>< Teen In The Hood ><

Together;

2010-06-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

I'm missing a lot of people.

Not only those I met from OBS camp, but also those in Singapore.These are the times I wish school would just hurry up and start.

The next two week, I'm going to be in a hurry.Homework, project outings etc.

I have to try my best and squeeze in outings with friends too.

I realise these five days have opened my eyes, to my own potential.Not only as a leader, but as a person too.

I'm loving every second of my life, and I plan on keeping it that way.

I miss you;

Butthole;

2010-06-11T21:31:00.006+08:00

I just got back from OBS camp.

And God, I miss camp.

I was in Cheng Ho.Whenever time calls, we joined forces with Battuta.And formed, Butthole.

I love the 32 members I got to know.

And I especially loved going crazy with Najlah, Izzati, Collette, Al, Aris, Syafiq and gang.

I miss:

The private jokes Najlah and I shared; More like coughs :)

The holding hand and sexy dancing with Izzati :)

The sensible talking and just keeping company with Collette :)

The chasing and attempting to pull the pants off of Al :)

The joking and playing with Aris :)

Being Syafiq's 'girlfriend'; LOL :)

I really miss all of them.Though, I thank God for having met them.But it's just so damn sad.We're having meet ups and are already texting each other like crazy.So, I think, we guys will stick together.

I love you, Butthole !

Colourful

2010-06-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

Today I discovered a few thing.

Here they are:

Maii can freaking dance! :D
The dudes in my level (Sec3 '10) can also dance
The cast for My Mother's Chest is awesome
Everyone can ACT.Like really really act
I found some unusual people good-looking; Okay I know Divya&&Karthika knows, so shhhhh

I'm so hyper now.HAHA.

But I miss my mum;

My Wonderwall

2010-06-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

The performance is nearing.

So is the day I leave for OBS Camp.

I'm excited and nervous all at the same time.

3 more days to Camp.

I want to press fast forward.

But everyday I laugh and am happier than the day before.

Day are spent with Divya and Karthika.And yes, we crap a lot.But it's healthy right? All that laughing.LOL.

I'm so happy now.

Msg me and ask me why.I will tell :D

Can you hear?

2010-05-30T22:57:00.003+08:00

Currently, chatting with Charmaine.
It's been a long time since I spoke with her.

I've been hacking all day like an old woman.I slept a lot too.

Days have been passing.Hours are so surreal.

There is dance practice tomorrow.I don't mind.

Even though, Mum says I shouldn't go; Not cuz she doesn't want me to.But cuz she says if I went I might spread it to everyone else.

I haven't started on any of my homework.Maths is the only one that looks appealing.Maths is loooooved :) Right, mrye? LOL

Divya promised to text me.She hasn't yet.Aww, man.

I feel random.I'm drinking Ribena.High in Vitamin C.

Forgotten;

2010-05-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

[ I want/need a hug; ]

I'm confused when I see someone make new friends, yet leave me as if they never knew me.It is weird.Jealousy?

Perhaps.Who knows?

I'm scared when I don't talk to you for a long period of time.Cuz you're so far and I'm not there with you.

I'm angry cuz we have fallen out, making our friendship fake and plastic.Plastic.Yuck.

I'm moving on though, cuz there will always be my family who loves me.And till then, I'll not give up.

There is tears in my eyes.But I'm not crying.I'm tearing.
Flu and a bad sore throat.
I feel like there's a knife stuck to my throat.It's painful as hell.And sleeping is a nightmare.

I miss you people.Those who I've not spoken to for a long time.

You might think I'm insecure.It's okay.It's okay.

I'm not afraid anymore.
I just don't want to be forgotten.

Lucky

2010-05-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I forget how lucky I am

And then God shows me

And I believe once again;

I love you,

Mum

Divya

mrye

Rohini

&&God

Smileeee;

2010-05-24T19:19:00.004+08:00

[ When life gives you lemons, make lemonade

But when life gives you smiley cereal, just eat them;

They're gooooood ]

Today has been a roller coaster.My moods, that is.

But the day was good overall.

I managed to be alert and attentive in class, even though I only had about 3 hours of sleep.I'm such a survivor.Haha.

PESA auditions was kinda cool.And I thought Jesereen was AWESOME!
Yes, you were.And as much as I'd hate to agree with Surya, I'm envious of you.Ahhhh.lol.

On a more philosophical note, life is slightly disheartening at times.

But then, small things make you happy and give you the strength to keep living.

And I like that very much, honestly.

It's like a small surprise everytime it happens.

Thank you mrye for your hug.

Thank you Divya for your reassurances.

Thank you Rohini for your words.

You guys don't know how much they meant to me;

Black Roses;

2010-05-22T21:34:00.005+08:00

[ I want a Black Rose; ]

I feel like writing about all the things I like and am grateful about life.

(Apart from my family&&friends)

I love the purplish red sky, with a yellow hue as the Sun comes up
I love sleeping when the night is drowning is heavy rain
I love getting wet in the rain
I love drawing on fogged up glasses
I love jumping a few steps above the ground, when I'm on the staircase
I love counting what little stars there are on they sky at night
I love my BlackBerry :P
I love walking slowly to school
I love the smell of old books at the library
I love Starbucks
I love sitting at Starbucks and feeling like a career woman
I love going to the funfair
I love watching babies giggle
I love going to school and acting like it's cool
I love eating honey glazed doughnuts
I love laughing until I forgot why I was laughing in the first place
I love asking random question
I love dancing crazy
I love making people laugh
I love getting hyper for no reason whatsoever
I love black roses
I love msn
I love music
I love someone playing the piano for me
I love the smell of the grass after it rains
I love playing on the see-saw
I love burping and irritating people
I love to sleep
I love learning
I love thinking about good memories
I love ice cream
I love being quiet sometimes
I love colours
I love singing
I love watching movies
I love everything about my life at the end of the day
I love myself

There.That is such a nice list of what I love.I love that list too, now.

I wonder if Divya will call anytime soon.

I'd like to talk to her :)

We are Angels too;

2010-05-21T19:55:00.004+08:00

[ i think we make good Angels ]

It has been a long week.And the weekend is finally here.Does that fact make things any better?

I'm not so sure.

I have a speech to compose from scratch and memorise, attend a function, get some Maths done and get some sleep.I wonder if I can squeeze it all in.I wonder.

Anyways, today I got my finalised grades/marks for Mid Terms.It isn't fantastic.But it isn't utterly disgusting.Yet.It looks very close to it, though.However, in my defense (and the entire cohort of Sec3) I'd like to say that this is our first major exam with 6/7/8/9 main subjects.We'll do better.

Under Divya's recommendation, I'm listening to The Red Jumpsuit Aparatus.

And I've fallen in love with their music & lyrics.

Especially, Your Guardian Angel & Face Down.

About the picture above; It's a damn cool tattoo, don't you agree?

It's beautiful.Like art.It is art.I envy the person who has it.Right now, craving Starbucks.Actually, I always crave for Starbucks.It's a weekend ritual.And I think I malfunction if not given weekly dose.Haha.

Syafiqah is leaving for Japan on Monday.Aww.I'll miss that horny person :)

I spoke to Bro earlier.A short conversation;

Thank you God.

Dear God;

2010-05-19T20:06:00.003+08:00

[ Tonight, I can hear the Angels crying ]

I have a secret.

No, it isn't mine to tell.

Now the owner is hanging by a thread.

I'm in pain.

And I can't even tell a soul.

My head hurts.

And my heart feels ripped.

Tonight, these tears are for you.

Please God, relief us of this torture;

Bring us the miracle;

I'm not afraid, anymore

2010-05-18T18:52:00.004+08:00

[ We love the world; When we love ourselves for who we are ]

Hello.It has been long.Since I did a proper post.

Well, here I am to fulfill my short term fantasy.

Exams are over, for the time-being.And we're all being returned our papers.

It's painful to watch sometimes, our hard work going down the drain, cuz of 0.5/1 marks.

Although, it is a good learning point.Seeing how we'll never forget the mistake we made that cost us those passing/ace-ing grades.

Anyways, my head is throbbing.Half good and half bad.

I finally enjoyed dance practice after a seriously long time.

I loved it and whatever the outcome is, I will never regret the things I did.

Haha, as usual, a lot of things are going on at school.But things don't matter as much as they used to.Maybe it is a change of perspective or change of priority.Whatever it is, they just seem so trivial and minor in contrast to what holds in each and every one of our futures.

Self-realisation is always the best solution.

Either ways, there's going to be many practices for the UCC performance.Which I think I'm going to enjoy more than I'd like to :)

I have this contented feeling, right now; Like I know what to do from now onwards.I know exactly who I am and who I am going to be.It's a very good feeling; One that makes me float above the ground.Hehs.

I'm addicted to the song, In my head by Jason Derulo.He is a good dancer and he reminds me a little of Chris Brown.

I went to watch Robin Hood with the family yesterday.It was quite good, seeing as I wasn't real interested in it at first.I spent the weekend with my cousins.And it rocked! I miss them very much and would love to get together every week.We forget worries and just laugh a lot.HAHA.

Rest In Peace

2010-05-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

Rest In Peace, Daniel Tan.
You will always be part of 1/2 '08 && 2/2 '09
You will continue to live in memories and in your courage of never giving up.

God be with us, alright.

Cuz a great soul's coming by you, tonight.

A case of Cosmic Boom

2010-05-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

Once again, I find myself sucked into my own fantasy world.

Reality isn't that bad I guess.But in comparison, it's like a very rude-awakening.

Since this evening, I've attempted studying Chemistry.At least it isn't as painful as Geography.
My thoughts are revolving around some current things that have been going on.

i don't know exactly how to react to it, yet.Cuz we're all quite caught up with revising for the exams.

It will be dumb to say that I hope everything will be alright.

Cuz it never is, and never will remain that way.As much as we, incorrigible humans, hope it might.

Recently, I'm having less fun than I'd like to admit.Recently, many moments have been feeling like deja vu.

Too many, to be a coincidence.Which makes it all the more, creepier.

Part of me, relishes these moments cuz I miss those days.But then the other part of me is angry.Angry, that my past won't let me go.And cuz it is symbolically telling me that history repeats itself.Which is not what I want to hear, right now.

Ever, even.

I'm undefined.

But it's time we redefined who we be

At this turn of a new century

Lack of enthu

2010-05-07T18:27:00.002+08:00

Today we had our A Maths and Geography paper.

I like A Maths.
But the same cannot be said for Geography.

However, today I found the Geography paper more doable.

Ironic.

Anyways, tonight and tomorrow, I've a real tight schedule.

What could I possible have on, you might ask.
Well, besides all the last minute revision I got to do, I also need to have that medical check-up.Which is scheduled for 8.30am tomorrow morn.And I have to run before that.So, that means I'd probably be turning in early tonight.

Only maybe.I surprise myself at times, with the little amount of sleep I get by with, everyday.

I'd like to talk to Bro.

Been long.

Up Above

2010-05-02T18:59:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

Okay, today and right now, I'm real hyper.And I love my life.Have I mentioned it before?

These few days have been a little weird.I know I haven't been my best self.But today, today is wonderful.Haha.There doesn't need to be an outrageous reason.

