i'm not afraid; i'm moving on

What's on my mind:

" Everybody wants to go to heaven
But nobody wants to die "

i still love you

I've never replaced anyone in my
life.
Except for a few exceptions,
everyone keeps replacing me in their lives.
Whether it is for a while, or
forever.
Thing is, I love you guys for a
reason.
And since that day, I've never
turned back.
I still love you.

Labels: Everyone, Family, Friends, Love

Wednesday, 31 March 2010,22:20 | comment | 0 comment(s)

tonight i've fallen

It's been a while since I blogged about my life.
Hmmm, nothing has changed.
It's still as complicated, odd, ridiculous, mind-boggling as it has always been.
I'm not going to ramble my pain or whatever is wrong with my life.
Cuz does it really matter?
I'm occupying myself with being happy.
I'm happy helping others, and happy with being with others.
We all change; Change is inevitable.
I just hope that all my friendships would make through The Change.
Even though, some are losing the race.
I can't go back and change the things I've done.
Cuz honestly, I don't regret a single thing I've done.
But sometimes, I think I have portrayed myself so much in one way, no one can see me any other way.
I'm human too.
I can break.
Whatever; Does it really matter?
salus invenitur.

Sunday, 28 March 2010,21:36 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Time; For a friend

There's this big hole inside
That I think even time won't fix
A gaping, painful hole
That hurts whenever she walks by
But deep deep down
I know I've done my best
Made her smile, made her feel beautiful
I gave her my time, attention and my appreciation
I loved her and maybe, I still do
But things changed
And the next day
She belonged to someone else
My heart broke
And I couldn't think of anything else
Though I know
In the end it was her choice
She made the choice
She made the obviously, wrong choice
This is for a friend.A friend who I saw, never put in more effort in anything else.A friend who never wanted anything more than, her.Though now it seems like all's lost.I just would like to say that, things could have been different.She could have been his, but no, she's not.It's not meant to be that way.He would have taken care of her, better.He deserves better.
We're here; We'll be by your side.

Saturday, 27 March 2010,23:51 | comment | 0 comment(s)

i miss you

[ Can you like hurry up and come back already?! ]

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone the words I need to hear

To always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

Labels: Divya

Wednesday, 17 March 2010,21:09 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Hold my hand

[ Hold on, We ain't gonna let you go :) ]

Sometimes, some things are too hard to swallow

But you can't sit there, pissed, cry and wallow

You're strong girl

You'll pick yourself right back up

And if you have any trouble

Baby there's so many hands reaching out

Life can get pretty messy

Wrong decisions, broken hearts making you feel so ugly

But keep one thing

In mind it's your life

Your rights

Your say that makes your day

Stay happy

And true love will come your way

Smile babe

We're all here

We all love you

Cheer up, sayang

Labels: Hazwani

Tuesday, 16 March 2010,17:47 | comment | 0 comment(s)

types of love

I've been msging Biri and Rosma for the past two days.

It's amazing that they haven't got tired of my rantings.

Their patience is much appreciated.

I want school to start.

I miss Divya.

Nuff said.

Labels: Biri, Divya, Love, Rosma

Sunday, 14 March 2010,21:07 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Update

Divya's leaving Thursday night.
Damn.
Today was one of those, nothing much happened, days.Mid way through school, was slightly pissed off.No, I wasn't angry.I'm not that sensitive.I was just contemplating.lol.
After school, went to the library with Divya and Sya.We ate and talked crap.Finally finished my chapter one, and I think Divya is happy with the results.lol.Of cuz, she is.
Arya McKnight, Divya's one and only.Hehs.
I'll blog properly tomorrow or something.
I'll miss my baby.

Wednesday, 10 March 2010,21:31 | comment | 0 comment(s)

salus invenitur

Helloooooooo!

I'm crazily super hyper right now.It's quite the first in this week.I'm unaware of the source that made me this happy, but I don't mind.lol.I barely slept the whole night.Still, woke early- as if I even slept- to send Sister to tuition.I sat there for 1.5hours doing my homework and working on my story.It was a blissful feeling.

I'm eating an egg sandwhich with melted barbercue cheese.Mmmm.

I shall agree we all sometimes lack the something in our lives.But really, we shan't care about it.I won't.I'll stop asking for things I can't get.

And I agree with Syafiqah's post.Life doesn't suck.It may seem like it.I felt the same way too.But at the end of the day, no matter what, I love my life and I don't think there is a much gifted soul out there.

Mind you, I'm not bragging.I'm appreciating.

salus invenitur

salus invenitur

Sunday, 7 March 2010,18:09 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Once Again

Thank God, it's Friday!
Don't get me wrong.I love school.But the weariness you feel is worth many many weekends.Today was a little bit of a slack day.PE in the morning was a bit of torture but venting my anger out by running was cool.MT was fun, as usual.We were all completely cracked by the time school was over.
CCA was okays.But Lavania and I had to go for a safety briefing with all the other CCA leaders.Met Srivatsa and we crapped at the back of the room :)
The best part of the day, was after CCA.
When I made up with Divya and saw a sight to behold.
Now I'm smiles and all.
Anyways, back to reality.

It wouldn't suffice to say that I'm
upset.It's way beyond that.But it wouldn't matter either way.Cuz you've shown
very much, yes, that you don't give a damn.We'll never confront each other, it'll
just cause a scene.You'll rock.And I suck.I appreciate your ways of thank you,
for all I've done.You've just proved once again, how easy it is to step all over
me.

I'll go listen to music now :)

Friday, 5 March 2010,21:05 | comment | 0 comment(s)

Ups && Downs

I'm tired.
I was hyper till right after recess.It was no one's fault.Just me.I overthink everything.Anyways, it was the first time that I attempted the given question for Combined Humans.And today was the first time Ms C said my name, thrice.Haha.

We're just testing the force field that brings us
together.I can never hate you.
You're my soulmate.

Anyways, right now drowning self in music.In love with new songs.

It's nothing.

I just got my ego a little bruised.

Tuesday, 2 March 2010,20:59 | comment | 0 comment(s)