i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

I mean it;

take time to realise

Day was hectic with all the performances.I don't want to talk about it.Haiz.

Went out to SEVENEleven with gang.Then, decided to go to the library with Divya, Maii, Venkat, Shafiq, Matin and Amir.The trip in the bus was damn fun.lol.After chasing Venkat so many times, I've gotten better at running.Hehs.Last minute, Maii had to go home.So sent her off and then proceeded to the library.Bustled up to the 4th floor, as Venkat sweared about how all the good looking girls are older than him.Haha.We didn't do much.We just scribbled our names on the table and asked each other weird questions.Matin and Amir left soon after.

Of cuz, we got hungry soon enough.Ate at the cafe.We crapped a lot.Sent Divya home.Walked with Venkat and Shafiq back to the interchange.

I realised something.Well only, two hours after I did it and when I was already home.I'm glad I have the "Never regret whatever I do" attitude.It's awesome, when put in weird perspectives.lol.I called Mum and talked to her.Both Biri and Mum made me feel better.Thanks.Everything feels better now.Like the sea, after an uproar.

if th world ended tomorrow;

i'm glad i said it today;

Labels: I mean it

Friday, 30 October 2009,21:36 | comment | 0 comment(s)

The truth is...

We hide cuz we wanna be found

We walk away to see who will follow us

And we let our hearts get broken

Just to see who cares enough

To fix them.

Thursday, 29 October 2009,22:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

I find reasons everyday; To why you're th best

Boo Ya!

First time, I'm damn tired but also really really hyper.Hehs.

Met Shafiq and Venkat, along with Maii in the morning at the interchange.Then, walked to school as Venkat ran for council meeting.Had to present something for EE.But slacked, and since many people didn't want to hear, I didn't waste my breath.Then, for the next two hours plus played station games organized by the council.Quite fun; Applauds for their effort.Missed dance practice cuz got held back to copy things for NYAA.Haiz.

Had lunch with the gang.Divya was missing cuz she had a real long debrief.Venkat ran away for his drama rehearsal.Maii and I hung out behind the hall.After a while, Divya came and we just talked.I loved the breeze and the satisfaction I got.Hehs.

Spotted Mahen, started talking to him.It's been a long time.Okay, maybe not that long.Still.Then Mahen, Shafiq, Maii, Matin and I plan to play prank on Venkat.Unfortunately, our plan was foiled.lol.Nevermind.Waited for Venkat with the whole lot of them.We watched the drama.It was kinda cool.Hehs.Finally, when everything ended, Venkat came.I don't want to say what he was wearing.Or the lack thereof.

HAHA...!!

Apologies.I couldn't help it.Only Shafiq, Maii, Matin and I know about this.lol.We walked really fast to the bustop cuz it was damn late.While in the bus already, the sky was dark.Scary.Shafiq was freaking out and like we all had to calm him down.lol.But everything's fine, aite? No one's in trouble.Woots!

Tomorrow's the last day of school.So many things on.

Report book.EmCee-ing.Dancing.

And going SEVENEleven with the gang after school for the last time, till next year.

So disconcertingly, nostalgic.Aiyo.Right now, too tired to even freaking keep my eyes open.I'd fall asleep on the keyboard.But.I won't.New song addiction.Explains everthing I feel for you.

BrokenHearted-Beyonce:

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could have been

But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?

You're the only one

I wish I could forget

The only one I love to not forgive

And though you break my heart, you're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you

'Cause I can't erase

The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face

And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say

I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no I don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say

But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around

And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me

But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me

And still, you're in my heart

But you're the only one

And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain

'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away

Oh, but now I don't hate youI'm happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, oohI'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my babyI don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without my baby

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girlNo, no, no broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl

No broken-hearted girl

Read the lines carefully.Damn nice :)

There are times when I hate you;

But I know I can't replace you;

Labels: Broken Hearted, Dance, Divya, Jacob Black, Love, Maisarah, Shafiq, Venkat

21:30 | comment | 0 comment(s)

School-aholic;

{ Jacob Black; }

Today took such a long time to wake up.I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am and meet Mum at JE.But I only woke at 9am.Aiyo.Still reached there, not too late.The family and I breakfast-ed together.Then, Grandma and Mum shopped at the market while I walked around, moaning cuz I was so sleepy.When reached home, wanted to sleep.However people started msging me, so I just sat in the hall, replying all of them.Hehs.

