

I'm still feeling hyper.lol.It's the same story most of the weekends.School is going to start.And I have yet to complete my homework.Bad girl, I know.I woke up and went to the girl's house.I didn't get to visit Surya Annae cuz of some complications.Returned home and lazed around.In the evening, went to IMM with my sister.We collected her new jeans and got ice cream.

I bought the Rum&&Raisin flavour.Yummy!! I could taste the distinct alcohol.lol.Gosh, if allowed, I'd probably be lol-ing the whole day.By the way, I'm also addicted to 'Edward's Lullaby' from Twilight.I love it.I beg everyone.Someone really gotta play it for me one day.That's about it for now.

[ ]

Saturday, 21 March 2009,21:40 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Reflections

[ i wish you could see yourself the way i see ya ]

Hello

How's the world?

Anyways, this whole week was supposed to be holidays.But it was so not like it.Every single day I had dance and classes.Gosh.Still, lots of interesting things happened in these 5 days.The number 5 is a weird number.So here goes...

Monday, dance was alright.But there was drama involved.I don't want to talk about it.After dance, met Mahen once again at the bus stop.I talked to him.Rubbini, Priya and he made me feel better.Thanks, guys.I hurry hurry got ready to go to the temple for special prayers.Ahhh.I love Vimala Aunty.She's my fave.She's so cool.Haha.We talked about lots of things.When we were eating, I got a stare-r.lol.The dude was funny.Man, I'm flattered.

Tuesday, after dance, went out with mum, sister and Harshvini.We watched the movie "Race to Witch mountain".It was hilarious.We ate and played at the arcade.Harshvini stayed over.Wednesday, wasn't good.I didn't go for dance cuz we got news that Surya Annae had an accident.We went to see him at his house but he was out.Yesterday, I went for dance.We tried on our costumes.I met mum and sis at IMM for lunch.

I've finally watched TWILIGHT.Haha.Though, the movie was not up to my expectations, it wasn't that bad.lol.Tomorrow, going out with Harshvini and Rishi, they all.We're going to visit Surya Annae then head for Vivo City.Coolio!! I know, I'm nuts.

[ there's no turning back ]

Labels: Dance, Friendship, Mahen, Priya

Friday, 20 March 2009,22:00 | comment | 0 comment(s)

my happiness

[ i thought i'll never let go, but i guess it's time; grow up ]

Hello

Today was freaking awesome! Haha.

I woke up, feeling super groggy.Mum had bought breakfast.After eating I was just lazing around.My granny wanted me to buy her something.So, my sister and I took a shower and went out.First we went to the library.Then, took the bus to Jurong East.It was raining so damn heavily.There were trees that had been broken on the road.Which blocked the bus we took.

My sister and I were soaking wet by the time we got back.And then I watched this old Tamil movie.I've a sudden interest in all the old movies.They're very nice and darn meaningful.And the songs... Ahhh.Just plain poetic.Hehs.I'm reading a new book right now.Haha.It's about a Punjabi guy and his struggles as he tries to change his family's too traditional beliefs.

HAHAHAHAHA!!

My happiness can find no boundaries.Not now.Not tomorrow.Not ever!!

Woots!~

[ you're my silver lining in this clouded world ]

Labels: Friendship, Happiness, Love, Movie, Songs

Sunday, 15 March 2009,21:35 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Irony

[ pronounced as mal-bro, not malbaro ]

HeyHey

I'm super hyper today.lol.Morning, went for tution.I bought myself slurpee on the way back.I really wish people would stop staring at me.It's very annoying.I got back home.I did some of my homework.And was cranking up the volume on my iPod.Haha.I miss it lots.

Later, I watched 'Krrish' while eating.The main characters' names were Priya and Krishna.How ironic, just plain ironic!! Krish is distressed.I'm guessing I didn't help him much yesterday cuz I seriously am not sure what is happening.So, I tried my best given the ridiculous state.I'm sorry, dude.But the movie was damn nice.lol.Haha.After all it was Hritik Roshan.It couldn't have been less than awesome!! Woots!~

NOOOOOOOOO!!