Today's a reason enough.

I feel so, crazy? Haha.Just watched the trailer to this movie called, "Letters to Juliet".I think I'd like to watch that movie.Hehs.The whole of tonight will be devoted to completing my C.Humans notes.WooHoo.

I realised something, late last night.Life is full of opportunities.Life is full of moments.Whether you treasure them or detest them is up to you.Whether you grab and make use of them is also up to you.

I love all the moments in my life.

Good or bad,

happy or sad.

Cuz they are part of my life.Part of my story.Part of me.I'm treasuring every little moment.This is for everyone who made it to being part of my life.

Thank you.

Thank you for all these memories, I'll keep forever in my heart.

Love Love Love Love Love

2010-04-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

Today I had my English exam.

Today I made a friend angry.

And today, I discovered another new me.

I love myself.Do you?

Get up and Go and Get your own

2010-04-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

" prove you exist; make a name for yourself "

Happy Birthday, Bhaiya

2010-04-25T17:52:00.006+08:00

[ Hold My Hand, Bro ]

High and Low

I'll never find

Million to One

A person like you

No doubt the Devil

Someone with a heart of Gold

Hold on forever

You're the only one there is

Friend; You're hard to come by

Brother; I know you'll never lie

Mother; I can always count on

Person; A rare diamond I found

Today is Himanshu Sharma's birthday.He's my brother.My brother from another mother.Sometimes, I wonder why he wasn't born with me.And then the others, I thank God I found him anyway.We found friendship and forged a family.I've laid on your shoulder and given you mine.We might always talk to each other.Silence prolonging more than our conversations.But we never fail to understand each other.And more than sympathise, we just listen to what the other is saying.What I'm trying to say is, you mean a lot to me.And no matter what, just remember there'll be this little sister who will always love you.Happy Birthday, brother!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, OLD MAN! LOL, HAVE AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY AND REMEMBER ME.Loves.
-Priyaa Nedunzeliyan
Your sister even if the world ends tomorrow and internet ceases to exist

Broken Glass

2010-04-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

Broken trust. Broken friendship. Broken heart.
I'll piece you back together even if it hurts me.

WooHoo

2010-04-19T20:53:00.002+08:00

I think I'm falling ill.

Oh well.Today was an okay day.Lessons breezed by.Anticipation for the MYE is growing.Though, I got hyper here and there, through the day.

I've got a new addiction.

Slipknot.

I never thought I'd say this.But they are real good.Forget good.They have me hooked.LOL.

Anyways, I enjoy being with the people I love.No matter, how much we irritate each other.Or how much we crack up each other.Without each other, days would be mundane.

So thank you, gang.Woohoo.
*Random moment of hyperness passes*

life

2010-04-17T19:09:00.003+08:00

[ i'm a fighter ]

MYE are two weeks away.Give or take, a few.
I'm supposed to be freaking out, right?
I am.Sort of.But not as much as I'd like to.Anyways, today we had the CIP thingy at school.It was weird and I was grumpy at the beginning.But after that it got better.All in all, it was a lot of fun.
I want to say some things.
I've made mistakes in life I'm not proud of.I live through moments during of which I really I wish I wasn't alive.But after all that has happened, I still thank God I'm alive today.Alive and thankful to all the expriences I've brought upon myself.
Sometimes, I'm melodramatic.I can be insecure, haughty and even irritating.However at the end of the day, I'm still me.And I love me.Who I am has brought all these friends I have.And honestly, they are a bunch of awesome friends.So to that too, I'm thankful.
What I'm trying to say is, life right now isn't all that sweet and it's a bit hard.But I know one day I'll look back and laugh at this.Right now, I'm focusing on my mid terms.Once that's over, I'll deal with everything that's going wrong.Haywire.Say whatever you want.
You've got to take the good with that bad
The smile with the sad
Love what you've got
And remember what you had
Always forgive
But never forget
Learn from mistakes
And never, ever regret.
I finally found the courage to let go

Crumble

2010-04-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

" Sadness fills me, as I watch you be happy. Cuz I feel the inevitable coming. I don't want you to crumble once again. No one does. "

dreams;

2010-04-10T20:55:00.003+08:00

I woke up, fully satisfied.I had a wonderous twelve hour sleep.A much needed one too.Anyways, got ready to go to the gym.Met Khairina and Ifah at JP.The gym was quite crowded.There were more people than the previous weeks.We got started on the track mill.

One thing's for sure, Ifah is kinda a good motivator.

After that, met Mariyah and we went to Macs to eat.I ate, at least.She accompanied me.Then we just randomly walked around.I was in search of Starbucks.

Satisfied my craving for a Chocolate Chip Cream, no Whipped Cream Frappe.

Mmmm...

We sat and watched as people miled around JP.It was quite fun.

And now I know what " mrye " means.

Muhahahahaah!~

I was so tired when I got home.But it was a good day.I lost 1.5kg, since last week.As you could have already guessed, I'm real proud of this mini achievement.Hehs.

There's A.Maths test on Monday.Surds, Indices and Logarithms.

I'm going to be super optimistic and aim to pass it ;)

Thursday was a good day.

I dreamt about someone on Thursday.And it was an amazing dream.I really like it.Love it.

Sometimes, acceptance is the only thing we all need.

I hope the quote above is true.

Everytime you wish you were dead;
Think of me and how much I'd miss you please;

fallen angels

2010-04-04T21:09:00.004+08:00

This weekend was a break I really needed. Though as usual, during the weekends are when I miss school the most.

Anyways, slacked through Friday with the family.We had lunch at IMM.Heh.

I went to the gym with Khai on Saturday.It was damn fun.We saw some, ahem ahem, good looking guys.But none good enough to make us stay for more than one hour.Sad.But it was a good workout.We're doing it again! :)

After that, walked around JurongPoint for almost an hour before Vaikesh showed up.We ate and went window shopping.I returned home and had this sudden urge to clean my room.I think I hit my head somewhere; Very hard.Anyways, only cleared my closet desk.It looks real neat, now.I had a throbbing headache, after that, for who knows how long.

I was supposed to do my work, but couldn't concentrate.Thus, gave up trying.I was msging Divya as sister and I watched SkyHigh.I don't care who says what, but Warren Peace aka Steven Strait was worth watching.lol.With nothing much to occupy myself with, I watched the tamil movie.Horror film.

I'll be honest and say that's one of the most decent and awesome horro stories, I've seen.There was good acting, a good storyline and moreover, a quite good looking villain.Hehs.I was alone, and I kept looking around everytime the ghost appeared.lol.

I know this is quite a long post.Yet, I don't know why.Just feeling a bit better.

I love the quote above.It's not about the friendship part, even.It's the crude and simple humour of it all.But yeah, there'll be a few people sitting beside me when things go wrong.I know who and I'm quite glad.

I'm kinda falling in love again.
(Sya, please, ask me if you wanna confirm.I'm not that predictable)

`And tonight i'm among those fallen angels;

Who are glad they took the chance;

i still love you

2010-03-31T22:20:00.002+08:00

I've never replaced anyone in my
life.
Except for a few exceptions,
everyone keeps replacing me in their lives.
Whether it is for a while, or
forever.
Thing is, I love you guys for a
reason.
And since that day, I've never
turned back.
I still love you.

tonight i've fallen

2010-03-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I blogged about my life.
Hmmm, nothing has changed.
It's still as complicated, odd, ridiculous, mind-boggling as it has always been.
I'm not going to ramble my pain or whatever is wrong with my life.
Cuz does it really matter?
I'm occupying myself with being happy.
I'm happy helping others, and happy with being with others.
We all change; Change is inevitable.
I just hope that all my friendships would make through The Change.
Even though, some are losing the race.
I can't go back and change the things I've done.
Cuz honestly, I don't regret a single thing I've done.
But sometimes, I think I have portrayed myself so much in one way, no one can see me any other way.
I'm human too.
I can break.
Whatever; Does it really matter?
salus invenitur.

Time; For a friend

2010-03-27T23:51:00.003+08:00

There's this big hole inside
That I think even time won't fix
A gaping, painful hole
That hurts whenever she walks by
But deep deep down
I know I've done my best
Made her smile, made her feel beautiful
I gave her my time, attention and my appreciation
I loved her and maybe, I still do
But things changed
And the next day
She belonged to someone else
My heart broke
And I couldn't think of anything else
Though I know
In the end it was her choice
She made the choice
She made the obviously, wrong choice
This is for a friend.A friend who I saw, never put in more effort in anything else.A friend who never wanted anything more than, her.Though now it seems like all's lost.I just would like to say that, things could have been different.She could have been his, but no, she's not.It's not meant to be that way.He would have taken care of her, better.He deserves better.
We're here; We'll be by your side.

i miss you

2010-03-17T21:09:00.001+08:00

[ Can you like hurry up and come back already?! ]

When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too

And when you're gone the words I need to hear

To always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

Hold my hand

2010-03-16T17:47:00.003+08:00

[ Hold on, We ain't gonna let you go :) ]

Sometimes, some things are too hard to swallow

But you can't sit there, pissed, cry and wallow

You're strong girl

You'll pick yourself right back up

And if you have any trouble

Baby there's so many hands reaching out

Life can get pretty messy

Wrong decisions, broken hearts making you feel so ugly

But keep one thing

In mind it's your life

Your rights

Your say that makes your day

Stay happy

And true love will come your way

Smile babe

We're all here

We all love you

Cheer up, sayang

types of love

2010-03-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

I've been msging Biri and Rosma for the past two days.

It's amazing that they haven't got tired of my rantings.

Their patience is much appreciated.

I want school to start.

I miss Divya.

Nuff said.

Update

2010-03-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

Divya's leaving Thursday night.
Damn.
Today was one of those, nothing much happened, days.Mid way through school, was slightly pissed off.No, I wasn't angry.I'm not that sensitive.I was just contemplating.lol.
After school, went to the library with Divya and Sya.We ate and talked crap.Finally finished my chapter one, and I think Divya is happy with the results.lol.Of cuz, she is.
Arya McKnight, Divya's one and only.Hehs.
I'll blog properly tomorrow or something.
I'll miss my baby.

salus invenitur

2010-03-07T18:09:00.002+08:00

Helloooooooo!

I'm crazily super hyper right now.It's quite the first in this week.I'm unaware of the source that made me this happy, but I don't mind.lol.I barely slept the whole night.Still, woke early- as if I even slept- to send Sister to tuition.I sat there for 1.5hours doing my homework and working on my story.It was a blissful feeling.

I'm eating an egg sandwhich with melted barbercue cheese.Mmmm.

I shall agree we all sometimes lack the something in our lives.But really, we shan't care about it.I won't.I'll stop asking for things I can't get.

And I agree with Syafiqah's post.Life doesn't suck.It may seem like it.I felt the same way too.But at the end of the day, no matter what, I love my life and I don't think there is a much gifted soul out there.