Tomorrow, is promotion day.Supposedly, no school.But I got to go for dance practise.And Maii has asked me to help with the end of the year concert.So am going to school the normal time, with Divya and Karthika.lol.So long day ahead.I don't mind, though.Two months of holidays.I'll grab all the school I can get.

One more week of school.And then, we'll be promoted to Sec3.Wow wow.We're growing up so fast.Ahh.Haha.But I don't mind that either.We're growing up together, right? lol.

And every minute I spend with you is like, Wow ;

Labels: Growing up

Sunday, 25 October 2009,21:25 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Worth it;

Take a moment to look around;

Marched to school this morning.I was real tired and almost fell asleep during assembly.Hehs.It was the Health Carnival.Mariyah walked around with the board, while I begged people to come around our class booth.After my shift was done, walked around the carnival with Divya.She bought that chocolate fondu thingy, and I got myself cup corn.Mmm.Divya and I dedicated a song for Mariyah and Rosma.Our second dedication went out to the SEVENEleven Gang.Haha.Then, just sat at the canteen talking.

Venkat and Shafiq came and made us go up to the hall for the hip hop dancing session.We all only did halfway through.After that, ciao.Haha.Venkat and Shafiq participated in the healthy cooking competition.Their sandwhich was gigantic.I still doubt it can fit into anyone's mouth.lol.Took the bus home with Venkat, Shafiq and Nila.I whacked Venkat a lot.Not fair.He's so damn thick skin.

And damn, you make everything so worth it;

Labels: Chocolate, Divya, Rosma, Shafiq, Venkat, Worth it

Saturday, 24 October 2009,20:53 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Whenever I See You;

Today was...Surreal.

In the morning took the bus with Maisarah.As usual, we act like we don't know each other.When we boarded 143, she forced me to sit on the upper deck.lol.Venkat came up shortly after.And then, Shafiq got in the bus at the next stop.Freaky cool aite? Haha.Spent the first few hours of school preparing for the Health Carnival, tomorrow.Actually, I didn't do much work.Just crapped with Ifah, Venkat and Shafiq more.

I was quite pissed off, from 1200-1300hrs.However, became super hyper soon after.Whole way through lunch, threw ice cubes at Venkat and Srivatsa.Hehe.Dance was much more energy draining than usual.Cuz I was already quite tired.After dance, Shafiq, Divya and I were waiting for Venkat.Seriously, must get him a watch.Punctuality has fall through a black hole in his dictionary.After that, walked to 7/11.My mood took a turn for the worst in the bus.Venkat and Shafiq tried to cheer me up; Thanks.But I was quite adamant.Apologies.

Now I'm home and super tired.Waiting for someone, now.

Whenever I see you

There comes th noisy silence

And all noise is silenced

Labels: Whenever I see you

Friday, 23 October 2009,20:36 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Expect The Unexpected;

HeyHey everyone!

Today didn't go to school.Hehs.Cuz I went outing till late that it was very hard to wake up this morning.But anyways, did what I always do.I got ready and went to school; reached there around 13:15.I wanted to wait outside the class and surprise friends.Too bad, didn't happen.Cuz bumped into Srivatsa.He went on to rattle about my marks.Then, spotted Venkat and Shafiq.Talk talk, and went to see 2/1 wrapping things for the Health Carnival.I helped.Only a bit, though.Hehs.

Talked to Mrs Loh and she told me I needn't stay back.So, went to 7/11 with Venkat and Shafiq.Mum asked if they want to come over.So it was decided, quite abruptly, that they'd come over to my place.Met Divya at the bustop while waiting for Maisarah and Nila.Mai and Nila were coming too.