Siva got into the finals for Yaar Antha Star.Sorry, I have nothing against him.I was just expecting someone else to get in.*HintHint* Haha.I'm waiting for Syafiqah to come online.I want to talk.I want to shout.I want to do a lot of things, actually.I was doing some freestyle just now.It was pure bliss.I love doing the 'Impacto' step by Daddy Yankee.Haha.See, I'm so laug-able right now.

By the way, thank you Himanshu for sending me that song.

"I wish you could see yourself the way I see you..."

I'm loving it.And my life.And whole lot of other things.HAHAHAHAHA!!

People ask so many questions about my blogskin.It's just a skin.So just chill, okay.Oh my God, I'm going to watch 'Stardust' later on HBO.I love the movie.The last time I watched it, I only saw halfway through.So, today I shall watch from the very beginning.It's a beautiful story.I've finally cracked.lol.I wrote the first chapter of my new story.Let me get typing.

[ i've found my smiles and laughs again ]

Labels: iPod, Krish, Priya, smoking, Syafiqah

Saturday, 14 March 2009,20:17 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Welcome Back!

[ Time passes by ]

Hello

Just changed my blogskin.Nice? lol.I like it.The colours describe all my feelings.I know I was quite moody yesterday when I was blogging.But now, I feel much better.I thank you God, for that.

Today was the last day of Term1.Haha.The hall had a mini blackout.lol.Cuz of the fans; short circuit.MT was okay.We didn't have debate cuz U.S. wasn't around.But Mrs T talked philosophy which was interesting to listen to.Then went for Science.Surya is so funny.Just cuz he wanted a point for the mind mapping thingy, he said he'll be my best friend.lol.Funny guy.

English was uber cool too.Cuz we made suggestions on our Gamesday.lol.Maths, we didn't study.Haha.Ms N brought us to the computer lab.I had a sudden inspiration during that lesson.Like a big BOOM.BAM, BAM, BAM!! It just hit me.I've come up with a new story.Woots!~

CIT, we went to the hall.2N,3N,4N did a dance.Damn nice.I didn't know they were so talented.So cool.

I had lunch, for the first time in days.I loved it.lol.Later it was time for dance.It was super tiring.My stomach got upset.Seriously.I threw up.Hehs.NVM, though.

"I still own the dancefloor, yawl!!"

After dance, waited for the bus with Rubbini.Her friend Christopher and another guy came.They were talking.Entered Mahen into the picture.lol.Rubbini and I were stuck in the bustop and the bus with him.He's still the funny loosu I remembered from India.Believe it or not, the joking and the laughing at the bustop over stupid things actually made my day.Thanks, guys.

[ welcome back! ]

Labels: Dance, Mahen, Rubbini, Surya

Friday, 13 March 2009,21:12 | comment | 0 comment(s)

the chocolate run

Hey

I know it has been a long time.Recently, I'm sick.Whoopee! But tomorrow is one more day of school.Then it's holiday.I still can't believe that one term has already passed by.Yeah, the days have been fast.Plus, the drama has increased too.

I didn't get chosen to be councillor.The chosen ones were: Syafiqah, Venkat, Divya and Rohini.Congrats, people.The week was long.Priya and I accomplished our task on Tuesday.Woots! Haha.I'll be happier if the smile exists more often.I've got some problems with my head too.Sometimes, when people speak I just hear a whole load of gibberish.Thus, explains my low-profile attitude.

I did the "Let's Talk" session yesterday.It was kinda nerve-wrecking, but fun.I've been reading a book.It's called "the chocolate run".It's quite a nice book.Eurgh.Okay, nice is such a vanilla word.The book was nevertheless ineteresting.I'm re-reading, cuz there are parts that need clarifying to be done.

Mum was generous yesterday and ordered in Pastamania.I've been wanting eat from there.Delicious.I've no more time to write stories.Cuz I spent most of my time narrating my own tale into my journal.Actually, I tried comparing my life to the book I was reading.There's just too many types of chocolates one can encounter in a lifetime.