Mind you, I'm not bragging.I'm appreciating.

salus invenitur

salus invenitur

Once Again

2010-03-05T21:05:00.004+08:00

Thank God, it's Friday!
Don't get me wrong.I love school.But the weariness you feel is worth many many weekends.Today was a little bit of a slack day.PE in the morning was a bit of torture but venting my anger out by running was cool.MT was fun, as usual.We were all completely cracked by the time school was over.
CCA was okays.But Lavania and I had to go for a safety briefing with all the other CCA leaders.Met Srivatsa and we crapped at the back of the room :)
The best part of the day, was after CCA.
When I made up with Divya and saw a sight to behold.
Now I'm smiles and all.
Anyways, back to reality.

It wouldn't suffice to say that I'm
upset.It's way beyond that.But it wouldn't matter either way.Cuz you've shown
very much, yes, that you don't give a damn.We'll never confront each other, it'll
just cause a scene.You'll rock.And I suck.I appreciate your ways of thank you,
for all I've done.You've just proved once again, how easy it is to step all over
me.

I'll go listen to music now :)

Ups && Downs

2010-03-02T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm tired.
I was hyper till right after recess.It was no one's fault.Just me.I overthink everything.Anyways, it was the first time that I attempted the given question for Combined Humans.And today was the first time Ms C said my name, thrice.Haha.

We're just testing the force field that brings us
together.I can never hate you.
You're my soulmate.

Anyways, right now drowning self in music.In love with new songs.

It's nothing.

I just got my ego a little bruised.

Disappoinments

2010-02-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

" I'm fantasizing about Kiowa Gordan and CK, when really I'm just avoiding the fact that I'm hurt :) "

Truce with God

2010-02-27T13:11:00.003+08:00

I'm propelled back towards my old theory about love.
Love is Crap.
Now, why do I have a feeling that after reading this, people would be swearing up a storm? lol.It's an opinion.I'm not saying it shouldn't happen.But for now, just for now, love is crap in my life, dictionary and journal.Unless applied with family and friends.That is not crap.Heh.I'm feeling unusually optimistic right now.
Yes, we all have no idea what's going to happen the next minute, much less the next day.But that doesn't stop us from living our lives and anticipating about whatever might happen the next day.True?
So, might as well live the one life you get and live it with no regrets.That's my motto.
Live with no regrets.
I know I've made mistakes but I've learnt from them.If not, I'll learn soon enough.But I can't think about these mistakes now and wonder what would have happened if I had done something otherwise, now.Being stuck in the past is worse than anything else.So move along.
Things on my agenda for this term, which is on the way of ending, are:

CA1 Grades
Working Harder
Reflections
Being happy

I'm going to stay happy and smile no matter what.

And I'm very very random.

Decisions

2010-02-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Paranoia is eating me away.
Anyways, today's cross country was a success.lol.Of cuz, us slackers didn't run much.Yet we didn't walk all the way.Haha.But we did complete the course.So cheers to us! The girls and I went to JP to have lunch.Yes, almost half the school was roaming about there.We settled at Mac and I had my first McSpicy in two years.Hehs!
It was delicious, by the way.lol.
Okay, coming back to my paranoia.It's gnawing me away.I'm just trying my best to be hyper, hide it and just enjoy my life at the present.And thank God, it's working.Things will never go back to the way they were.Having said that, I'm working towards my ambition now.Cuz I can't fall back on anyone.It's my life, remember?

I'm going to be a lawyer:)

Just a Dream

2010-02-21T17:05:00.002+08:00

It's raining outside.
I'm crying in the inside.
We have to move on.Cuz staying like this, will just kill us.One by one.Bit by bit.
We did our best.Hell yeah, we rocked.
Too bad, it didn't please them enough.
It's okay.
We're Commonwealthians, remember?
We're warriors, we don't give up and we certainly never back down.
These few weeks had its ups and downs.But we got closer.We bonded.There were tears and lots of happy moments.Let's treasure it.Let's love this life, the only one we get to live.
We shall still walk with that same old song.
I love you all.And thank you to those who helped us get through this.

I woke up last night, forgetting we lost.

I thought it was just a dream; I let out a sigh of relief.

But no.

It wasn't a dream.

And I couldn't stop the tears that followed.

I wish it was a dream.

I miss Akka, Bro and Divya.

I need the comfort some find in me.

Dedicated to the CSS Tamil Debate Team '10 and all who followed us to this war.

Revived

2010-02-13T15:53:00.002+08:00

It's been long since I got time to go on the computer.This week was, one with mixed feelings.Good and bad, both to the ultimate extremes.Hideous and beautiful.Monday; fought with a friend.Tuesday; annoyed with the irresponsibility of some important people.Wednesday; had my month made by watching/listening to someone play something.Thursday; sister's birthday and a wonderful family outing/worst mood swing.Friday; had my pride hurt and confusion/V Day.
Sometimes it's hard to come into terms with everything that happens.When that happens I end up not eating or over eating.Eesh.
Yesterday was the best Valentine's Day I've had.Somehow when you get to upper secondary, V Day isn't all about love anymore.It's more about friendship.And I love that fact.
Thank you to everyone who made this day special.
At the beginning of the year, I promised a changed me.However, it's not working out.It's just messing me up internally, even more so.My mood swings have escalated and I hate it more than the ones having to put up with it.God.I used to be so gregarious.I still am.On and off.It is not enough.
Thus, after this long weekend, I'm coming back.I miss myself.And it's time I got my act together.My apologies to all those who had to put up with my sulky self.
Having said that, let's get back to the current situation.There's truckloads of homework, debate meetings and catching up on studies, colouring this weekend.I hope I get through all this alive.lol.I just realised something too.Sometimes, you put someone up so high, they just end up looking down on you.I've learnt my lesson.

Foolish girl;

Don't waste your energy;

Don't waste your integrity;

He don't mean anything;

-You all believe;

We Are The Champions

2010-02-07T20:57:00.002+08:00

This week was one of the most stressful ones I've ever been through.I was so under pressure that it literally reduced me to tears by Friday.However, like Sya said, it was totally worth it.You know why? Cuz on 06022010/Saturday; RI went up against Commonwealth for the National Tamil Debate and... *DrumRoll Please*
COMMONWEALTH EMERGED AS THE WINNERS!
Meaning we have qualified to the next round.Woots.Haha.Although this is only the first round, us Commonwealthians have made history.We have eliminated RI from the first round itself.God.I'm so inspired to improve in my speech and do better.We will go to the finals and get that Championship.
*We are the championsssss....!!*
So hyper now.Though this time, we have really got to plan our time very well.CNY holidays, Saturdays are all meeting days ready.This time we'll be ready.Anyways, right now got to mug on SS.Cuz tomorrow there's a test.Buh-Bye!

The Blues beat the Whites

Too Tired

2010-02-04T23:20:00.002+08:00

" You might not know it; But you make my day :) "

All The Reasons Why

2010-02-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

By the time I get home and complete my work, I have no more energy to even carry myself to bed.I'm so sleep deprived.I think the entire Sec3 cohort is.Gosh.Just the beginning of the 2nd month.Bombarded with homework, everywhere.However.
I've no complains.Cuz I got a reason to wake up every morning and 'energetically' go to school.Reasons, actually.lol.Divya and Syafiqah would know, right? Hehs.Of cuz, I've got self-respect and I do study for myself.But sometimes, you just need some pushing on tough days.So yeah :)
This entire week, we've been staying back for the debate.It's a big rush, I admit.However, it's kinda fun and I'm seeing everyone's potential, or lack thereof.It's damn cool uh.
I've realised something.Since the beginning of this year, I haven't gotten angry yet.Meaning really really angry.And that's a darn good thing.I'm hoping it will last.At least longer than it did, last year.Also, I'm super hyper these days.This one, I know exactly who to blame on.lol.Okay, more like thank for.Haha!
Valentine's Day is coming.Just like the last two years, I'm not exactly a big fan of this occasion.Especially, cuz of the weird things that happen on these days.But.But.This year, I'm going to let loose a bit and have fun with this day.lol.With my friends, of cuz.
That's about it.

Just cuz he carries something that's purple,

Doesn't mean he's gay :)

Freaks Of All Kind

2010-01-31T18:05:00.005+08:00

OhMyGod!
I miss blogging.Haha.I've missed lots of things, since I've been away at camp.Yet, I want to say that camp was real awesome.Even awesomer, is my class! Woots.Yeah, we were damn hyper and noisy all throughout camp.Even when we were all tired and returning back to Singapore, we didn't fail to extrude hyperness.lol.
Yesterday, met up with the debate team at the library to discuss about the upcoming event for all Indian Makkals.Heh.We were supposed to talk strictly only about the debate for two solid hours.I even, set an alarm for it.Unfortunately, we are teenagers.We tend to break rules/resolutions.We ended up crapping about lots of things.Vaithesh had brought his guitar along.So he taught Syafiqah and Rohini how to play 'Enn Innaiye Pon Neelaavey...'
Both of them when GAGA! lol.Me? Well, I'm not much of a guitar person.I'm ahem ahem sorta different.I, on the other hand, was busy writing the lyrics to Adiyae Kolluthey.
(And yes Syafiqah, he is my rock song)
Ahhh, damn high now.Mmmm, lol.
Then last night, my little cousins came over.While my sister played with them, I chatted with my aunt for three hours straight.We had lots of catching up to do, you see.Hehs.I'm feeling so damn crazy right now that the calamity in my house is of no help whatsoever.
I'm so freaking excited to get to school tomorrow.Even though, there's going to be a Maths Test and the whole stress of homework.lol.Cuz I love my class.You hear me?
I love my freaks of all kinds, always hyper and so damn noisy, darn supporting class!
3P Rocks!

Awhoo!!

woots

2010-01-24T20:51:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is packed with so many happenings.
Firstly, there's Common Test in the morning, then the usual hubbub of lessons.I've got to rush to Aries to get some last minute stuff.I'll have to find someone who'd be willing to accompany me.lol.After that, try to complete as much of homework I can before getting ready.And then, it is off to the Esplanade.For the Limelight Concert.

Nausea and excitement is mixed like cake batter in me.Haiz.Anyways, I just hope and believe we'll have a good time.

I haven't had the chance to talk to Bro much.Argh.

And I'm flowing with poems these days, it kills if I don't write it fast enough.God.

I passed th maths quiz without reading the notes ;)

No Regrets

2010-01-23T16:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wished I'd done things some other way, ways other than the one I did.