It was quite fun when they came over.We sat to watch a movie.But the interest didn't linger long.We chatted lots.About many things.After that, Mum made me bring my albums to let them see -.-

We crapped quite a lot.An unexpected event that happened today.Haha.

Oh and I'm an extremely happy person right now.The first reason is my results.It's awesome.Plain awesome.I'm proud of myself.lol.So hoping and keeping faith that I'd get into the class I want.Secondly, my Jacob Black.His existence itself is a reason enough.lol.Thirdly, my family and friends.It's like all the pieces in the puzzle are finally joining right.Grateful to God.Thank you, God.

And without you;

There's no one left there;

Labels: Expectations

Thursday, 22 October 2009,19:55 | comment | 0 comment(s)

(500) Days Of Summer;

Hello

Sorry for MIA for these few days.But I was busy with preparations for Deepavali and all.lol.Deepavali was held at my house.So everyone gathered at my place and it was just awesome! Hehs.The joy you get when so many of your loved ones are gathered at one place, around you, is just priceless.I loved Sathurday.Heh.Spent my Sunday just sitting around cuz was very groggy from all that energy consumption the previous day.

Today, went for dance practice at 9am.Then rushed back home and got ready.Met Divya at the interchange and took the bus to VivoCity.It was damn long.But we entertained ourselves with stories and crap, as usual.Haha.We planned on watching a movie.So we watched:

(500) Days Of Summer

It's quite an eccentric movie.Honestly, you can see the director's individuality through the direction of the scenes.It was awesome and has made it to one of my favourites.After the movie, we walked around, searching for Burger King.Had our lunch there.Then, I stuffed myself with Chocolate Chip Frappucino from Starbucks.Haha.I couldn't help it.It's so delicious.Hehs.We wandered around before heading back home.The ride back home was slightly quieter.Then, met Mum and Sister at IMM.Mum was getting a haircut.After nonsens-ing with the family a while, went for dinner.It has been a long day and I'm dead tired.

However, even though the day's near its end; Three things are always on my mind:

My Jacob Black.Results.(500) Days Of Summer.

A person.An event.A movie.

How nice, eh? lol.I'm so weird.But yeah.These are the things on my mind.Tomorrow's the release of our results.I'm expectant.Quite nervous too.Yet I really want to face this.Woots.Am nuts, please excuse me.

Bro's blog song is quite addictive.Even though, I don't understand a single word -.-

I miss Jacob Black, Bro and Charmaine :(

Labels: Charmaine, Days of summer, Divya, Himanshu, Jacob Black

Tuesday, 20 October 2009,22:37 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Thks fr th mmrs

Exams are officially over!

Haha, woots.Went outing with the gang to mark the end of these exams.We went to IMM and ate at Bagus.After that just roamed around and crapped.I'm glad exams are over and now I shall impatiently await the release of the results.lol.

After outing, went to fetch Sister with mum.And talked to mum about the recent happenings at school.We spent about 2hrs at Mac, just talking.It was really nice.A good change.Then it started raining and I walked through the coffee shop with my umbrella still over my head.That's when I laid eyes on him.

Oh God.Damn.Ahhh.Torture.Just, pure torture.lol.Mum said it was electrifying.And I couldn't stop smiling after that.Still can't.Haha.He's so hot.Okay, shall shut up now.

I've been learning a lot.Hehs.I can't wait for next year, actually.

Thks fr th mmrs;

Labels: Thks fr th mmrs

Wednesday, 14 October 2009,16:46 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Thinking Of You

HeyHey!

Today woke up damn early to send sister to school, cuz she had some enrichment class.Then, went to Science Centre Mac to meet th gang.I was real early.Slowly, everyone arrived.All had breakfast and walked over to the library.Divya and I did Science while the rest pondered over Maths.My mood went out in the middle so I walked all around the library, aimlessly.But chocolate cheered me up.Hehs.