I'm going to need all the strength I can get, to keep myself alive.Thus, I thank all those who aren't making my life difficult.My friendship with someone is falling apart.It hasn't happened yet.It's in the process.I can feel it in my bones.That feeling, when you know you're right.There are heaps of homework to be done.God.I need to survive this turmoil.Yeah, I know I sound like I'm whining and all.

But I don't care what you think.Cuz you have know idea what it is to be me.

[ cut off from the rest of the world, i only hang on to you ]

Labels: chocolates

Thursday, 12 March 2009,17:08 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Love is...??

Hello

Let's start with the reason for this picture.I feel quite "Girl Power-ish" at the moment.I just think that there's no need for a guy in my [or in any case any girls'] life, for me to realise that, life's worth living.I'm not making a sweeping statement.Trust me, there's many girls who think that way.No offence to guys, though.I'm not against you'll.You'll should know that.Especially, Krish, Haris, Surya etc.

Ooooh.Just read Priya akka's blog.It got me thinking.I liked the old MJ better.Haha! I thought he looked kinda good looking, actually.Haiz.What modern technology does to people... Now, on with my day.

I woke up morning, to get ready for dance.Though, I had slept 9 hours, I was still sleepy.This time, I brought my sister along.lol.

Everyone said she looked damn cute.Hehs.We went to 7-11 after and then took a cab to CCK.Tomorrow is that girl's birthday.lol.I was freaking tired.I got home.And I did revision for the coming common test.Don't even ask what subject it's on.I'll burst my top.I was watching TV just now.

'My Super Ex-Girlfriend'

It was funny.Haha.Quite crazy.Still.

All of a sudden, I'm interested in photography.It's so cool how clear and accurate the details are.Thus, explains my recent addiction of photo-blogging.Hehs.I love Habibah.lol.Cuz I lost my photo editing software when my computer got rebooted.She just gave me the site to download.Ahhh!!

Labels: Girls, Love, Valentine's Day

Saturday, 7 March 2009,20:42 | comment | 0 comment(s)

The ups and downs of the roller coaster called life

[ The ups and downs of life ]

I don't know why, but I don't think I'll ever understand Mrs L.She wants to ignore me and act as if I'm handicap, FINE!! Two can play the same game.She doesn't realise how much she hurts people and what kind of impression she leaves.Most probably, she doesn't care.Well, neither do I.

The day begun with MT.Mrs T was damn funny.lol.She kept mimcking people.It was hilarious.Science, we had lab lesson.We did an experiment on crytallisation.I found a few interesting information.Anyways, didn't go for Recess run.English.Haiz.I didn't do well for my 2nd common test.I was sad.But then, we must make mistakes to learn better, right?

Surya and Matin cheered me up.They are awesome dudes! Lol.Maths was ridiculous.The new teacher was quite pissed off with our class.Especially JJ and Elson.So she made all of us stand.Crap.And she turned the fans off.Haiz.Still Elson and JJ fooled around.They are super funny, though.Gotta admit that.

CIT.One period I won't forget.Mrs L... Yeah don't want to talk about it.If there's something called justice, it will prevail.And I won't be facing such nonsense again.But dance revived me.I totally forgot all about my problems and focused on my dancing.I'm loving it.I kind of understand it, now.No matter how many downs there are, the ups bring me more happiness.

My mum had to leave for work before I got back home.I miss her.I miss 3 other people.Crap.Crap.Crap.I'm chatting with Syafiqah and Divya.Whilst, msging Priya.She's very worried about you.I am too.Don't you realise it? Haizz.We can't help you if you don't want to be helped.

[ you're much better than this, and you know that very well ]

Labels: Divya, Priya, Syafiqah

Friday, 6 March 2009,20:43 | comment | 0 comment(s)

The Light At The End

[There's always light at the end of the tunnel]

Hello

School is becoming more and more tiring.Not that I hate it or anything.It's better like this, I guess.The more busy I am, the less I think about unwanted people.Haiz.