Just like yesterday.I wished I had listened to Divya.Or had gone back home along with Syafiqah and Rashidha.But I didn't.And I can't change what happened.It's part of my past and in me attached a very hard lesson.So I'm typing away here, with no regrets.None, whatsoever :)

Dialogue from Fanaa:

"Like thunder before the storm
Like the earth after the first rain
Like a prince in a beggar's clothes"
The girl is describing the guy's voice, smell and skin.She's blind.It was a beautiful scene.
Anyways, this weekend is just going to be me and my homework.God.So many many.lol.However, anticipation is building up for Monday's Limelight Concert.Not for reasons you might think.Only.But also, cuz I've never been to the Esplanade -.-'
I'm very very bored, today.
So anyone out there, who's sharing the same feelings, do msg/call me, k?

i'm a fighter, who makes her peace with God;

Smile For Me

2010-01-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I blogged.Lack of time mood.
Anyways, since today is E-Learning day, slept till around 10 plus.I woke and stared at the screen as I read all the things that were supposed to be completed.Instead of working on them, I went shopping with Mum at IMM.I bought a new outfit at Esprit.For a special occasion.Shhh, kan.lol.Then, went to fetch sister.We had lunch at the coffee shop.Lamb Chop's still the best.
Just completed the assignments online.Now I'm going to take a shower and start on my other homework.There's Maths, MT, English, Physics and Chemistry.It won't take me that long.But I'm guessing that I'll only be sleeping near midnight.However I don't mind :)
Complicated-Avril Lavigne
Chill out whatcha yelling' for? ;
Lay back it's all been done before;
And if you could only let it be you will see like you the way you are;
When we're drivin' in your car and you're talking to me one on one;
but you've become;
Somebody else round everyone else;
You're watching your back like you can't relax;
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me;
Tell me;
Why you have to go and make things so complicated?;
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated;
Life's like this you;
And you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into; honesty and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it;
This song, I haven't heard in a long while.But the lyrics are running through my mind like a broken record.It makes sense, and it seems to be happening right before my eyes.

Contagious-Avril Lavigne

So I walk out in silence;
That's when i start to realize;
What you bring to my life;

Damn this guy can make me smile;

Even though I miss the old Avril, this one is a personal favourite.lol.I think Divya knows why.Things have been way off balance recently, as always.But music and some people help keep me grounded.So everytime I listen to this song, I know I have at least one reason to smile.

I wish we were kids and enjoyed each other for the company

and hadn't grown up to make everything complicated;

Untitled

2010-01-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

I'm disappointed.
More with myself than in you.
I honestly believed in you.
Believed that it was you.

I'm getting what I want; I'll stay happy that way.

You got yourself a song in my iPod.

I'm sorry to disappoint,

I'm not what I used to be,

Never going to please everyone

I've learnt my lessons

Now I'll live my life

I love thy

2010-01-13T20:37:00.003+08:00

I look past all flaws and love you for all that you are.
Yet you still doubt if I'm on your side.
Your confidence in me, is insulting.

Simple Pleasures

2010-01-11T19:28:00.002+08:00

I deleted the previous post; Sorry Rosma&&Divya.Mum's orders.
Anyways, today was a relatively better day.Depending on how you look at it.Of course, I'll never fail to surprise you to all kinds of odd things.However I'd like to skip all the unfun parts and just focus on my happiness.
First period was Geography, but since Mrs A didn't show up, we had free period.Divya and Shafiq robbed me of my iPod.Crappy people.lol.History was awesome too.We did role play and I represented Serbia in WW1.Very very fun.Recess was uber, ninety-niness.Haha.
We did A Maths and I did understand.Physics was confusing but lucky we have an extra period tomorrow in which I can clear my doubts.MT was sorta like free period.But I swear, us Indian makkals, were super horny.Haha.Yes, I played a huge part in it.lol.
Me having to be at three places at once caused my short moodiness.But it flew away soon.Chemistry; we did more self study I guess.O level results are out and I'm so proud of my school.Hopefully, my batch will do just as good if not better.

Divya, Rosma, Shafiq and I lepak at the void deck near 411.lol.First time you know.We crapped mostly.However it was a nice feeling.

I'm looking at the brighter side of life, and I see it quite clearly.

Family;

Studies;

CCA;

Self-Improvement;

Those who love me;

Music;

Books;

99, for now;

sImPLe pLeAsuReS...

Being Selfish Is A Virtue Too;

2010-01-05T18:40:00.003+08:00

I'm liking this year, more and more.Odd, actually.Since most people don't like their classes and blah blah.I'm not being mean.Okay, think of me that way, I don't give a damn anyway.But can everyone just deal with it.Life is unfair, deal with it.You can't change the arrangement anymore, so change your views.I'm kinda annoyed with the constant complainings.It's getting sorta old.We're fifteen.Grow up.
I love every one of my teachers.They are not only nice.They are very very funny.I'm serious.My english teacher asks a question and answers it herself, with sarcasm.I just so enjoy the way she talks.And my math teacher is awesome too.People saying I got quite good teachers.To which I'm hugely grateful.Thank you, God :)
Divya didn't attend class at all.Argh.
But tomorrow, she's going to be with us like normal.We're about together for every class, except Geography.Since she didn't come, I'm sitting with Rosma baby for the rest of the term, I guess.Kausalya's been real nice.She got me a seashell with my name engraved from India.
Real nice; seeing as I have never given her anything.
I'll admit I'm extremely tired.And very pressured.There's so many things to do.However, I'm loving it.Not the pressure but I love the whole studying thing.
It keeps me occupied from thinking other things and trying to save the world, and all that.
Learning to be selfish, is harder than I thought.
Pink
Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly
What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why
There's a lot on my mind right now.Not just academic stuff.Lots of emotions running wild.I got to set things straight.I need to talk to someone and tell them things.They have the rights to know.
No one said teenage was easy;
But they didn't say it would be a jungle!
Why aren't I surprised?

I Survived The First Day Back;

2010-01-04T20:55:00.003+08:00

It was only the first day back.And I feel like I've been slogging away for months.It wasn't as bad as I expected.Yes, the flooding number of innocent, new faces of the sec1s was overwhelming.But seeing the familiar, badass types of my seniors was even more comforting.Haha.Divya was busy with her council duties so slacked the first half of the day with Mariyah.We both were bored out of our wits.Almost fell asleep.
Divya came back for recess.Recess was a quiet affair.Then, the briefing stretched till the end of the school day.It's a confusing timetable and I got to move around only for two subjects.So isn't that bad.Besides, Divya is in every single one of my classes.Thank you, lord!
I've got a pretty nice bunch of teachers.I know Sec3 I've got to really mug it out.Is that why the first day itself feels so rough?
Ouh what the hell.
There's rehearsal for the concert, tomorrow after school.I think I'm going to need every possible amount of sleep I can get.Mind you, I slept at 1930hrs yesterday, yet I'm dead tired.
A Beautiful Beginning
In my shoes, just to see;
What it's like, to be me;
I'll be you, let's trade shoes;
Just to see what I'd be like to;
Feel your pain, you feel mine;
Go inside each other's mind;
Just to see what we find;
Look at shit through each other's eyes;

I'm suppose to be doing my homework right now.Don't worry, my school isn't that mean.It was holiday homework.I'm just a very responsible procrastinator.I still have two book reviews and I got to find someone to print it out for me.

Ouh, the joy.

Still very very extremely obsessed with Kiowa Gordon;

This Is War

2010-01-03T12:36:00.003+08:00

The last day of the extended holidays... Last day of hiding at home.
From whatever that is going to attack me, that is;
I'm uber excited, and I don't know how many more times I'll say it before I actually wear the word out.Just plain excited.Whoopee.I have yet to pack my things.But I don't think it will take very long.Oh and rest assured, I'll be sleeping damn early.I didn't get much sleep last night, what with my sister's weird sleeping positions.
A new year, a so-called new beginning
We watch the season pull up its own stakes;
And catch the last weekend of the last week;
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced;
Another sun soaked season fades away;
That's the lyrics to Stolen by Dashboard Confessional.I've a sudden interest in this band.They're music is very quiet and darn meaningful, if you really listen to the lyrics.My new favourite and a chart topper is, Belle Of The Boulevard.Hehs.I feel like it should be my theme song for this year.Or at least till the term ends.
I'd like to think that as has born the new year, I've become a brand new person too.But that's a bit too far-fetched.I can't fanthom not continuing what I have molded myself into these past fourteen years.I have learnt plenty and they are an added bonus.However, I'm still keeping my defiant, don't-mess-with attitude.It helps with being persuasive.Heh.
I'm about to pursue 2hrs of studying.I'm not sure I'll last.So as a last desperate measure, I'm going to add caffeine into my blood.
Chorus of Belle Of The Boulevard; From Alter The Ending
Don’t turn away;
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes;
Don’t be afraid;
Keep it all inside, all inside;
When you fall apart;
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes;
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard;

don't be afraid;

God Willing;

2010-01-02T21:20:00.002+08:00

Helloooo!

I'm back.Meaning the regularly updating, all day in the mood to blog me, is back.The break was long deserved I think.But anyways, I'm here now.

I'm really excited to get to school but at the same time, there's this awkward foreboding feeling that creeps up.Most of us know our class, and like me, they don't exactly love how and where they are placed.Still.It's just the fact that school is back in action that comforts me the most.As weird as that is.

I spent half the night watching the television.I watched 'Wanted'.Most would say the movie is crap.But I thought it wasn't that bad.Especially cuz of Angelina Jolie and James McAvoy's acting.And I loved the whole slow effect thingy.lol.Now I'm trying to figure out how to curve a bullet.Hehs.So after boredom took me over, I switched to mtv.And all of a sudden I'm liking all these rock and metal music, I kinda didn't give a damn before.Something whacky is happening to my brain.But it's music.So nuff said.

Today will be the last day of sleeping late.Of cuz, I can't be stopped if I wanted to sleep late during the school days.However, due to previous sleep deprived consequences, I have decided against it.Oh and my story is on pause as always.I've got lots to wrap my head around and my fantasy world can wait.Somehow I think 2010 will still hold drama, but God willing, to the bare minimum.Whatever it is, I'll manage.

Divya's in my class and I'm damn glad about that fact.I don't really know who else is.But for now, and forever, Divya is enough.She keeps me sane.And she knows that.I've missed her much this holidays.The holidays had Akka, Charm, the 5 in unison, Bro in it... Divya is for the times I'm attacked by a supernatural magnet called drama.Woots.

New Year

2010-01-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

So it is 2010.

A new year, and as follows my hope for a better year.

Last year was fun and fantastic in its own ways, but living in the past is dumb.So am here to focus on th present; the future.The school has derived a new class system.Everyone is mixed up and honestly, I'm not happy with the class I am in.But what the hell, I'll live with what I get.

Yesterday, was damn shiok.Family countdown was awesome.Cousins and I danced like crazy.We even tried to dance like Michael Jackson.It was damn funny cuz we didn't do a very good job.Haha.School will be starting on the 4th, which is only about 2-3 days away.I've mixed feelings about the first week of school.But since we have rehearsals for upcoming concert, I do know it's going to be real hectic.

Currently obsessed with Kiowa Gordon.That's one fine looking dude.Heh.

I'm going to be fifteen this year and even taking an O level paper.More responsibilities and things.Making the right choice is going to be tougher than ever.But I'll deal with it.We'll deal with it.

We'll make it.We always do, in the end.

Happy New Year, guys!

A Conventional Thought

2009-12-30T14:57:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been updating much.

But it isn't like anyone is keeping track aite? So whatever.

Anyways, spending most of my time running to and fro school.Dance practices.Tomorrow is eve of new year.As usual, as tradition calls, family gathering and partying till dawn.Seriously, I think we've gone up to 6am.Hehs.School will be starting in 5 days.God.I really can't wait.For all the reasons you guys probably wouldn't be able to guess.Finally, found Bro online.Okay, it was me actually.Dumb time difference.

Will update soon.Then again, who cares right?