Some time later, started drilling Shafiq on Science.Fuu! He so smart.HAHA! Okay, sorry.Oh and there were three malay guys.Darn annoying.They kept talking and laughing at us.I was so pissed.But we got back at them.That part was hilarious.lol.Next everyone was hungry so went down to the little cafe to lunch.We played 'What if' and talked a lot of crap.Though Divya and I had to leave slightly earlier cuz we had to be back home.The rest of them went to get horny on 'Naughty G' drink.Horny Horny! Haha.

Just went to Bro's blog.He changed his blog song.Now, it's 'Missin You-Trey Songz'.Haiz.That's my ringtone.I wish there was a girl version of that song.Memories flood back and the feeling is numb-ing me.Mugging very hard for Maths and Science.Tomorrow, I'll have to be up early cuz I have to complete my DNT work too.And mug too.Don't forget the mugging part.Hehs.Ahhh.Exams attack.lol.

And I'm praying to God real hard.Please.The times I don't talk to you, I feel like I'm lost.I don't know why.But it's like that.We don't always agree on everything but I know you're by my side no matter what.

p.s. i never thought i'd fall for you as hard as i did;

and you just called as i was thinking about you;

Labels: Thinking of you

Saturday, 10 October 2009,20:59 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Cinderella Story;

Hellooo...!!

This whole week has been truly, how shall I say? Fulfilling? lol.Anyways just got back home from school.

An update on this week:

On Monday, us SEVENEleven Gang got soaked in the rain.But it was fun.Cuz we were with each other.Crapped a lot, like always.On Tuesday, things went weird.But by yesterday, all came back to normal.

Today begun with me being early at school.I did some Maths and waited for people to arrive so that I can disturb people.Hehs.During MT, Mrs T left us at the library.All of us were mugging for Maths.Haha.We had two hours of Science and then ran off to lunch.I did the DNT project from 1400-1500hrs.Thanks to Surya and Srivatsa, it looks quite nice.Hehs!

Then Divya, Kausalya and I went to meet Ms Hao for consultation.Divya and Kausalya wanted to do for Maths, while I wanted Science.We did Maths, anyways.Half way through, though, Shafiq called saying they were all waiting for us at the main gate.lol.So we cut consultation short, made an appointment for tomorrow and rushed to meet them.

They have started calling me the gang leader of SEVENEleven -.-

Walked and talked, mostly with Maisarah and Divya.When we finally took the bus, well one of us got left behind.Aiyo.I kept scolding Shafiq; What a best friend.The rest of the story is confidential.

But I know everything's gonna be fine :)

Oh and I dreamt of 99.Ahhh! So hot.Haha.And was gushing over 99 during recess, till Divya called me a nut.Thank you very much.But I don't mind.I'm too high to bother.Hehs.

At the moment, everything seems like a scene from the Cinderella book.Things are unfair and slightly chaotic.At least that's how it seems in my version.But like that nice classic fairytale,

Everyone will live happily ever after.

So relax, everyone.Enjoy life.Live it.And get over all your irrational thoughts.Okays? I'm obsessed with Alex Pettyfer (sp?), Jacob Black and Dimitri.I realise they're either a star or a fictional character.But wth.I don't care.They help cope with reality.And that's awesome!

And everything's alright;

Cuz you're by my side;

Labels: You're by my side

Thursday, 8 October 2009,17:56 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Untitled

Helloooo ;)

I'm feeling so much better, compared to yesterday.

Anyways, throughout the day was msging Biri and Divya.It was quite fun.And I forced Divya to turn the television on to watch some (drool worthy, mind you), six packs.Haha.I've also finally, completed my notes for Science.And talked lots with mum.Oh, and Mr Mahen has got me addicted to Vaarayo Vaarayo from Aadhavan.Hehs.

Chatting with Karthika and msging Divya.Ahhh.I need to go sleep soon.Tomorrow is going to be a very long day.Lots of doubts to clear with teachers and all.Woots.