Today is Surya's birthday.I gave him his present; a packet of 'Merci' chocolates.History was fun as usual.I told the class what the word Propaganda meant, without even knowing it properly, myself.lol.MT was quite emo-ish.The class was quiet.And Mrs T was talking about parents.I couldn't even tell her it was Surya's birthday.The many times I tried, she intervened and said something.

Recess was alright.I ate mutton soup.Ahhh! It's been a while.Science lab was okay.We did demo of filtaration and chromatography.Geography was awkwardly weird.There's something wrong with Mrs L.She made such a fuss when I said that I had to take the test early, cuz I needed to leave early.I'm msging Priya now.

On Monday, we'll know if we're in Student Council or not.I'm a little nervous.No matter what, I think I've done my best already.Back to reality, life is still as hectic as ever.Dance practices are much more longer and tiring.Yet I'm still urged to continue.Nothing but the best for the best.What crap am I blabbering?!

Anyways, the weekend is near.Gosh! I'm really looking forward to it.Tomorrow, there's dance.There's so much of homework to complete by tomorrow.Haiz.I shall be gone now.Gotta start doing that long list.

[ you're not yourself no more, turn back, please ]

Labels: Birthdays, Council, Dance, Surya

Thursday, 5 March 2009,15:20 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Breathe Slow

This post is going to be about only today.I woke up to find my mum already home.She had bought my sister and me, croissant.Yummy!! I love her lots.While we were eating, we received some bad news.It's kinda sad.I really don't know what to say.

While my parents went out, my sister and I studied.Yes, studied.Can you believe it? On a Sunday.That's so not us.lol.But it was alright.Cuz I did revision for Science Common Test.Which is tomorrow.I'm a little excited abouyt it.Cuz I trust I can do well enough for it.lol.I was talking to Priya all day.She gave me good advice.Some things are better left unknown; my view.Let it all out; hers.The matter we were talking about, her advice was best.But I just can't do it.Haiz.

Syafiqah's online.I'm addicted to two songs right now.Ahhh.lol.I'm chatting with Syafiqah and Haris now.About the picture I've put in the beginning of the post.I like the way of photography lots.Plus, if I post something about love, it seems to keep SOME people happy.Haiz.

[Breathe Slow]

Labels: Chatting, Haris, Science, Syafiqah

Sunday, 1 March 2009,20:58 | comment | 0 comment(s)

A Wedding To Remember

Hello

How's everyone?

Sorry for the lack of posts.I'm plain lazy and too tired each day.Hehs.This post is for yesterday.

Morning, went to school for dance practice.It was damn rigorous and I had to show a couple of steps to the others.And those steps were just pure torture.Meaning, it inflicts pain into your muscles.Then, took a cab to CCK, for tution.The girl was nicer.Her dog, Maya, has given birth to 4 puppies.So cute!! Maya gave me my first kiss.Serious.Right smack on my lips.lol.

While going back home in the bus, msged Syafiqah.She said she was just going to library.So I thought why not and went to meet her there.I saw Harshvini, my cousin there with her friends.lol.Syafiqah and Rashidha met their History group.I shifted myself to Harshvini cuz I could feel that I was clearly not wanted by Syafiqah's other members.Don't ask me why.

After a while, Syafiqah's group decided to walk to IMM.Since my house was on the way, I walked with them.Once I got home, took a long hot bath.God, that was refreshing.My aunt had come to teach my sister.I just sat around till my mum woke up.I told her all that happened.Haizz.Then slept a while.The minute I got up, started to get ready for the wedding I had to attend.Honestly, I didn't want to.

After getting ready, watched "Taal" for a while.Though it's a old movie, the songs are quite nice.Dad's family came in a van to fetch us.They were very nice.Especially RajKumar Annae.He was damn funny.lol.He gave me wine to taste.My sister and I had a blast laughing to ourselves.

By the way, all the waiters there were Punjabi.And they were Ahhh!!

Labels: Dance, Harshvini, Syafiqah, Wedding

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