Avatar

2009-12-24T14:43:00.002+08:00

The week has flown past, swiftly.

I went to VivoCity with cousins.Damn fun.Suria anna, we all played a trick on Rishi.We put salt in his tea and he drank it.lol.Then, I burped at the male waiter.I was embarasses to the max but couldn't stop laughing.Hehs.I went on board a ship for a book sale.Hehs.Ahh.Then, yesterday went to Lido to watch 'Avatar'.Again with the same gang.The sound effects and music compositions were awesome.Haha.For the first time, went to Borders, and didn't buy anything.My heart was pained.Heh.Akka is coming back.Next week is loaded with dance practices.And Bro is still MIA.At least, on msn, I'm guessing.

imy

2009-12-18T20:43:00.003+08:00

Akka has gone to Malaysia and won't return till next week.

Meanwhile, been a looooooooong time since I talked to Bro.

imy2

i found me ;

2009-12-16T15:14:00.004+08:00

Two weeks to go.

I'm swimming in the third last week of the holidays.I'm really looking forward to getting back to school, as weird as that sounds.It's frustrating not having 8hrs of definite education forced into my head.Haha.I'm nuts; I've lost my sanity due to lack of things to do.Tonight, going to cousin's place cuz it's his birthday.Ah, family night.lol.

Coming Monday will be parading to VivoCity with the whole lot of cousins for shopping.I just want to get to PageOne in one piece cuz I need stationary supplies for the coming year.I'm thinking of buying a 2010 planner.And a book.God, recently borrowed a book.It was interesting.My first time reading a book of that style.But damn, I accidentally dropped into the bookdrop.Don't ask how.I just did it.Argh.As I am typing this in the library right now, I'm also hunting up and down for that particular book.

I haven't been in contact with a lot of people, lately.I just have been real caught up with my self-realisation-ing life change and stuff I'm doing.I've been working on a story.A supernatural one; The first time I'd say.No one has snuck a peek at it yet.I only typed the prologue and first chapter yet I've done 3 drafts on both.That's how tiring writing is.But I'm having fun.So wth.

I wish the holidays will hurry up and end.

And now I got to go hunt for that particular book.

Haven't spoken to Bro or Charm in a while;

Miss them both;

Over & Out ;

2009-12-10T17:12:00.003+08:00

This week has been awesome.

The outing with my guys: Krish, Haris and Namirah was, well, there's no words to describe how it felt.

I loved every single minute of it.And I miss them, a hell lot, I do.

I've not much to say, other than that.

I'm loving my solidarity confinement I've got myself in.

Of cuz, my family's always with me.

Small happiness.

I've watched New Moon twice, already.

Definitely, better than the previous movie.

Self Realisation ;

2009-12-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

I miss school.

I miss Bro and Akka.

I miss my gangs.

I miss myself.

I'm seeing everytime for the first time; Since...

I fell out of love

I'm out of here;

No regrets;

I'm not going back;

Can't Wait ;

2009-12-03T15:58:00.003+08:00

Hellooooo...!!

Yesterday was damn fun.lol.So many things happened.Okay, let's start from the top.

I woke up early.Mum and Sis left for school.So I was alone at home.Thus, started to get ready whilst watching, 90210.Left home and took 188 to VivoCity.It was a real long bus ride.But enjoyed it.Cuz it was raining and music was like, well, music to my ears.Haha.

Met Dance seniors at the skypark.We ordered pizza.Then, played twister and attempted at pushing each other into the pool.Hehs.It was quite fun.I couldn't stay longer, as I had to meet Biri Akka.Only then, did the real awesomeness of the day start.I love her very very much.lol.Firstly, we stopped by Starbucks and got some caffeine into our bloodstream.Hehs.Then, we walked to lots of clothing shops.Let me type the ones I remember.Hehs.

We went to:

Tangs, Zara, Forever 21, TopShop, Mango, Addidas etc etc

There were many many more.lol.We tried on clothes.Okay, I only tried one cuz I was too lazy to keep changing.Haha.Biri bought a pair of damn cool jeans, a nice white top and a yellow one for her mum.Whereas, I didn't buy anything.Cuz I was short of cash :P

In the end, she took the bus home while I took the taxi to meet the family at Rex Theatre.We were going to watch a movie.Aiyo.My family came half an hour late.So we bought tickets for the 9pm show.lol.We had dinner and bought DVDs.Yay! The show we went for was, " Kandaen Kadhalai ".It's a tamil film.Damn funny.Everyone watching the film, was roaring with laughter.HAHA!

The movie was worth watching.Now, I'm addicted to the songs.Hehs.

Oh and a few pictures I took on the day, I have posted on facebook.Do see and must comment.lol.

It was an enjoyable day.I loved it.

Today, I've been just lazing around.Watched Adhavan.Woots.

What I can't really wait for is, the 5 In Unison's Outing;

Back To The Basics

2009-11-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings.

I'm back.It's been a long week.But I've had fun.

Yesterday, went to West Mall with cousins.It was damn cool.After dining at Swensens, spent hours at the arcade.Ahhh.I think we spent lots of money.Oh well.It was all about our happiness, anyway.Right now, really feel like watching (500) Days Of Summer all over again.

The 5 In Unison, we're having an outing planned out for sometime this December.I miss all of them and I can't wait.Mum said I can be out for more than 10 hours.Holy Cow.It's going to be awesome and I'm waiting for that day to arrive quickly.Hehs.

A bit of philosophy, before I sign off.

I've been wondering what life's all about.For me, actually.Cuz the lessons everyone's suppose to learn is supposedly different.I like helping everyone and being there all the time.I don't know why.I just love doing that.Thing is, there are rare occasions, and I really mean rare, I wonder if you would be there for me, just as I have been for you...

That's about it.

Also, I've been watching this series called Legend Of The Seeker.

Hot guy, alert.

Weird

2009-11-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

It was an odd week.

Of which I spent most of the time, sleeping.I don't know why.I keep falling asleep in the middle of the afternoon.Anyways, Tuesday went to watch 2012 with the family.It was a cool movie.The visual effects were so worth it.Wednesday, had family gathering.Aunt celebrated the silver jubilee of her marriage.25 years.Wow.

And I've been alightly cranky these days.It might not show but to those who I talk often with, I'm losing my temper a lot.I'm trying to find the short circuit in my head.Haiz.I don't want to lose my temper.It's not nice.And I like these people, so what's wrong with me? Aiyo.

There's nothing much to do, but continue my stories and just roam about youtube.com.What a holiday.Actually, I can't wait to get back to Labis, MY.Days there, fly by in the most serene manner possible.

I'll return to blogging after I figure what's going on in my head

The Colour Of Our Eyes ;

2009-11-16T17:30:00.002+08:00

My hair was a mess, but still not that bad, I think.

I learnt to move on, stay alive and keep fighting.

And that's when I learnt to forgive myself.

Happy Birthday

2009-11-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DIVYA...!!

15 November; 15112009

Fourteen years you've lived in this world.Wow.That's a lot.I've known you, close to two years, and you still continue to mesmerise me in every possible way.You've an unique personality and probably not everyone can accept the way you are.But honestly, when they do, they'll find there's no one quite like you.Yes, we have had our set of numerous arguments and some people even get tired of it, Hehs.However, I'd just like to say thanks for being there and allowing me to mother you to torturous extents.lol.Next year, we're going to be in the same class.No matter what happens, and trust me a lot of things are going to happen, I love you and let's treasure what we have; This special bond.Enjoy your special 24hrs and keep smiling.We'll take on everything and anything that comes our way :D

P.S. It will be our 3rd Monthaversary on 19th November.HAHA.I love you, girlf.

Vibes;

2009-11-13T20:55:00.004+08:00

I was kinda planning to do an one line post.However, Rosma baby has changed my mind.So here goes.

I'm about to embark on a ruthless journey of cleaning my room in an hour or so.It's like a pig sty.And in my defense, I'd like to say the only reason my room's messy is cuz it's filled with books since I was seven.There.What a convincing case I've made.Hehs.I'm doing this, so I can earn an opportunity to go out.Whatever it is, I've got to clean it sometime in November; Why not now?

Anyways, I think I might be up all night.That's how messy the room is.But it will be fun, I guess.

By the way, I've gained the intestinal fortitude aka guts, to accept even the most indigestable truth.Cuz in the end, that's life.Life's all about being given you completely can't work with and proving how you can.Yeah, something like that, I guess.

On a much more personal note, I'm annoyed with myself right now.I've gone and pissed off someone.Someone who's made me feel better whenever I've been down.What's wrong with me?! Argh.

Other than that, everything is drama-less at the moment.Whether this is fortunate or unfortunate, I'm still indecisive about.But I'm sure before my mind is cleared, it will all start again.Oh well.Hehs.Anyways, guess that mostly makes who I am.Reading this book called Vibes.Quite good.Seeing as how I've managed to read it three times, already.

I've been browsing through all of Travis McCoy's videos.Damn.I love the way his voice sounds.Seductive.

I'm grinning in unconcealed awe.

Now, I've got to go and fuel myself as I'm about to face my room, which can be subversive.Honest.

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town;

Betol Betol Betol

2009-11-12T17:35:00.003+08:00

Apologies for the two sadistic posts, down below.But that's how I could express it.I'm not over it.Yet.But it will pass over soon enough.And I'll be back to kicking arse, in no time.

I've found some small things in life, that can make me smile the widest.I've been continously going to my lil cousin's house.And we watch this show called " Upin & Ipin ".Damn cute.I love it.Haha.

Betol, betol, betol.

Hehs.I've found new song addictions too.They're much different from the ones I usually listen too.Still.Music is an universal language and guess I'm learning new ones right now.lol.Also, I suddenly find Travis from Gym Class Heroes, incredibly irresistable.Others might have quite the opposite reaction.However he does have a charismatic personality and a charming smile.Hehs.

I think my mind, soul and life is going through a make-over.I'll still be the same.Yet I think I'd be more outrageous than ever and much, much more complicated.

*Grins, Evil grin*

I'm happy in th most sadistic way possible;

Untitled

2009-11-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna make you bend and break

Say your prayers but let th good times roll

In case God doesn't show

And trust me, I'm going to make you'll regret it.

Then, even God won't be able to save you'll.

Burning Desire

2009-11-09T18:58:00.002+08:00

After class everything just went down the drain.

Oh well, who am I to say?

Everyone please pray for me, I want this so much.

When I die, I think I'm going to hell ;

Overloading

2009-11-08T20:54:00.002+08:00

th devil wears prada?

Heys.I'm watching that movie right now.It's sorta interesting.Besides, days are mundane right now.God.Sometimes, the day you await for, seems like forever.Argh.

I've been thinking a lot lately.More than I usually do.And of cuz, as usual weird things pop up here and there.Since I have nothing better to do, I think about it till I get a freaking migraine.

To forgive is to set someone free

Whether it sets someone free or not, it definitely frees the person who forgives.I don't know how it works.But it just does.It's like lifting a heavy rock off your chest or something.Remaining angry with someone takes up a lot of effort.So, just forgiving the person is better, I guess.

Anothing thing.