All th best to everyone for th finals ;)

Jacob Black;

Thanks a million;

Sunday, 4 October 2009,21:22 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Dear God;

Woohoo!

My sincerest greetings to everyone.

The heart's heavy right now, but I'm praying.And I'm glad I've got someone to talk to.Mahen can be, at times, clueless about lots of things in life.But one topic, he's a pro at.lol.And really, I'm grateful to that ding dong bell.Times have changed greatly.Haha.I'm being ironic, here.

However much this sucks.I'm glad that I have my family and friends, helping me through.It makes my thank God, continuously.And I do.

Thank you God, for everything I have.Everything you have given me.And granting my heart's desires.No matter what I ask or how much I ask, you have always given me them.And I'm grateful beyond words can say.And yeah, tonight I'd be praying for everyone.Every single one of you.I promise.

I'm sorta in a daze right now.Mum is constantly encouraging me.And I love her for that.I am a very lucky person.I know it.I've been given life's best.Everything.And thank everyone for that.

If everything my heart desires happens

I'm sure there wouldn't be any other who would be happier

I'd list all th things I'd do for you

But it would take all eternity to finish

So in short, anything and everything

Seconds minutes hours days weeks and months go by

But you haven't left my mind even once

I've never felt so beautiful

Other than th times I spend with you

So if everything my heart desires happens

I'm sure there wouldn't be any other who would be happier

Cuz I know for a fact

What exactly is happening right now

I can't wait for Monday.So many doubts to clear with the teachers.One whole week to do all that.Then it will be full exams.Three more papers to finish.English.Maths.Science.Actually, I can't wait.I know I'm nuts.But what to do? Haha.Anyways, another thing to ask for.Not from God.But everyone else.

I might have hurt you (intentionally/unintentionally).And for that, I'm sorry.It might be horrendous or minor, but please forgive me tonight.Give me a chance to start anew.I promise to appreciate better, love better and be better.I'm sorry.And I ask your forgiveness, tonight.

Labels: Dear God

Saturday, 3 October 2009,21:05 | comment | 0 comment(s)

p.s. i love you

I've stopped trying to define life, anymore.

It's so funny at times, I have no idea what words to use anymore.One moment, everything can be horribly wrong.And the next, I'd be the happiest in the world.If that's not weird, I don't know what is.

Anyways, today had my EOY MT papers.It was quite enjoyable, actually.I can't wait for the results, already.Went outing with Divya, Venkat, Shafiq, Nila, Maisarah and Amir.Quite fun.They're a bunch of damn hyper people.We ate at Bagus.Divya and I didn't even eat properly.Then, walked around and chatted.I think we were real noisy and all.lol.Venkat had better sent my girlf safely back home.Hehs.

After returning home, took a nap.Just woke up.

Needed to talk to someone; Just did.It's nice to have someone tell you things about yourself.Ones you weren't that aware of.Life's a bomb ;)

Labels: Divya, Exams, Love, MT, Outing, Shafiq, Venkat

Friday, 2 October 2009,20:58 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Can't Stop Missing You;

Hello...

I'm not in the greatest moods, but what to do? I'll get over it, I guess.Soon enough.

The day started off with Maths, we revised on our own mostly.MT; I had my oral.I was a nervous wreck, but it's done.And I'm just glad that I got it over with.We had two hours of Science since the Chinese pupils went off to take their exam.It was kinda fun.Divya and I were/are in a dangerously bad mood.

Sometimes, things happen and it's very difficult to accept.Cuz they're so abrupt and weird.

Plus, they hurt.

However changes are inevitable.And we're going to deal with them, no matter.I wanted to confide with Bro, but cuz of damn time difference, can't find him online.I miss Bro; Quite long since I spoke to him.Tomorrow's HMT exam.I'm going to be preparing tonight.Three hours, I think.

I miss my friend.

I hope everything's fine, between us.

Labels: Divya, Friends, Himanshu, Hurt, Love

Thursday, 1 October 2009,16:28 | comment | 0 comment(s)