Sometimes when we are upset, we truly believe that no one else in the world feels the same and we are all alone.That is not true.Whether your loved ones feel the same or not, is completely irrelavant.Whatever it is, they will feel for you.Cuz they love you and no matter what, when a tear falls from your eyes, it hurts them worse.I know this seems like an overload of philosophy.However, this is some oblivious facts everyone remains, well oblivious to.

Tomorrow, there's school.Yes, I know I miss school.I want to go back to school.But not to get homework.Well that's what I'm going back to school for, in case you were wondering.To collect homework.Argh.And I thought maybe, just maybe, this time we'd get to enjoy our two months of holiday with no mention of homework.What a disappointment.

Right now, I'm running late on an assignment.Journalism.I don't mind.I think I'm going to be up all night completing it.Haha.I love long nights.With company, of cuz.

Awaiting

2009-11-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

and i know you won't let a tear fall

It's been exactly one week since I updated.lol.Apologies.I have been contemplating lots of things.Thus, decided not to blog till I felt it was the right time.Today went out with Maii, Venkat and Amir.Shafiq couldn't make it, last minute.We rushed to VivoCity and watched "Coraline".It was quite a cool movie.But the thing I treasured the most, was the bus rides.The one on the way, and the one back.Hehs.

I'm awaiting 10112009.

Till then, ciao.

I mean it;

2009-10-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

take time to realise

Day was hectic with all the performances.I don't want to talk about it.Haiz.

Went out to SEVENEleven with gang.Then, decided to go to the library with Divya, Maii, Venkat, Shafiq, Matin and Amir.The trip in the bus was damn fun.lol.After chasing Venkat so many times, I've gotten better at running.Hehs.Last minute, Maii had to go home.So sent her off and then proceeded to the library.Bustled up to the 4th floor, as Venkat sweared about how all the good looking girls are older than him.Haha.We didn't do much.We just scribbled our names on the table and asked each other weird questions.Matin and Amir left soon after.

Of cuz, we got hungry soon enough.Ate at the cafe.We crapped a lot.Sent Divya home.Walked with Venkat and Shafiq back to the interchange.

I realised something.Well only, two hours after I did it and when I was already home.I'm glad I have the "Never regret whatever I do" attitude.It's awesome, when put in weird perspectives.lol.I called Mum and talked to her.Both Biri and Mum made me feel better.Thanks.Everything feels better now.Like the sea, after an uproar.

if th world ended tomorrow;

i'm glad i said it today;

2009-10-29T22:22:00.001+08:00

The truth is...

We hide cuz we wanna be found

We walk away to see who will follow us

And we let our hearts get broken

Just to see who cares enough

To fix them.

I find reasons everyday; To why you're th best

2009-10-29T21:30:00.004+08:00

Boo Ya!

First time, I'm damn tired but also really really hyper.Hehs.

Met Shafiq and Venkat, along with Maii in the morning at the interchange.Then, walked to school as Venkat ran for council meeting.Had to present something for EE.But slacked, and since many people didn't want to hear, I didn't waste my breath.Then, for the next two hours plus played station games organized by the council.Quite fun; Applauds for their effort.Missed dance practice cuz got held back to copy things for NYAA.Haiz.

Had lunch with the gang.Divya was missing cuz she had a real long debrief.Venkat ran away for his drama rehearsal.Maii and I hung out behind the hall.After a while, Divya came and we just talked.I loved the breeze and the satisfaction I got.Hehs.

Spotted Mahen, started talking to him.It's been a long time.Okay, maybe not that long.Still.Then Mahen, Shafiq, Maii, Matin and I plan to play prank on Venkat.Unfortunately, our plan was foiled.lol.Nevermind.Waited for Venkat with the whole lot of them.We watched the drama.It was kinda cool.Hehs.Finally, when everything ended, Venkat came.I don't want to say what he was wearing.Or the lack thereof.

HAHA...!!

Apologies.I couldn't help it.Only Shafiq, Maii, Matin and I know about this.lol.We walked really fast to the bustop cuz it was damn late.While in the bus already, the sky was dark.Scary.Shafiq was freaking out and like we all had to calm him down.lol.But everything's fine, aite? No one's in trouble.Woots!

Tomorrow's the last day of school.So many things on.

Report book.EmCee-ing.Dancing.

And going SEVENEleven with the gang after school for the last time, till next year.

So disconcertingly, nostalgic.Aiyo.Right now, too tired to even freaking keep my eyes open.I'd fall asleep on the keyboard.But.I won't.New song addiction.Explains everthing I feel for you.

BrokenHearted-Beyonce:

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could have been

But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?

You're the only one

I wish I could forget

The only one I love to not forgive

And though you break my heart, you're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you

'Cause I can't erase

The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face

And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say

I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no I don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say

But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around

And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me

But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me

And still, you're in my heart

But you're the only one

And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain

'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away

Oh, but now I don't hate youI'm happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe

I don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, oohI'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my babyI don't want a broken heart

Don't wanna take a breath without my baby

I don't wanna play that part

I know that I love you, but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no noI don't want a broken heart

I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girlNo, no, no broken-hearted girl

Broken-hearted girl

No broken-hearted girl

Read the lines carefully.Damn nice :)

There are times when I hate you;

But I know I can't replace you;

School-aholic;

2009-10-25T21:25:00.002+08:00

{ Jacob Black; }

Today took such a long time to wake up.I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am and meet Mum at JE.But I only woke at 9am.Aiyo.Still reached there, not too late.The family and I breakfast-ed together.Then, Grandma and Mum shopped at the market while I walked around, moaning cuz I was so sleepy.When reached home, wanted to sleep.However people started msging me, so I just sat in the hall, replying all of them.Hehs.

Tomorrow, is promotion day.Supposedly, no school.But I got to go for dance practise.And Maii has asked me to help with the end of the year concert.So am going to school the normal time, with Divya and Karthika.lol.So long day ahead.I don't mind, though.Two months of holidays.I'll grab all the school I can get.

One more week of school.And then, we'll be promoted to Sec3.Wow wow.We're growing up so fast.Ahh.Haha.But I don't mind that either.We're growing up together, right? lol.

And every minute I spend with you is like, Wow ;

Worth it;

2009-10-24T20:53:00.002+08:00

Take a moment to look around;

Marched to school this morning.I was real tired and almost fell asleep during assembly.Hehs.It was the Health Carnival.Mariyah walked around with the board, while I begged people to come around our class booth.After my shift was done, walked around the carnival with Divya.She bought that chocolate fondu thingy, and I got myself cup corn.Mmm.Divya and I dedicated a song for Mariyah and Rosma.Our second dedication went out to the SEVENEleven Gang.Haha.Then, just sat at the canteen talking.

Venkat and Shafiq came and made us go up to the hall for the hip hop dancing session.We all only did halfway through.After that, ciao.Haha.Venkat and Shafiq participated in the healthy cooking competition.Their sandwhich was gigantic.I still doubt it can fit into anyone's mouth.lol.Took the bus home with Venkat, Shafiq and Nila.I whacked Venkat a lot.Not fair.He's so damn thick skin.

And damn, you make everything so worth it;

Whenever I See You;

2009-10-23T20:36:00.002+08:00

Today was...Surreal.

In the morning took the bus with Maisarah.As usual, we act like we don't know each other.When we boarded 143, she forced me to sit on the upper deck.lol.Venkat came up shortly after.And then, Shafiq got in the bus at the next stop.Freaky cool aite? Haha.Spent the first few hours of school preparing for the Health Carnival, tomorrow.Actually, I didn't do much work.Just crapped with Ifah, Venkat and Shafiq more.

I was quite pissed off, from 1200-1300hrs.However, became super hyper soon after.Whole way through lunch, threw ice cubes at Venkat and Srivatsa.Hehe.Dance was much more energy draining than usual.Cuz I was already quite tired.After dance, Shafiq, Divya and I were waiting for Venkat.Seriously, must get him a watch.Punctuality has fall through a black hole in his dictionary.After that, walked to 7/11.My mood took a turn for the worst in the bus.Venkat and Shafiq tried to cheer me up; Thanks.But I was quite adamant.Apologies.

Now I'm home and super tired.Waiting for someone, now.

Whenever I see you

There comes th noisy silence

And all noise is silenced

Expect The Unexpected;

2009-10-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

HeyHey everyone!

Today didn't go to school.Hehs.Cuz I went outing till late that it was very hard to wake up this morning.But anyways, did what I always do.I got ready and went to school; reached there around 13:15.I wanted to wait outside the class and surprise friends.Too bad, didn't happen.Cuz bumped into Srivatsa.He went on to rattle about my marks.Then, spotted Venkat and Shafiq.Talk talk, and went to see 2/1 wrapping things for the Health Carnival.I helped.Only a bit, though.Hehs.

Talked to Mrs Loh and she told me I needn't stay back.So, went to 7/11 with Venkat and Shafiq.Mum asked if they want to come over.So it was decided, quite abruptly, that they'd come over to my place.Met Divya at the bustop while waiting for Maisarah and Nila.Mai and Nila were coming too.

It was quite fun when they came over.We sat to watch a movie.But the interest didn't linger long.We chatted lots.About many things.After that, Mum made me bring my albums to let them see -.-

We crapped quite a lot.An unexpected event that happened today.Haha.

Oh and I'm an extremely happy person right now.The first reason is my results.It's awesome.Plain awesome.I'm proud of myself.lol.So hoping and keeping faith that I'd get into the class I want.Secondly, my Jacob Black.His existence itself is a reason enough.lol.Thirdly, my family and friends.It's like all the pieces in the puzzle are finally joining right.Grateful to God.Thank you, God.

And without you;

There's no one left there;

(500) Days Of Summer;

2009-10-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

Hello

Sorry for MIA for these few days.But I was busy with preparations for Deepavali and all.lol.Deepavali was held at my house.So everyone gathered at my place and it was just awesome! Hehs.The joy you get when so many of your loved ones are gathered at one place, around you, is just priceless.I loved Sathurday.Heh.Spent my Sunday just sitting around cuz was very groggy from all that energy consumption the previous day.

Today, went for dance practice at 9am.Then rushed back home and got ready.Met Divya at the interchange and took the bus to VivoCity.It was damn long.But we entertained ourselves with stories and crap, as usual.Haha.We planned on watching a movie.So we watched:

(500) Days Of Summer

It's quite an eccentric movie.Honestly, you can see the director's individuality through the direction of the scenes.It was awesome and has made it to one of my favourites.After the movie, we walked around, searching for Burger King.Had our lunch there.Then, I stuffed myself with Chocolate Chip Frappucino from Starbucks.Haha.I couldn't help it.It's so delicious.Hehs.We wandered around before heading back home.The ride back home was slightly quieter.Then, met Mum and Sister at IMM.Mum was getting a haircut.After nonsens-ing with the family a while, went for dinner.It has been a long day and I'm dead tired.

However, even though the day's near its end; Three things are always on my mind:

My Jacob Black.Results.(500) Days Of Summer.

A person.An event.A movie.

How nice, eh? lol.I'm so weird.But yeah.These are the things on my mind.Tomorrow's the release of our results.I'm expectant.Quite nervous too.Yet I really want to face this.Woots.Am nuts, please excuse me.

Bro's blog song is quite addictive.Even though, I don't understand a single word -.-

I miss Jacob Black, Bro and Charmaine :(

Thks fr th mmrs

2009-10-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

Exams are officially over!

Haha, woots.Went outing with the gang to mark the end of these exams.We went to IMM and ate at Bagus.After that just roamed around and crapped.I'm glad exams are over and now I shall impatiently await the release of the results.lol.

After outing, went to fetch Sister with mum.And talked to mum about the recent happenings at school.We spent about 2hrs at Mac, just talking.It was really nice.A good change.Then it started raining and I walked through the coffee shop with my umbrella still over my head.That's when I laid eyes on him.

Oh God.Damn.Ahhh.Torture.Just, pure torture.lol.Mum said it was electrifying.And I couldn't stop smiling after that.Still can't.Haha.He's so hot.Okay, shall shut up now.

I've been learning a lot.Hehs.I can't wait for next year, actually.

Thks fr th mmrs;

Thinking Of You

2009-10-10T20:59:00.002+08:00

HeyHey!

Today woke up damn early to send sister to school, cuz she had some enrichment class.Then, went to Science Centre Mac to meet th gang.I was real early.Slowly, everyone arrived.All had breakfast and walked over to the library.Divya and I did Science while the rest pondered over Maths.My mood went out in the middle so I walked all around the library, aimlessly.But chocolate cheered me up.Hehs.

Some time later, started drilling Shafiq on Science.Fuu! He so smart.HAHA! Okay, sorry.Oh and there were three malay guys.Darn annoying.They kept talking and laughing at us.I was so pissed.But we got back at them.That part was hilarious.lol.Next everyone was hungry so went down to the little cafe to lunch.We played 'What if' and talked a lot of crap.Though Divya and I had to leave slightly earlier cuz we had to be back home.The rest of them went to get horny on 'Naughty G' drink.Horny Horny! Haha.

Just went to Bro's blog.He changed his blog song.Now, it's 'Missin You-Trey Songz'.Haiz.That's my ringtone.I wish there was a girl version of that song.Memories flood back and the feeling is numb-ing me.Mugging very hard for Maths and Science.Tomorrow, I'll have to be up early cuz I have to complete my DNT work too.And mug too.Don't forget the mugging part.Hehs.Ahhh.Exams attack.lol.

And I'm praying to God real hard.Please.The times I don't talk to you, I feel like I'm lost.I don't know why.But it's like that.We don't always agree on everything but I know you're by my side no matter what.

p.s. i never thought i'd fall for you as hard as i did;

and you just called as i was thinking about you;

Cinderella Story;

2009-10-08T17:56:00.002+08:00

Hellooo...!!

This whole week has been truly, how shall I say? Fulfilling? lol.Anyways just got back home from school.

An update on this week:

On Monday, us SEVENEleven Gang got soaked in the rain.But it was fun.Cuz we were with each other.Crapped a lot, like always.On Tuesday, things went weird.But by yesterday, all came back to normal.

Today begun with me being early at school.I did some Maths and waited for people to arrive so that I can disturb people.Hehs.During MT, Mrs T left us at the library.All of us were mugging for Maths.Haha.We had two hours of Science and then ran off to lunch.I did the DNT project from 1400-1500hrs.Thanks to Surya and Srivatsa, it looks quite nice.Hehs!

Then Divya, Kausalya and I went to meet Ms Hao for consultation.Divya and Kausalya wanted to do for Maths, while I wanted Science.We did Maths, anyways.Half way through, though, Shafiq called saying they were all waiting for us at the main gate.lol.So we cut consultation short, made an appointment for tomorrow and rushed to meet them.

They have started calling me the gang leader of SEVENEleven -.-

Walked and talked, mostly with Maisarah and Divya.When we finally took the bus, well one of us got left behind.Aiyo.I kept scolding Shafiq; What a best friend.The rest of the story is confidential.

But I know everything's gonna be fine :)

Oh and I dreamt of 99.Ahhh! So hot.Haha.And was gushing over 99 during recess, till Divya called me a nut.Thank you very much.But I don't mind.I'm too high to bother.Hehs.

At the moment, everything seems like a scene from the Cinderella book.Things are unfair and slightly chaotic.At least that's how it seems in my version.But like that nice classic fairytale,

Everyone will live happily ever after.

So relax, everyone.Enjoy life.Live it.And get over all your irrational thoughts.Okays? I'm obsessed with Alex Pettyfer (sp?), Jacob Black and Dimitri.I realise they're either a star or a fictional character.But wth.I don't care.They help cope with reality.And that's awesome!

And everything's alright;

Cuz you're by my side;

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2009-10-04T21:22:00.003+08:00

Helloooo ;)

I'm feeling so much better, compared to yesterday.

Anyways, throughout the day was msging Biri and Divya.It was quite fun.And I forced Divya to turn the television on to watch some (drool worthy, mind you), six packs.Haha.I've also finally, completed my notes for Science.And talked lots with mum.Oh, and Mr Mahen has got me addicted to Vaarayo Vaarayo from Aadhavan.Hehs.

Chatting with Karthika and msging Divya.Ahhh.I need to go sleep soon.Tomorrow is going to be a very long day.Lots of doubts to clear with teachers and all.Woots.

All th best to everyone for th finals ;)

Jacob Black;

Thanks a million;

Dear God;

2009-10-03T21:05:00.004+08:00

Woohoo!

My sincerest greetings to everyone.

The heart's heavy right now, but I'm praying.And I'm glad I've got someone to talk to.Mahen can be, at times, clueless about lots of things in life.But one topic, he's a pro at.lol.And really, I'm grateful to that ding dong bell.Times have changed greatly.Haha.I'm being ironic, here.

However much this sucks.I'm glad that I have my family and friends, helping me through.It makes my thank God, continuously.And I do.

Thank you God, for everything I have.Everything you have given me.And granting my heart's desires.No matter what I ask or how much I ask, you have always given me them.And I'm grateful beyond words can say.And yeah, tonight I'd be praying for everyone.Every single one of you.I promise.

I'm sorta in a daze right now.Mum is constantly encouraging me.And I love her for that.I am a very lucky person.I know it.I've been given life's best.Everything.And thank everyone for that.

If everything my heart desires happens

I'm sure there wouldn't be any other who would be happier

I'd list all th things I'd do for you

But it would take all eternity to finish

So in short, anything and everything

Seconds minutes hours days weeks and months go by

But you haven't left my mind even once

I've never felt so beautiful

Other than th times I spend with you

So if everything my heart desires happens

I'm sure there wouldn't be any other who would be happier

Cuz I know for a fact

What exactly is happening right now

I can't wait for Monday.So many doubts to clear with the teachers.One whole week to do all that.Then it will be full exams.Three more papers to finish.English.Maths.Science.Actually, I can't wait.I know I'm nuts.But what to do? Haha.Anyways, another thing to ask for.Not from God.But everyone else.

I might have hurt you (intentionally/unintentionally).And for that, I'm sorry.It might be horrendous or minor, but please forgive me tonight.Give me a chance to start anew.I promise to appreciate better, love better and be better.I'm sorry.And I ask your forgiveness, tonight.

p.s. i love you

2009-10-02T20:58:00.004+08:00

I've stopped trying to define life, anymore.

It's so funny at times, I have no idea what words to use anymore.One moment, everything can be horribly wrong.And the next, I'd be the happiest in the world.If that's not weird, I don't know what is.

Anyways, today had my EOY MT papers.It was quite enjoyable, actually.I can't wait for the results, already.Went outing with Divya, Venkat, Shafiq, Nila, Maisarah and Amir.Quite fun.They're a bunch of damn hyper people.We ate at Bagus.Divya and I didn't even eat properly.Then, walked around and chatted.I think we were real noisy and all.lol.Venkat had better sent my girlf safely back home.Hehs.

After returning home, took a nap.Just woke up.

Needed to talk to someone; Just did.It's nice to have someone tell you things about yourself.Ones you weren't that aware of.Life's a bomb ;)

Can't Stop Missing You;

2009-10-01T16:28:00.003+08:00

Hello...

I'm not in the greatest moods, but what to do? I'll get over it, I guess.Soon enough.

The day started off with Maths, we revised on our own mostly.MT; I had my oral.I was a nervous wreck, but it's done.And I'm just glad that I got it over with.We had two hours of Science since the Chinese pupils went off to take their exam.It was kinda fun.Divya and I were/are in a dangerously bad mood.

Sometimes, things happen and it's very difficult to accept.Cuz they're so abrupt and weird.

Plus, they hurt.

However changes are inevitable.And we're going to deal with them, no matter.I wanted to confide with Bro, but cuz of damn time difference, can't find him online.I miss Bro; Quite long since I spoke to him.Tomorrow's HMT exam.I'm going to be preparing tonight.Three hours, I think.

I miss my friend.

I hope everything's fine, between us.

Mere Piya

2009-09-30T08:22:00.002+08:00

{ I'm nuts aite? I love the picture too much }

HeyHey, young world.

I know I said there won't be much update.But how could I resist, when they finally un-blocked blogger in my school computer lab? Haha.So here I am.The week has been going on fine.I kinda love it, actually.Yesterday, went out with family to Queensway Shopping Centre.lol.It was cool; Seeing as it was my first time.Mum was so excited to show me the place.

Oh, and something happened yesterday; I'll never be the same again.I've been grinning non stop since that happened.Ahhh.Jacob Black! Please, don't get tired of me.He is my escape from reality.By the way, I'm not crazy, okay?!

I'm still addicted to Knock You Down by Keri Hilson.I'm smiling, just thinking about it.

It's true.I feel like I'm in my own world, these days.Which is a good thing, you see.Since there's so many ahem [insertwordhere] going on in school.Ignoring and just moving on is better aite? Exactly what I'm doing.

And do you know you make feel so beautiful?

I don't know how you do it; But there's something and you have it.I can't explain what it is, when I see your face.Yes, it's a crashin' pain at night.But your smile is so effortless, the pain, it all fades away.You're the reason I smile these days;

Jacob Black;

You've stolen this heart;

Our Own Small World;

2009-09-27T14:26:00.005+08:00

`Us in our own little happy world: Me; Harsh; Vaikesh

{Pic is above}

Yesterday was damn fun.Even though, we weren't very welcomed, I had fun.Cuz Vaikesh, Harsh, Rishi, Sister and I were in our very own, little world.I talked and laughed, so much it was a wonder I wasn't drunk.Today going to celebrate Prashant's birthday.lol.I'm so happy.I love my life.I love everyone :D

[ Since exams are here, expecting an update is, well, ridiculous.Hehs.But will be back soon ]

What Hurts The Most

2009-09-26T13:30:00.004+08:00

Good afternoon, everybody!

Mmm, yeah.I'm in a pretty good mood today.That's cuz I had my favourite chocolate chip cookies, just now.Haha.Recently, I went to Starbucks.And I tried the Cappuccino Cheesecake and Chocolate Chip Frappuccino.It was darn nice.Both of it.Hehs, I feel like having them now too.

Right now, msging Biri.I've got to go to a party later in the evening.That's why I'm blogging now.In the confusion I was in yesterday, I even managed to write a song.I'm only done with the chorus.But it's nice.I like it.I keep singing it.

I will be there for you.Even if you think all's ended.I've said this to everyone I know.And same goes to you too.I will catch you before you fall, cuz warning isn't within my rights.You're hurting, and I can't make it right.I can't wipe away th tears, cuz I don't know how.But I will make you smile and laugh as much as I can.I'll make you happy so you can forget th pain for a while.Just a moment, so you'd enjoy life.

I'll do that for you, at th very least.

My beautiful Sun;

And th temporary Eclipse;

Waiting For Your Call

2009-09-25T20:56:00.003+08:00

Helloooo...!!

Today was absolute fun.Sorta.I arrived at school quite early, cuz we had to bring things for our Home Econs practical.Thing is, in the rush, I forgot my apron.I was so sleepy and blur( quiet old man! ), I asked Mahen.He was like, I don't take Home Econs.Haha.Anyways, sweet sweet Rashi lent me hers.Thanks, babe.Our dish came out better than expected.As usual, the salad was the best.Hehs.

MT wasn't all that fun.We were missing people in class, due to our seniors' awards day ceremony thingy.Then, got a msg from Mira.She wanted to meet up, so we could study.So, asked mum and was allowed to go.I went back home to change first and went to Mac, to meet Mira.When she came, we actually talked more than we studied.Haha.It was fun.There was a lot of guys involved.

And lately, Mira feels like it is P4 all over again, aite?

Haha, okay okay.Subtle Subtle.

Now, just sitting about, thinking.Yes, that's what I do better than anything else.I'm slightly confused.It makes my heart beat really really fast.My head has the whole emo thing going on.I even made a poem/song for right now.How nice.Irony is a gift.I keep getting it.Why people are so complicated, I have no idea.

And this time, I need the real Jacob Black to please stand up;

Cranky Love

2009-09-24T17:20:00.003+08:00

I'd start off this post questioning my sanity but I won't.Cuz there's none left.

Actually, I was real bummed out until a few minutes ago.Bro gave me a good humored advice and friend called.So I'm kinda hyper right now.But anyway, here's the recount for today.

I was the earliest at school today.During Maths, everyone was mugging hard.It was funny, cuz never have I seen my entire class concentrate so hard.We resembled a bunch of studying freaks.Hehs.MT was funny, as always.Sya and Rashi brought the kueh kuehs, so we all ate them.NiceNice.I didn't have recess, cuz ran errands.

English was awesome.We did vocab.Which to me, was like a boon, really.Science was cool too.I like having discussions with Ms N.She's fun.I didn't have lunch too.Which is what made me so cranky.No food! -.-

I went to fetch sister.I was msging Biri on the way.However, dropped by KFC and grabbed a bite.Amazingly, Rohini passed by so we shopped for tomorrow's practical too.And now, I'm home.What a day, eh? Hehs.Not that bad.

I did what I've always wanted to.I took a step back, and laughed at my own life.It was sorta relieving cuz after that I felt lighter and all.Cool eh? I'm thanking God for whatever I have.Seriously.

Thank you, God; I love you.

And Jacob Black too;

This Ain't Th First Time

2009-09-21T14:00:00.003+08:00

I'm damn happy now.

Maybe even the happiest person in the face of this Earth, right now.lol.Lots of reasons.Let me state them all.Firstly, I got to know my Science Test score.I got a distinction a.k.a. an A2.Which is a big deal for me, since I failed the very first one.Then had another conversation with Akka and Mahen, yesterday.Damn funny.We sang to each other.Haha.

Hmmm, any other reason? Not really.I'm just being a very happy person right now.I've got that wonderful bubble feeling inside of me.It's nice.A good change.Feeling poetic.So here I go.

This ain't th first time

But I know it's going to be a little diferent

Cuz there's no doubt about th fact

That there isn't anyone else like you

It's unexplainable

Sometimes painful at night

But you leave me breathless in joy

When your lips pull into a smile

I ain't gonna live for you

I ain't gonna live cuz of you

I'm gonna live with you

By the way, listen to the song: Take You Down- Chris Brown.It's nice, suits what I'm feeling right now.Might seem ridiculous.But I'm finding it hard to get over the fact that you're a ficitonal character, Jacob Black.

Suddenly I See

2009-09-20T13:59:00.002+08:00

A very good Jacob Black afternoon to all of ya'll.

Just chatting with Bro.I'm kinda bored.Reading Eclipse again.Don't ask.

But yesterday was damn fun.I was msging Akka.Then she ask me to call her so we can have a three way conversation with our temporary-went-missing friend, Mr Mahen.His phone very annoying.It kept disconnecting the call.However, we talked lots.Lots of crap.And how horribly he sings.Haha.Akka was sick.And he kept asking her to speak louder.And I think 4-5 times, I kept saying: "She's sick la!".Haha.After a while, he got the message.The longest call I've had.3 hours.lol.

What a record.Honestly, it was real fun.Besides, it has been a long time.And I purposely said all those memories that are very close to my heart.They're all inside, like photographs in a photo album.Hehs.We are going to do it again! Haha.Awesome weekend, this is turning into.

Maybe I'll update more later.

Jacob Black's skin has a woodsy, musky scent.

Everytime

2009-09-19T21:22:00.004+08:00

This has been one incredibly hyper weekend for me.

And I ain't complaining.Haha.I took my time to wake up in the afternoon.Cuz it has been a long week.And yeah, I was tired.After lazing around for so long, finally started making notes for Maths.I was waiting for my cousins to arrive.Took them long.Hehs.

Cousins and I talked talked, had fun.Of cuz, what I did talk about was (drumroll please), Jacob Black.Big shocker.Haha.He has officially become my wallpaper.And the subject of most of my conversations.I found some Jacob Black quotes from a website.So am going to post them.Enjoy.

Who's afraid of the big, bad wolf?

Jacob Black, New Moon; Chapter 13 p.321

You'd be better off dead.I rather you were.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 8 p.183

Does me being half-naked bother you?

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 10 p.218

Next time you want to hit me, use a baseball bat or a crowbar, okay?

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 15 p.335

He’s like a drug for you, Bella. I see that you can’t live without him now. It’s too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 26 p.599

The clouds I can handle.But I can't fight with an eclipse.

Jacob Black, Eclipse; Chapter 26 p.600

Nice, huh? Hehs.I love them all, actually.But these are special.Either funny or got real meaning to the words.I'm still addicted to Full Moon by Black Ghosts.It's actually slightly annoying when you listen the first few times.But it can be kinda soothing.Especially when you're riding in the car, at night, when it's raining.Extremely soothing and comforting.And it remind me of Jacob Black.

And I can see the pain in your eyes;

I can only watch as you hurt;

I cry for you every night;

So many things I can't say but I want to make right;

I'm sorry;

A Guaranteed Smile

2009-09-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

Today I started with a relatively good mood.

Okay, not only relatively.I was damn hyper.And smiling like a mad woman.Hehs.I came slightly later than I usually do.Walked to school with Karthika; Sri gave me a heart attack by walking behind without saying anything.Then, was gushing over Jacob Black, to Divya.Haha.Who else would I talk about?

The home economics project presentation went smooth.After taking my English Test, headed back to join the girls.I was kinda eager to get to dance.It's sort of the only place to release all my stress.Actually, I was damn talkative during practice.In a good way of cuz.Haha.I got praised a number of times, which made me want to dance even more.Hehs.

During break, Divya and I talked about Jacob Black.And after that, I was smiling through the entire dance routine.We would be dancing, then we see each other's face and our smiles just stretched wider.Haha.I'm so crazy about Jacob Black.Just so you know, I'm grinning like a mad woman right now.lol.

I've been watching the trailer again and again and yet, again.Haha.The name itself, will make a smile, that will last more than just a few seconds; Guaranteed.

Jacob Black

Ahhh...!!

New Moon

2009-09-17T17:28:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I blogged.

School is as hectic as ever.I didn't attend school on Wednesday, even cuz I was so tired.Plus, I had a swollen face.Don't ask.All I want to do right now, is sleep for hours and hours.But there's so much of work to be completed.

Actually, my head is in a turmoil.I don't understand people.They're the most fascinating living things in this planet.They think one thing, but say another.The important stuff, they hide inside.What for? Wouldn't it be better to just say it out.Atleast I wouldn't have a hard time trying to figure things out.

Part of me is actually quite tired with the current ongoings.I don't know what to think, anymore.So shan't.

Recently, it feels like every day has a new moon.I'm waiting for the slightest shine of light.It will come.It has to.Sooner or later.Ironically, I just read 'New Moon'.The only reason for re reading was, Jacob Black.

Obviously.He's the only fantasy that still makes sense.

Biri and Divya have been keeping me sane.Yet.Unexplainable.I've been feeling a little like an emotionless zombie, lately.And I'm probably the only one who's capable of feeling totally alone, when surrounded by so many people.

I'd like to talk to Bro; Maybe he'll find a less violent solution.

Check out this better trailer of New Moon:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__4nk303LXY&feature=channel

It shows exactly what Jacob Black means, to me.

Start Of Term 4

2009-09-13T16:21:00.004+08:00

Hello, fellow earthlings.

It's mid afternoon and I've still got pending homework.Art and DNT.I will complete it by tonight, for sure.During this school holiday, I've become quite lazy.Haiz.But school's going to start back, tomorrow.So, things are going to return back to normal.I'm going to devote my time revising for the finals.

Okay, the blogskin has been successfully changed.Thanks to the creator himself.Thanks, Bro.

Once school starts, I'm guessing I'll be flooding my own blog.

Anyways, do tag me on how the new skin looks like.

Jacob Black

2009-09-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

I tried so hard to put Bro's blogskin, but failed.I need help.

A brief update.

I went to NTUC and met Rohini.We bought whatever we needed and got back to my place.I think we are useless cooks/chefs.Seriously.The kitchen looked like we blastes something.lol.Our chutney didn't turn out exactly how we wanted.But the salad was great.Hehs.Rohini washed up and for that she got to drink up all my peach tea.lol.

Then, after sending mum off to work, went to Pasar Malam again.

I'm going to watch television now.Nothing else up.

I'm texting friends and thinking.

Of cuz, only one thing on my mind.And that's you;

Jacob Black

Empty

2009-09-12T00:25:00.004+08:00

I've changed my blogskin, as you'll can see.

Yesterday, I was all weird and all.I couldn't help it.But mum helped me out.And Bro tried to cheer me up.

*Thanks*

The song, that's playing, I'm addicted to it like crazy.I keep playing it over and over again in my phone.Today was okays.Cleaned the house with the rest of the family.That's pretty much it.Cuz we slept till 1400hrs.We party till very late, you see.Hehs.I really need to get organized.I've got to complete all my homework, by this evening.Tough luck, but not impossible.

I really want to get back to school.All the revising and preparing for the finals is somehow a comforting idea.

I have nothing much to say other than how much I love this skin.

And that my story is going great.

Plus, I'd like Jacob Black to sit beside me right now :)